Hi everyone. I just wanted to vent - not really looking for advice but if you have any I'd surely consider it..
I've just finished my third week of nursing school and I'm just feeling so overwhelmed, stressed, and incredibly incompetent compared to the rest of my peers. I enjoy my classes and I really love learning the material (lecture/theory) but when it comes to skills and clinicals I feel like I'm not where I should be.
When it comes to clinicals I just feel like a deer in the headlights. I'm not afraid to talk to patients - I was a server for many years so I'm comfortable talking to strangers. In fact at my last clinical my patient spent the entire shift asleep so I spent that time talking one-on-one with other patients and helping the other nurses with basic tasks. However, anytime my clinical instructor asks a question I freeze and it's like my brain shuts down. I just can't think or when I can it's not the answer the instructor was looking for.
Compared to my other clinical classmates I am the least experienced when it comes to a clinical/hospital setting. We have a very small group - one classmate was a CNA at a local hospital, the other was near graduation at another local college for a BSN, and the other is a CNA in long term care. These three are so at ease during clinicals and are dying to jump right into the more advanced skills that we haven't been trained in yet. I'm sure that these basic skills are pretty boring to them but I'm literally just starting out so I'm still trying to learn all of this. I'm not sure if it looks this way but it feels to me that when these classmates look bored with what we're doing (and well already know so much more than me) that it reflects poorly on my ability as a nursing student to the other nurses and my clinical instructor. We are supposed to be first year, first semester nursing students but right now it doesn't feel like it. I'm sure I am reading into this way too much but it's hard to not feel inadequate when I'm paired up with classmates that are so much more advanced than me.
My other issue that I'm having is with skills. We learned how to take vital signs last week and the one that I just can't seem to get "right" is blood pressure. For our skills check-off we can only be +/- 4 compared to what our instructor is hearing. I bought a cuff to practice at home and still cannot match up with my instructor. We're also using the double stethoscopes which from what I've read can be pretty difficult to hear with. I've been practicing at home with my Littmann so I think I have a good idea of what to listen for and how bp works, but I am I just struggling. It's frustrating that it's such a basic skill and I am the only person in my class that cannot get it down. Sadly, I overheard a few students who felt the need to comment on how much time I spent practicing on this skill that is supposed to be so easy. That really stung. Everyone else seems to be moving through these skills with ease.
I'm in a great program. I can tell our instructors want to see us succeed but they also want us to be competent nurses. I am so afraid of failure. It's only been 3 weeks. I'm terrified that the rest of my semester will be like this and I don't know if I can emotionally handle it.
My school has an open lab that I plan on spending a lot of time in next week until I get this blood pressure down - I just hope I can figure out what I'm doing wrong. When we listen together I'm either hearing the heartbeat too soon or hearing it stop too late. For instance the systolic I heard at 126 - instructor said they heard it at 120. Later on I heard the diastolic at 54, instructor heard it at 60.
Wish me luck everyone - I am determined to get this right. I have worked way too hard to give up now - although a change in major sure does sound nice sometimes!
Hi everyone. I just wanted to vent - not really looking for advice but if you have any I'd surely consider it..
I've just finished my third week of nursing school and I'm just feeling so overwhelmed, stressed, and incredibly incompetent compared to the rest of my peers. I enjoy my classes and I really love learning the material (lecture/theory) but when it comes to skills and clinicals I feel like I'm not where I should be.
When it comes to clinicals I just feel like a deer in the headlights. I'm not afraid to talk to patients - I was a server for many years so I'm comfortable talking to strangers. In fact at my last clinical my patient spent the entire shift asleep so I spent that time talking one-on-one with other patients and helping the other nurses with basic tasks. However, anytime my clinical instructor asks a question I freeze and it's like my brain shuts down. I just can't think or when I can it's not the answer the instructor was looking for.
Compared to my other clinical classmates I am the least experienced when it comes to a clinical/hospital setting. We have a very small group - one classmate was a CNA at a local hospital, the other was near graduation at another local college for a BSN, and the other is a CNA in long term care. These three are so at ease during clinicals and are dying to jump right into the more advanced skills that we haven't been trained in yet. I'm sure that these basic skills are pretty boring to them but I'm literally just starting out so I'm still trying to learn all of this. I'm not sure if it looks this way but it feels to me that when these classmates look bored with what we're doing (and well already know so much more than me) that it reflects poorly on my ability as a nursing student to the other nurses and my clinical instructor. We are supposed to be first year, first semester nursing students but right now it doesn't feel like it. I'm sure I am reading into this way too much but it's hard to not feel inadequate when I'm paired up with classmates that are so much more advanced than me.
My other issue that I'm having is with skills. We learned how to take vital signs last week and the one that I just can't seem to get "right" is blood pressure. For our skills check-off we can only be +/- 4 compared to what our instructor is hearing. I bought a cuff to practice at home and still cannot match up with my instructor. We're also using the double stethoscopes which from what I've read can be pretty difficult to hear with. I've been practicing at home with my Littmann so I think I have a good idea of what to listen for and how bp works, but I am I just struggling. It's frustrating that it's such a basic skill and I am the only person in my class that cannot get it down. Sadly, I overheard a few students who felt the need to comment on how much time I spent practicing on this skill that is supposed to be so easy. That really stung. Everyone else seems to be moving through these skills with ease.
I'm in a great program. I can tell our instructors want to see us succeed but they also want us to be competent nurses. I am so afraid of failure. It's only been 3 weeks. I'm terrified that the rest of my semester will be like this and I don't know if I can emotionally handle it.
My school has an open lab that I plan on spending a lot of time in next week until I get this blood pressure down - I just hope I can figure out what I'm doing wrong. When we listen together I'm either hearing the heartbeat too soon or hearing it stop too late. For instance the systolic I heard at 126 - instructor said they heard it at 120. Later on I heard the diastolic at 54, instructor heard it at 60.
Wish me luck everyone - I am determined to get this right. I have worked way too hard to give up now - although a change in major sure does sound nice sometimes!