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by STARL STARL (Member) Member

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Where do begin? :( I have been an LPN for 1 year in 2 months and unfortunately during this period I have had 5! Nursing Jobs. yes 5.

(1) I started off in a nursing home, just to find my niche I didn't like it but I needed a form of income and I needed some experience in the field. Two months in the DON called me and said, he thinks that its best that he let me go. He didn't give me a specific reason, but during my orientation the nurses that trained me had to evaluate how I was doing, so I assumed that did not do well during orientation. Like I said, I did not like the nursing home, I had 30-32 patients to care for and I just did not feel safe nor happy.

(2) My second job was in a pediatric home health, I was working for a family and one of the orders called for me to put cotton ball in the little boy's ears as he had surgery 2 days before. Well, I did put cotton ball in my patient ear but I had soaked and drained it with H.Peroxide. Well, the next day the family called the agency and said I put a wet cotton ball in the boys ears. The order stated for me to cleaned around the boy's ear with a cotton tip and H.peroxide and then placed a cotton ball in his ear. My mistake was I misunderstood what the outgoing nurse was telling me before she left about the patient new orders. My fault. It was a med error and the agency said I cannot work for them unless I complete a med error CEU. I never completed it, so never went back to work for them. Although, 6 months later they were still calling me to come work for them because they need nurses so bad. I didn't the patients they assign me usually live 45-50 minutes away and I just couldn't put myself through that again.

(3) My third job was a nursing home again. This lasted a month and a few weeks. I mentioned that I do not like the nursing home. I don't. But my mom work in this particular nursing home and she gave told the DON about me. Well, since my mom has been there for 5 years and a good worker they hired me. Well, I had so much patient work load that I did not do my treatments, although I charted that I did. This led to me having a meeting with the DON and 4 other people in administration. I was so nervous at that meeting that I told myself that I never want to be in such a position again. I felt humiliated, embarrassed, and just incompetent as a nurse. I was first suspended, but then let go. They informed me that they would report me to the BON. well it's been 8 months, have not gotten anything from the BON and I've checked my license online and it says I'm in good standing no complaints.

(4) My fourth job was at a pediatric clinic. i did not like it much as I felt I was losing many of my skills. I mostly gave immunizations to babies and worked on the doctor's schedule for the week. I worked there for 4 months but then i had to leave due to the fact that I started an RN program and the schedule would conflict with my work schedule. The manager loved me, got great reviews from them. I still felt bad though due to my recent firing. My self esteem just plummeted and Im still feeling like somethings wrong with me. Anyways, I did not get fired from this job, I left due to school.

(5) I am currently working for 2 agencies. one is a pediatric agency and the other is a pediatric and adult agency. Well, yesterday I got fired from the pediatric agency. The reason is I document that I left at my scheduled time when in reality I left 30 minutes early three time. Did I think they would find out? yeah. Did I think it was an issue. I did. I literally cannot figure out any reason as to why I charted that I left at 0700 when in reality I left at 0630. At the other agency I work for, one of the parents always let me leave early and she said I can still write down the time I left as the time I was scheduled. in my head, I started to think it was no longer a big deal so i did it with this agency. I know in nursing school they teach us not to do this, I hate that I'm not abiding by the things that I was taught in school and letting others influence my judgement. I knew it was a big deal and I did it anyway. I'm sure the other nurses that work with the pediatric/adult agency leave early but chart their scheduled time cause the guardian (mom) said its ok. Anyways, got called into the office today and I was let go. It is considered insurance fraud. in total I lied and said I worked 1 hour and 30 minutes. The DON were saying that the insurance company might not think its a big deal they might just say "oh, its only 1 hour and let it go. they do not think that I was trying to be malicious. but they have to report it to the BON. Two of the times I left, the patient had an appointment in the morning so he had to leave at 0530 but I charted that I left at 0600. the other time I left early is when I emailed the agency saying that I can now work 12 hours form 7pm-7am. well it wasn't suppose to start that particular week, but the following cause I have nursing clinical in the morning. Hence I left at 0630 but charted i left at 7. The DON was saying it all depends on how the BON choose to handle it.

I do not know what's wrong with me. I've never been fired before until I started nursing. I'm a few months from graduating an RN program and I still cannot get my act together. I want to treat this as a lesson learned. I'm feeling stupid cause I've been fired so many times. I'm still working for the pediatric/adult agency but I am going to chart the correct time that I leave, at the end of the day the I have to protect my license no one else. Does anyone know how long it will take for the BON to contact me? will they make a big deal over 1 hour and 30 minutes? My first year of nursing was rough. I take full responsibility. I am so embarrassed that I created another account to write this although my other account is not even lay real name. I need to remember all the handwork I put in into obtaining my license and not let it go so easily. What's wrong with me? I just do not think that I am learning from my mistakes as a normal human being would.

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Nurse SMS has 8 years experience as a MSN, RN and specializes in Critical Care; Cardiac; Professional Development.

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What is wrong with you? I don't know that anything is "wrong" with you other than you seem to be ill suited for being a nurse on a multitude of levels. You are very hung up, it sounds like, on "liking" your job.

You have excellent exposure to what nursing is through all of these positions. It isn't going to change. It isn't going to get easier. That you falsified medical records is difficult to read about without having a very angry reaction. Patients did not get the care they needed not because you didn't get to it but because you SAID it was done when it wasn't.

I suspect because your mother works there they have quietly decided not to turn you in to the Board.

Becoming an RN is only going to make things harder for you. I am sure it isn't what you want to hear and I do not mean this unkindly, but I do mean it firmly. You need consider doing something else with your life.

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You started and are about to complete an RN program in less than half a year's time?

These issues seem to run pretty deep, I'm not sure where to start to advise.

ETA Are you somewhere other than the US?

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NurseGirl525 is a ASN, RN and specializes in ICU.

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I don't even know what to say here. You have made multitudes of errors and are not a very good employee overall. You chart things you do not do, you falsify your time card. You make med errors.

We all make mistakes. We do. But it seems to me you don't care about your career at all. It doesn't matter if you like it. You need to be competent while you are on the job. That should be your priority.

You need to take some time and evaluate your safety level and ethics. It's not ethical to falsify records, whether it's charting or time cards. You have essentially stolen. You stole from your employers. I say work in retail or the restaurant business where you don't have lives in your hands temporarily until you can figure out a good career path. At this time, nursing is not for you.

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Davey Do has 35 years experience and specializes in Psych, CD, HH, Admin, LTC, OR, ER, Med Surge.

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Yeah. Wow.

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I live in the U.S. I am doing an LPN-RN program

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I live in the U.S. I am doing an LPN-RN program

I've never heard of such a short program, the idea of it makes cringe actually. My first thought is that you might be a compulsive liar but admittedly I don't know what all is available out there so I could off base.

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I really want to be the best nurse that I can. I hated to admit it to myself, but I think that I am a bad nurse. I did not go into this profession to act like this and I do not know why. I want to get better, I feel like I can do better. I've done some things that Im not proud of. It was so hard to write this, but I decided to because I need help. I was thinking of looking into insurance nursing where I'm not at the bedside, but you need experience for those jobs and i'm still a new nurse. I don't know how the BON will respond when they do send out the complaint.

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LPN-RN programs are only a year. I started this summer in May and I'll be done in May. I have one more semester.

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I really want to be the best nurse that I can. I hated to admit it to myself, but I think that I am a bad nurse. I did not go into this profession to act like this and I do not know why. I want to get better, I feel like I can do better. I've done some things that Im not proud of. It was so hard to write this, but I decided to because I need help. I was thinking of looking into insurance nursing where I'm not at the bedside, but you need experience for those jobs and i'm still a new nurse. I don't know how the BON will respond when they do send out the complaint.

I don't think this is primarily a nursing issue per say, and I really think you should explore why you would lie under essentially no pressure before you get yourself in deeper trouble in the next job.

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traumaRUs has 27 years experience as a MSN, APRN, CNS and specializes in Nephrology, Cardiology, ER, ICU.

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How about seeing your medical provider for a full check-up? Maybe there is something else going on here....best wishes.

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Sometimes, I think that this may not be the profession for me because I can't even get through my first year. I love caring for people and helping them get better. I guess I just didn't think nursing would be this strict about EVERYTHING! Literally have to follow rules to the T. and I'm not used to that unfortunately.

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