Oh gosh, first take a deep breath. Let your lawyer work for you. Also, as you admitted, you are depressed and upset (and this is natural considering the circumstances). Have you had a complete physical? How about some counseling? I'm gathering there are no substance abuse issues? Or if there are, start going to meetings; AA/NA or something.
Please talk to someone in real life too - do you have a close family member or friend that you could bounce things off of?
I'm truly sorry you are going thru this - please take care of yourself.