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I am not proud of my track record.

Where do begin? :( I have been an LPN for 1 year in 2 months and unfortunately during this period I have had 5! nursing jobs. yes 5.

(1) I started off in a nursing home, just to find my niche I didn't like it but I needed a form of income and I needed some experience in the field. Two months in the DON called me and said, he thinks that its best that he let me go. He didn't give me a specific reason, but during my orientation the nurses that trained me had to evaluate how I was doing, so I assumed that did not do well during orientation. Like I said, I did not like the nursing home, I had 30-32 patients to care for and I just did not feel safe nor happy.

(2) My second job was in a pediatric home health, I was working for a family and one of the orders called for me to put cotton ball in the little boy's ears as he had surgery 2 days before. Well, I did put cotton ball in my patient ear but I had soaked and drained it with H.Peroxide. Well, the next day the family called the agency and said I put a wet cotton ball in the boys ears. The order stated for me to cleaned around the boy's ear with a cotton tip and H.peroxide and then placed a cotton ball in his ear. My mistake was I misunderstood what the outgoing nurse was telling me before she left about the patient new orders. My fault. It was a med error and the agency said I cannot work for them unless I complete a med error CEU. I never completed it, so never went back to work for them. Although, 6 months later they were still calling me to come work for them because they need nurses so bad. I didn't the patients they assign me usually live 45-50 minutes away and I just couldn't put myself through that again.

(3) My third job was a nursing home again. This lasted a month and a few weeks. I mentioned that I do not like the nursing home. I don't. But my mom work in this particular nursing home and she gave told the DON about me. Well, since my mom has been there for 5 years and a good worker they hired me. Well, I had so much patient work load that I did not do my treatments, although I charted that I did. This led to me having a meeting with the DON and 4 other people in administration. I was so nervous at that meeting that I told myself that I never want to be in such a position again. I felt humiliated, embarrassed, and just incompetent as a nurse. I was first suspended, but then let go. They informed me that they would report me to the BON. well it's been 8 months, have not gotten anything from the BON and I've checked my license online and it says I'm in good standing no complaints.

(4) My fourth job was at a pediatric clinic. i did not like it much as I felt I was losing many of my skills. I mostly gave immunizations to babies and worked on the doctor's schedule for the week. I worked there for 4 months but then i had to leave due to the fact that I started an RN program and the schedule would conflict with my work schedule. The manager loved me, got great reviews from them. I still felt bad though due to my recent firing. My self esteem just plummeted and Im still feeling like somethings wrong with me. Anyways, I did not get fired from this job, I left due to school.

(5) I am currently working for 2 agencies. one is a pediatric agency and the other is a pediatric and adult agency. Well, yesterday I got fired from the pediatric agency. The reason is I document that I left at my scheduled time when in reality I left 30 minutes early three time. Did I think they would find out? yeah. Did I think it was an issue. I did. I literally cannot figure out any reason as to why I charted that I left at 0700 when in reality I left at 0630. At the other agency I work for, one of the parents always let me leave early and she said I can still write down the time I left as the time I was scheduled. in my head, I started to think it was no longer a big deal so i did it with this agency. I know in nursing school they teach us not to do this, I hate that I'm not abiding by the things that I was taught in school and letting others influence my judgement. I knew it was a big deal and I did it anyway. I'm sure the other nurses that work with the pediatric/adult agency leave early but chart their scheduled time cause the guardian (mom) said its ok. Anyways, got called into the office today and I was let go. It is considered insurance fraud. in total I lied and said I worked 1 hour and 30 minutes. The DON were saying that the insurance company might not think its a big deal they might just say "oh, its only 1 hour and let it go. they do not think that I was trying to be malicious. but they have to report it to the BON. Two of the times I left, the patient had an appointment in the morning so he had to leave at 0530 but I charted that I left at 0600. the other time I left early is when I emailed the agency saying that I can now work 12 hours form 7pm-7am. well it wasn't suppose to start that particular week, but the following cause I have nursing clinical in the morning. Hence I left at 0630 but charted i left at 7. The DON was saying it all depends on how the BON choose to handle it.

I do not know what's wrong with me. I've never been fired before until I started nursing. I'm a few months from graduating an RN program and I still cannot get my act together. I want to treat this as a lesson learned. I'm feeling stupid cause I've been fired so many times. I'm still working for the pediatric/adult agency but I am going to chart the correct time that I leave, at the end of the day the I have to protect my license no one else. Does anyone know how long it will take for the BON to contact me? will they make a big deal over 1 hour and 30 minutes? My first year of nursing was rough. I take full responsibility. I am so embarrassed that I created another account to write this although my other account is not even lay real name. I need to remember all the handwork I put in into obtaining my license and not let it go so easily. What's wrong with me? I just do not think that I am learning from my mistakes as a normal human being would.

Nurse SMS, MSN, RN

Specializes in Critical Care; Cardiac; Professional Development.

What is wrong with you? I don't know that anything is "wrong" with you other than you seem to be ill suited for being a nurse on a multitude of levels. You are very hung up, it sounds like, on "liking" your job.

You have excellent exposure to what nursing is through all of these positions. It isn't going to change. It isn't going to get easier. That you falsified medical records is difficult to read about without having a very angry reaction. Patients did not get the care they needed not because you didn't get to it but because you SAID it was done when it wasn't.

I suspect because your mother works there they have quietly decided not to turn you in to the Board.

Becoming an RN is only going to make things harder for you. I am sure it isn't what you want to hear and I do not mean this unkindly, but I do mean it firmly. You need consider doing something else with your life.

You started and are about to complete an RN program in less than half a year's time?

These issues seem to run pretty deep, I'm not sure where to start to advise.

ETA Are you somewhere other than the US?

NurseGirl525, ASN, RN

Specializes in ICU.

I don't even know what to say here. You have made multitudes of errors and are not a very good employee overall. You chart things you do not do, you falsify your time card. You make med errors.

We all make mistakes. We do. But it seems to me you don't care about your career at all. It doesn't matter if you like it. You need to be competent while you are on the job. That should be your priority.

You need to take some time and evaluate your safety level and ethics. It's not ethical to falsify records, whether it's charting or time cards. You have essentially stolen. You stole from your employers. I say work in retail or the restaurant business where you don't have lives in your hands temporarily until you can figure out a good career path. At this time, nursing is not for you.

Davey Do

Specializes in Psych, CD, HH, Admin, LTC, OR, ER, Med Surge.

Yeah. Wow.

I live in the U.S. I am doing an LPN-RN program

I live in the U.S. I am doing an LPN-RN program

I've never heard of such a short program, the idea of it makes cringe actually. My first thought is that you might be a compulsive liar but admittedly I don't know what all is available out there so I could off base.

I really want to be the best nurse that I can. I hated to admit it to myself, but I think that I am a bad nurse. I did not go into this profession to act like this and I do not know why. I want to get better, I feel like I can do better. I've done some things that Im not proud of. It was so hard to write this, but I decided to because I need help. I was thinking of looking into insurance nursing where I'm not at the bedside, but you need experience for those jobs and i'm still a new nurse. I don't know how the BON will respond when they do send out the complaint.

LPN-RN programs are only a year. I started this summer in May and I'll be done in May. I have one more semester.

I really want to be the best nurse that I can. I hated to admit it to myself, but I think that I am a bad nurse. I did not go into this profession to act like this and I do not know why. I want to get better, I feel like I can do better. I've done some things that Im not proud of. It was so hard to write this, but I decided to because I need help. I was thinking of looking into insurance nursing where I'm not at the bedside, but you need experience for those jobs and i'm still a new nurse. I don't know how the BON will respond when they do send out the complaint.

I don't think this is primarily a nursing issue per say, and I really think you should explore why you would lie under essentially no pressure before you get yourself in deeper trouble in the next job.

traumaRUs, MSN, APRN, CNS

Specializes in Nephrology, Cardiology, ER, ICU.

How about seeing your medical provider for a full check-up? Maybe there is something else going on here....best wishes.

Sometimes, I think that this may not be the profession for me because I can't even get through my first year. I love caring for people and helping them get better. I guess I just didn't think nursing would be this strict about EVERYTHING! Literally have to follow rules to the T. and I'm not used to that unfortunately.

Sometimes, I think that this may not be the profession for me because I can't even get through my first year. I love caring for people and helping them get better. I guess I just didn't think nursing would be this strict about EVERYTHING! Literally have to follow rules to the T. and I'm not used to that unfortunately.

Yes, as I was reading the thread I was wondering whether maybe part of the problem is that you've never had to actually be responsible for anyone else before. A lot of what you're describing isn't "mistakes," it's fraud and falsification of medical records, which are both crimes. Yes, nursing is "this strict about EVERYTHING!", because individual's lives depend on your (all of our) personal honesty and integrity.

I believe you have some serious soul-searching to do. I'm not sure how you made it through school and getting licensed as an LPN without really grasping that the field requires that you be honest and diligent about your professional responsibilities, but it sounds like you're starting to get the picture. You need to think seriously about whether following the rules "to the T" is something you are capable of and committed to doing, because that's what's required for you to continue in nursing. I don't say this to be mean, but, since you expressed concern yourself, let me just clarify for you that, yes, at this point, you are "a bad nurse." A dangerous nurse. If you continue the way you have conducted yourself so far, you won't have a license for long, and that will resolve the situation for you. But you have the choice of turning things around for yourself.

Best wishes.

BSNbeDONE, ASN, BSN, LPN, RN

Specializes in Med/Surg, LTACH, LTC, Home Health.

If your LPN license is revoked, more than likely, you will not be issued an RN license. If you are placed on probation, you might see an extended delay in receiving your RN license....if you're even allowed to sit for the NCLEX. Of course, these are all my opinions.

On another note, real name or not, the sense of shame that I would feel if I were in your shoes would prevent me from EVER posting such an experience like this anywhere, whether it was true or not.

Coffee Nurse, BSN, RN

Specializes in NICU.

I guess I just didn't think nursing would be this strict about EVERYTHING! Literally have to follow rules to the T.

Wow. Really?

As a bedside nurse, we are the patient's best advocate and last defense -- against incorrect prescriptions, ill-advised treatments, anything that can adversely affect their course. There is also much less oversight in the patient-nurse interaction than within the multidisciplinary team; the latter is a collection of professionals with some checks and balances, whereas the former is an unequal relationship, where one party knows the right thing to do and the other might not. This is why a nurse's integrity is IMPERATIVE. You say you "love caring for people," but your flippancy with following policy says otherwise.

klone, MSN, RN

Specializes in Women's Health/OB Leadership.

I really want to be the best nurse that I can. I hated to admit it to myself, but I think that I am a bad nurse.

Well, based on what you wrote, I think you have good insight in your statement above. I guess it's good that you KNOW you're a bad nurse.

Here's the thing - with what you shared above, I would not hire you. Ever. Nor would any other decent place. The places that would hire you with your track record are the places that are so desperate that they're going to be bad work environments with huge patient loads. And you've already shown that you do not work well in that environment.

Honestly, my advice to you is to find a different career. Nursing is not the right career for you.

Ruby Vee, BSN

Specializes in CCU, SICU, CVSICU, Precepting & Teaching.

Where do begin? :( I have been an LPN for 1 year in 2 months and unfortunately during this period I have had 5! nursing jobs. yes 5.

(1) I started off in a nursing home, Two months in the DON called me and said, he thinks that its best that he let me go. He didn't give me a specific reason,

(2) My second job was in a pediatric home health, It was a med error and the agency said I cannot work for them unless I complete a med error CEU. I never completed it, so never went back to work for them.

(3) My third job was a nursing home again. This lasted a month and a few weeks. Well, I had so much patient work load that I did not do my treatments, although I charted that I did. I was first suspended, but then let go. They informed me that they would report me to the BON.

(4) My fourth job was at a pediatric clinic. i did not like it much as I felt I was losing many of my skills. I mostly gave immunizations to babies and worked on the doctor's schedule for the week.

(5) I am currently working for 2 agencies. one is a pediatric agency and the other is a pediatric and adult agency. yesterday I got fired from the pediatric agency. The reason is I document that I left at my scheduled time when in reality I left 30 minutes early three time. y. Anyways, got called into the office today and I was let go. It is considered insurance fraud.

I do not know what's wrong with me. I've never been fired before until I started nursing. I'm a few months from graduating an RN program and I still cannot get my act together. I want to treat this as a lesson learned. I'm feeling stupid cause I've been fired so many times. I'm still working for the pediatric/adult agency but I am going to chart the correct time that I leave, at the end of the day the I have to protect my license no one else. Does anyone know how long it will take for the BON to contact me? will they make a big deal over 1 hour and 30 minutes? My first year of nursing was rough. I take full responsibility. I am so embarrassed that I created another account to write this although my other account is not even lay real name. I need to remember all the handwork I put in into obtaining my license and not let it go so easily. What's wrong with me? I just do not think that I am learning from my mistakes as a normal human being would.

In less than a year, you've had six jobs, and you've been fired three times. You've quit for some pretty dubious reasons -- you made a med error and refused to complete the remediation required by the agency. You left because you "thought you were losing your skills." And besides, that job conflicted with your school schedule. You've lied, you've failed to honor commitments, you have committed falsification of documentation and insurance fraud. With all of that on your record, when the BON does get around to looking at you, I'd guess you would not be a stellar candidate for RN licensure. There may even be a TOS violation in having two accounts.

I'd say you seem immature -- and you DO -- but it seems to be more than that. Not only are you not learning from your mistakes, you are actively out there committing CRIMES. That's bad.

My advice is to quit school and get your act together. I'm not sure you can be licensed as an RN if you finish school, but I'm sure there are other experts you can consult about that. You don't seem to be blessed with a normal conscience, you lack honor and integrity. Even if you can be licensed, you don't seem to be a good candidate to be a nurse. Forget about your "skills" and your "niche." Skills can be learned and a niche can be found, but first you have to be an honorable and ethical human being. Perhaps some counseling is in order to help you figure out why you keep doing the same thing over and over.

I don't think I've ever recommended that anyone give up nursing before, but as a person who lacks honesty, integrity and a functioning conscience, I don't think you're cut out to be a nurse. Perhaps people can change, if they want to badly enough. If you are able to change, perhaps you can be a nurse. But you have a lot of work to do first.

In less than a year, you've had six jobs, and you've been fired three times. You've quit for some pretty dubious reasons -- you made a med error and refused to complete the remediation required by the agency. You left because you "thought you were losing your skills." And besides, that job conflicted with your school schedule. You've lied, you've failed to honor commitments, you have committed falsification of documentation and insurance fraud. With all of that on your record, when the BON does get around to looking at you, I'd guess you would not be a stellar candidate for RN licensure. There may even be a TOS violation in having two accounts.

I'd say you seem immature -- and you DO -- but it seems to be more than that. Not only are you not learning from your mistakes, you are actively out there committing CRIMES. That's bad.

My advice is to quit school and get your act together. I'm not sure you can be licensed as an RN if you finish school, but I'm sure there are other experts you can consult about that. You don't seem to be blessed with a normal conscience, you lack honor and integrity. Even if you can be licensed, you don't seem to be a good candidate to be a nurse. Forget about your "skills" and your "niche." Skills can be learned and a niche can be found, but first you have to be an honorable and ethical human being. Perhaps some counseling is in order to help you figure out why you keep doing the same thing over and over.

I don't think I've ever recommended that anyone give up nursing before, but as a person who lacks honesty, integrity and a functioning conscience, I don't think you're cut out to be a nurse. Perhaps people can change, if they want to badly enough. If you are able to change, perhaps you can be a nurse. But you have a lot of work to do first.

This will be the first time, I will be reported to the board. I am not aware that the BON know about the previous things I've done so, how will I not be able to sit for my RN license? I understand falsification is a crime and for 1 hour and 30 minutes, I do not think my license should be taken away. MY DON at agency, said this might not be a career ender but to take it as a lesson. I won't do it again now that I know what I know now.

When you enter a profession where you literally hold someone's very life in your hands, there is no room ever for mistakes, careless errors, or outright falsification. You say you want to be the best nurse you can be? It doesn't sound like it. You should cut your losses now and start looking for another career because you won't last long in nursing.

klone, MSN, RN

Specializes in Women's Health/OB Leadership.

This will be the first time, I will be reported to the board. I am not aware that the BON know about the previous things I've done so, how will I not be able to sit for my RN license? I understand falsification is a crime and for 1 hour and 30 minutes, I do not think my license should be taken away. MY DON at agency, said this might not be a career ender but to take it as a lesson. I won't do it again now that I know what I know now.

But that's the only one you WERE REPORTED FOR. You've falsified documentation in the past as well (charting that you did treatments that you did not do).

You won't do it again now that you know that lying and fraud are wrong? You didn't know that before? My concern is - what other things that the rest of the world knows is wrong, that you apparently do not because you haven't been explicitly told or disciplined for?

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