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I agree. This thread has ran its course...Thanks for the many suggestions!

At this point, I wouldn't mind starving.

To be honest, I'm so so depressed about the whole situation. I can't believe that after 1 year of nursing I am at risk of losing my license and the possibility of facing criminal charges. I have literally ruined my life.

It's not easy just to quit my current home health job and drop out of school. what I have done is improved my nursing care with my current patient and signed up for my first counseling session.

If you must know, early 20's (yes), still living with parents (yes), new nurse (yes). Just trying to better my life and learn from this.

Just because I don't comment on every single post does not mean that I have not learned from this. And obviously, you are free to comment as you please. It's the redundancy that I feel is not needed. I get it. You think that I should not be a nurse! You think that I am a bad person and unethical! You think that I only think/care about myself! You've said that over and over again. I don't have to comment or prove to you that I've learned a lesson from this. At the end of the day, it only matters on how I apply the things that I have learned from here on out.

Yes. They state that I have the right to be represented by an attorney. However, I search the TANNA website and there does not seem to be any for the state of Fl. Maybe I can try calling on monday.

That I am under investigation and has to submit a written response or schedule an interview.

I asked a simple question about how to go about getting a lawyer and you still continue on about how I am unfit for nursing or just how I am a bad person overall. If you couldn't offer a suggestion to my question, I don't understand why you commented. How do you know that I did not take any of the suggestions offered here to heart? Are you able to read my heart. Boy! am I glad that at the end of the day GOD is the ultimate judge of our transgressions and not humans. You literally keep carrying on ana on about the same thing.

Can I still continue to work as a nurse while under investigation?

Well... I finally got a letter from the BON, I have to respond in 20 days. should I contact a lawyer, I've never had to deal with the judicial system before so I'm not sure where to begin. It's just difficult to go through this while I have 3 more weeks left of school and studying for finals. Life is pretty depressing at the moment...

Yes. More emotional than physical. I'll take your advice and seek counseling. I'm not sure how they will be able to help, but it's worth a try.

Guys! Don't you think that people have the ability to change? Goodness! one would think that I am the WORST nurse in the history of nursing by some of these comments. Anyways, I would like to thank those who offered constructive criticism. I know "Nursing" is what I want to do and I can only get better from here on out.

I already planned on leaving the job.

I am not saying what I have done was a mistake. I understand that what I did was wrong. This is why I created this thread hoping to get some advice to talk to someone about it because I was feeling so terrible. With that said, this was a wake up call. I'm going to try to better myself as a nurse. I don't want to be a "bad nurse" otherwise, I will just leave the profession altogether. I'm going to continue working with the patient that I'm working with now and hopefully obtain another case as I continue to support myself through school. In no way am I minimizing my actions, it was wrong. point.blank. period. I don't want to put others live in jeopardy nor do want to have such actions weighing heavy on my conscious. I'm going to wait on the BON response and hopefully move on from this.