I am not proud of my track record.

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Where do begin? :( I have been an LPN for 1 year in 2 months and unfortunately during this period I have had 5! nursing jobs. yes 5.

(1) I started off in a nursing home, just to find my niche I didn't like it but I needed a form of income and I needed some experience in the field. Two months in the DON called me and said, he thinks that its best that he let me go. He didn't give me a specific reason, but during my orientation the nurses that trained me had to evaluate how I was doing, so I assumed that did not do well during orientation. Like I said, I did not like the nursing home, I had 30-32 patients to care for and I just did not feel safe nor happy.

(2) My second job was in a pediatric home health, I was working for a family and one of the orders called for me to put cotton ball in the little boy's ears as he had surgery 2 days before. Well, I did put cotton ball in my patient ear but I had soaked and drained it with H.Peroxide. Well, the next day the family called the agency and said I put a wet cotton ball in the boys ears. The order stated for me to cleaned around the boy's ear with a cotton tip and H.peroxide and then placed a cotton ball in his ear. My mistake was I misunderstood what the outgoing nurse was telling me before she left about the patient new orders. My fault. It was a med error and the agency said I cannot work for them unless I complete a med error CEU. I never completed it, so never went back to work for them. Although, 6 months later they were still calling me to come work for them because they need nurses so bad. I didn't the patients they assign me usually live 45-50 minutes away and I just couldn't put myself through that again.

(3) My third job was a nursing home again. This lasted a month and a few weeks. I mentioned that I do not like the nursing home. I don't. But my mom work in this particular nursing home and she gave told the DON about me. Well, since my mom has been there for 5 years and a good worker they hired me. Well, I had so much patient work load that I did not do my treatments, although I charted that I did. This led to me having a meeting with the DON and 4 other people in administration. I was so nervous at that meeting that I told myself that I never want to be in such a position again. I felt humiliated, embarrassed, and just incompetent as a nurse. I was first suspended, but then let go. They informed me that they would report me to the BON. well it's been 8 months, have not gotten anything from the BON and I've checked my license online and it says I'm in good standing no complaints.

(4) My fourth job was at a pediatric clinic. i did not like it much as I felt I was losing many of my skills. I mostly gave immunizations to babies and worked on the doctor's schedule for the week. I worked there for 4 months but then i had to leave due to the fact that I started an RN program and the schedule would conflict with my work schedule. The manager loved me, got great reviews from them. I still felt bad though due to my recent firing. My self esteem just plummeted and Im still feeling like somethings wrong with me. Anyways, I did not get fired from this job, I left due to school.

(5) I am currently working for 2 agencies. one is a pediatric agency and the other is a pediatric and adult agency. Well, yesterday I got fired from the pediatric agency. The reason is I document that I left at my scheduled time when in reality I left 30 minutes early three time. Did I think they would find out? yeah. Did I think it was an issue. I did. I literally cannot figure out any reason as to why I charted that I left at 0700 when in reality I left at 0630. At the other agency I work for, one of the parents always let me leave early and she said I can still write down the time I left as the time I was scheduled. in my head, I started to think it was no longer a big deal so i did it with this agency. I know in nursing school they teach us not to do this, I hate that I'm not abiding by the things that I was taught in school and letting others influence my judgement. I knew it was a big deal and I did it anyway. I'm sure the other nurses that work with the pediatric/adult agency leave early but chart their scheduled time cause the guardian (mom) said its ok. Anyways, got called into the office today and I was let go. It is considered insurance fraud. in total I lied and said I worked 1 hour and 30 minutes. The DON were saying that the insurance company might not think its a big deal they might just say "oh, its only 1 hour and let it go. they do not think that I was trying to be malicious. but they have to report it to the BON. Two of the times I left, the patient had an appointment in the morning so he had to leave at 0530 but I charted that I left at 0600. the other time I left early is when I emailed the agency saying that I can now work 12 hours form 7pm-7am. well it wasn't suppose to start that particular week, but the following cause I have nursing clinical in the morning. Hence I left at 0630 but charted i left at 7. The DON was saying it all depends on how the BON choose to handle it.

I do not know what's wrong with me. I've never been fired before until I started nursing. I'm a few months from graduating an RN program and I still cannot get my act together. I want to treat this as a lesson learned. I'm feeling stupid cause I've been fired so many times. I'm still working for the pediatric/adult agency but I am going to chart the correct time that I leave, at the end of the day the I have to protect my license no one else. Does anyone know how long it will take for the BON to contact me? will they make a big deal over 1 hour and 30 minutes? My first year of nursing was rough. I take full responsibility. I am so embarrassed that I created another account to write this although my other account is not even lay real name. I need to remember all the handwork I put in into obtaining my license and not let it go so easily. What's wrong with me? I just do not think that I am learning from my mistakes as a normal human being would.

Sometimes, I think that this may not be the profession for me because I can't even get through my first year. I love caring for people and helping them get better. I guess I just didn't think nursing would be this strict about EVERYTHING! Literally have to follow rules to the T. and I'm not used to that unfortunately.

Yes, as I was reading the thread I was wondering whether maybe part of the problem is that you've never had to actually be responsible for anyone else before. A lot of what you're describing isn't "mistakes," it's fraud and falsification of medical records, which are both crimes. Yes, nursing is "this strict about EVERYTHING!", because individual's lives depend on your (all of our) personal honesty and integrity.

I believe you have some serious soul-searching to do. I'm not sure how you made it through school and getting licensed as an LPN without really grasping that the field requires that you be honest and diligent about your professional responsibilities, but it sounds like you're starting to get the picture. You need to think seriously about whether following the rules "to the T" is something you are capable of and committed to doing, because that's what's required for you to continue in nursing. I don't say this to be mean, but, since you expressed concern yourself, let me just clarify for you that, yes, at this point, you are "a bad nurse." A dangerous nurse. If you continue the way you have conducted yourself so far, you won't have a license for long, and that will resolve the situation for you. But you have the choice of turning things around for yourself.

Best wishes.

Specializes in Med/Surg, LTACH, LTC, Home Health.

If your LPN license is revoked, more than likely, you will not be issued an RN license. If you are placed on probation, you might see an extended delay in receiving your RN license....if you're even allowed to sit for the NCLEX. Of course, these are all my opinions.

On another note, real name or not, the sense of shame that I would feel if I were in your shoes would prevent me from EVER posting such an experience like this anywhere, whether it was true or not.

Specializes in NICU.
I guess I just didn't think nursing would be this strict about EVERYTHING! Literally have to follow rules to the T.

Wow. Really?

As a bedside nurse, we are the patient's best advocate and last defense -- against incorrect prescriptions, ill-advised treatments, anything that can adversely affect their course. There is also much less oversight in the patient-nurse interaction than within the multidisciplinary team; the latter is a collection of professionals with some checks and balances, whereas the former is an unequal relationship, where one party knows the right thing to do and the other might not. This is why a nurse's integrity is IMPERATIVE. You say you "love caring for people," but your flippancy with following policy says otherwise.

Specializes in OB-Gyn/Primary Care/Ambulatory Leadership.
I really want to be the best nurse that I can. I hated to admit it to myself, but I think that I am a bad nurse.

Well, based on what you wrote, I think you have good insight in your statement above. I guess it's good that you KNOW you're a bad nurse.

Here's the thing - with what you shared above, I would not hire you. Ever. Nor would any other decent place. The places that would hire you with your track record are the places that are so desperate that they're going to be bad work environments with huge patient loads. And you've already shown that you do not work well in that environment.

Honestly, my advice to you is to find a different career. Nursing is not the right career for you.

Specializes in CCU, SICU, CVSICU, Precepting & Teaching.
Where do begin? :( I have been an LPN for 1 year in 2 months and unfortunately during this period I have had 5! nursing jobs. yes 5.

(1) I started off in a nursing home, Two months in the DON called me and said, he thinks that its best that he let me go. He didn't give me a specific reason,

(2) My second job was in a pediatric home health, It was a med error and the agency said I cannot work for them unless I complete a med error CEU. I never completed it, so never went back to work for them.

(3) My third job was a nursing home again. This lasted a month and a few weeks. Well, I had so much patient work load that I did not do my treatments, although I charted that I did. I was first suspended, but then let go. They informed me that they would report me to the BON.

(4) My fourth job was at a pediatric clinic. i did not like it much as I felt I was losing many of my skills. I mostly gave immunizations to babies and worked on the doctor's schedule for the week.

(5) I am currently working for 2 agencies. one is a pediatric agency and the other is a pediatric and adult agency. yesterday I got fired from the pediatric agency. The reason is I document that I left at my scheduled time when in reality I left 30 minutes early three time. y. Anyways, got called into the office today and I was let go. It is considered insurance fraud.

I do not know what's wrong with me. I've never been fired before until I started nursing. I'm a few months from graduating an RN program and I still cannot get my act together. I want to treat this as a lesson learned. I'm feeling stupid cause I've been fired so many times. I'm still working for the pediatric/adult agency but I am going to chart the correct time that I leave, at the end of the day the I have to protect my license no one else. Does anyone know how long it will take for the BON to contact me? will they make a big deal over 1 hour and 30 minutes? My first year of nursing was rough. I take full responsibility. I am so embarrassed that I created another account to write this although my other account is not even lay real name. I need to remember all the handwork I put in into obtaining my license and not let it go so easily. What's wrong with me? I just do not think that I am learning from my mistakes as a normal human being would.

In less than a year, you've had six jobs, and you've been fired three times. You've quit for some pretty dubious reasons -- you made a med error and refused to complete the remediation required by the agency. You left because you "thought you were losing your skills." And besides, that job conflicted with your school schedule. You've lied, you've failed to honor commitments, you have committed falsification of documentation and insurance fraud. With all of that on your record, when the BON does get around to looking at you, I'd guess you would not be a stellar candidate for RN licensure. There may even be a TOS violation in having two accounts.

I'd say you seem immature -- and you DO -- but it seems to be more than that. Not only are you not learning from your mistakes, you are actively out there committing CRIMES. That's bad.

My advice is to quit school and get your act together. I'm not sure you can be licensed as an RN if you finish school, but I'm sure there are other experts you can consult about that. You don't seem to be blessed with a normal conscience, you lack honor and integrity. Even if you can be licensed, you don't seem to be a good candidate to be a nurse. Forget about your "skills" and your "niche." Skills can be learned and a niche can be found, but first you have to be an honorable and ethical human being. Perhaps some counseling is in order to help you figure out why you keep doing the same thing over and over.

I don't think I've ever recommended that anyone give up nursing before, but as a person who lacks honesty, integrity and a functioning conscience, I don't think you're cut out to be a nurse. Perhaps people can change, if they want to badly enough. If you are able to change, perhaps you can be a nurse. But you have a lot of work to do first.

In less than a year, you've had six jobs, and you've been fired three times. You've quit for some pretty dubious reasons -- you made a med error and refused to complete the remediation required by the agency. You left because you "thought you were losing your skills." And besides, that job conflicted with your school schedule. You've lied, you've failed to honor commitments, you have committed falsification of documentation and insurance fraud. With all of that on your record, when the BON does get around to looking at you, I'd guess you would not be a stellar candidate for RN licensure. There may even be a TOS violation in having two accounts.

I'd say you seem immature -- and you DO -- but it seems to be more than that. Not only are you not learning from your mistakes, you are actively out there committing CRIMES. That's bad.

My advice is to quit school and get your act together. I'm not sure you can be licensed as an RN if you finish school, but I'm sure there are other experts you can consult about that. You don't seem to be blessed with a normal conscience, you lack honor and integrity. Even if you can be licensed, you don't seem to be a good candidate to be a nurse. Forget about your "skills" and your "niche." Skills can be learned and a niche can be found, but first you have to be an honorable and ethical human being. Perhaps some counseling is in order to help you figure out why you keep doing the same thing over and over.

I don't think I've ever recommended that anyone give up nursing before, but as a person who lacks honesty, integrity and a functioning conscience, I don't think you're cut out to be a nurse. Perhaps people can change, if they want to badly enough. If you are able to change, perhaps you can be a nurse. But you have a lot of work to do first.

This will be the first time, I will be reported to the board. I am not aware that the BON know about the previous things I've done so, how will I not be able to sit for my RN license? I understand falsification is a crime and for 1 hour and 30 minutes, I do not think my license should be taken away. MY DON at agency, said this might not be a career ender but to take it as a lesson. I won't do it again now that I know what I know now.

When you enter a profession where you literally hold someone's very life in your hands, there is no room ever for mistakes, careless errors, or outright falsification. You say you want to be the best nurse you can be? It doesn't sound like it. You should cut your losses now and start looking for another career because you won't last long in nursing.

Specializes in OB-Gyn/Primary Care/Ambulatory Leadership.
This will be the first time, I will be reported to the board. I am not aware that the BON know about the previous things I've done so, how will I not be able to sit for my RN license? I understand falsification is a crime and for 1 hour and 30 minutes, I do not think my license should be taken away. MY DON at agency, said this might not be a career ender but to take it as a lesson. I won't do it again now that I know what I know now.

But that's the only one you WERE REPORTED FOR. You've falsified documentation in the past as well (charting that you did treatments that you did not do).

You won't do it again now that you know that lying and fraud are wrong? You didn't know that before? My concern is - what other things that the rest of the world knows is wrong, that you apparently do not because you haven't been explicitly told or disciplined for?

When you enter a profession where you literally hold someone's very life in your hands, there is no room ever for mistakes, careless errors, or outright falsification. You say you want to be the best nurse you can be? It doesn't sound like it. You should cut your losses now and start looking for another career because you won't last long in nursing.

So you're saying you never made mistakes at all as a nurse, hmm?

Not to mitigate anything you have said, but each of the things you have described I have seen some version of, being committed by many nurses, over the years. The difference? They all got away with their transgressions, you did not. I just say this because I do not want you to think you are the lone ranger when it comes to these individual situations.

While nursing may not be for you, stop to think that your spotty job history is going to follow you through to your next endeavor. If I were you, I would do everything in my power to keep the one job that you still have in hand. And in order to do that, I agree with the others, that you need to do some serious soul-searching. Add to that, counseling, personal and/or career, for your apparent habit of sabotaging yourself on the job. If you can not reconcile yourself to nursing after doing these self-help measures, then at least stay with the last job long enough to make one positive dent on your resume and leave on your own terms. Good luck.

Specializes in NICU, ICU, PICU, Academia.
So you're saying you never made mistakes at all as a nurse, hmm?

Not talking about mistakes. Talking about fraud, willfully NOT doing what you said you did, omitting treatments, falsifying records.

But that's the only one you WERE REPORTED FOR. You've falsified documentation in the past as well (charting that you did treatments that you did not do).

You won't do it again now that you know that lying and fraud are wrong? You didn't know that before? My concern is - what other things that the rest of the world knows is wrong, that you apparently do not because you haven't been explicitly told or disciplined for?

I don't think you understood my comment. I know that fraud is WRONG. Did I know it was fraud at the time? not necessarily. I didn't think it was on the level that it was, such as involving insurance companies and everything else that goes into it. Now that I know what's all involve and seeing the big picture, will I do it again. "NO" I worked too hard to obtain my license and I am not going to lose so easily. Before this I had no complaint with the company, they even gave me a raise literally 3 weeks prior because the DON said I was doing well with the company. When I went in for my meeting, the DON was saying how she thought I was a good nurse and because the company has a "0" tolerance policy on fraud she has to let me go.

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