A selfish nurse

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The reasons I'm going to continue to bust my ass in nursing school and put up the best effort I possibly can is because I owe it to myself. Half ass'ing a job, life, or whatever you are working toward is all on your shoulders. The hard work is evident to others, it's a display to the world what you represent as an individual. I get some satisfaction from impressing professors, maybe from some deep seeded trait engrained into me from a constant desire to impress my father. My father is a man with little ability to moderate his work, play, or relaxation. He's all go, 100% pedal to the metal, over-achieving type of guy. I've consistently heard from his co-workers that he is cut from a different mold, a mold infused with molecules that vibrate a little faster than all the rest. Unfortunately, I retain some of this inability to moderate my life. Last semester I maintained a 4.0, impressed the **** out of my clinical instructors, and succeeded in all regards academically. However, I have a girlfriend that was neglected, got somewhat chubby from sedentary hours spent reading and cramming knowledge in a tired mind, and ignored my "friends." Nursing school... it's the anti-life, socially anyway. I'm a more solitary individual anyhow, but do thrive and deeply appreciate the friends I have made over the years. In a human interaction I'm one to appreciate quality over quantity. Most people I find a reason to shy away from, (i.e., politically insane, religious fanatic, or treat their body/mind to a standard I disagree with). While nursing is a giving profession, at times nursing school feels like a selfish endeavor. I'm driven to the point where I put everything behind my success, so friends, family, and life... I'll hopefully see you in May. For now, I'll continue on the warpath of academia and self-mutilation as I push my limits of performance to exceed the expectations of others while just barely scratching the surface of mine.

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Normally I could not care less about grammar. But to come and and try to say how awesome you are when your post is riddled with errors makes your post almost humorous.

If you are so awesome. Be awesome. But less boastful. Or at least have proper grammar so people know what you are trying to say.

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The ironic thing about this is that nobody will notice or care once you're in your first job. Don't kill yourself just because... besides with nursing school - you ain't seen nothing yet.

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Specializes in Pain, critical care, administration, med.

A 4.0 doesn't mean that you are the best, just means you have book knowledge. Being a good nurse is more than that.

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I stopped trying to comprehend what you wrote halfway through your post.

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You go glen coco!!

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You go glen coco!!

I love that part in the movie!!!! Lmbo!!

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Specializes in Patient care.

Wow!! Super nurse!! You should go into Emergency/Trauma your energy would be appreciated there:))) Good luck

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Specializes in Emergency, Telemetry, Transplant.

Not to be rude, but what was the point to all this? Was the point that nursing school is hard and time consuming? Sure it is, but so is medical school, law school, PhD programs, and the list goes on and on. In other words, no matter what the endeavor, you have to put quite a bit of time and energy into it...at the expense of friends, significant others, family, pets, etc. Eventually that hard work will pay off. Yeah, it may stick now, but it is worth it.

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Specializes in Critical Care; Cardiac; Professional Development.

I'm confused. Did you have a question?

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Specializes in Peds/outpatient FP,derm,allergy/private duty.

Reads like the rough draft of an essay to me....anyway.. trying to read between the lines here...are you getting negativity from friends who are not as driven as you are? That tends to be a common issue within a cohort, especially if you were friends prior to nursing school.

If you are in overdrive because it is natural to you - then as a general rule it's up to others to deal with their own resentments.

Having said that, learning behaviors that go in the direction of a cooperative approach is as important as a 4.0 imo. Therefore your statement that you "shy away from most people" followed by some extreme descriptions seems like a distorted view of what "most people" are really like.

The lone wolf approach is the path of least resistance for over-achievers but sows the seeds for future problems down the line as a majority of reported issues have interpersonal relationships at the root. In nursing it can break a job that is perfect in every other way. My 2 cents...good luck to you.

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Specializes in Anesthesia, ICU, PCU.

Cool story bro.

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