I'm looking for some advice, if anyone could share, I would be grateful. I'm 31 years old, and was dx'd with BP years ago after a stay in hospital. My moods have been stable ( within reason, as in, not life altering) for the past few years. Largely due to the part that I stopped drinking a few years ago. ( which I know was making my illness so much worse.)
I am usually able to stay on top of things, and if I feel myself getting out of sorts, I go see my doctor. However. I just realized the other day ( after basically doing some really stupid things the previous night) that I have been full out manic for the past month or so. My house is literally disgusting due me not doing any housework, I have spent all my money ( including savings) without paying a single bill, I've been talking, talking, talking, to the point that people have let me go on the phone and then I would turn around call them back to keep talking, I have been hooking up with men that I would normally have nothing do with, racing thoughts, unable to focus, went three days without eating, have only been sleeping here and there.. just full out blown mania. And of course, half the time that I was talking people's ears off, I was talking about how awesome I was and truly believing it.
I did have a moment of clarity about three weeks ago, and called in sick to work for the week. I hadn't taken any sick time up to that point ( however, we are a new facility that's only been open since November).
I went back to work last Mon and Tues, overnights. This was after I had realized that I was manic, and didn't think I should call in sick again. It was a disaster. Pt's were asking me for pain meds and I was forgetting to go to them. I was talking, talking, talking with the residents about my personal life, laughing, not focusing, I wouldn't be surprised if I made a med error, my mind was all over the place. I don't even want to think what my charting was like.
I called in sick for my three overnights this weekend. I was too worried that I would make a mistake, as I was still having trouble focusing, and still feeling the need to keep moving ( I have walked literally miles this weekend).
I'm guessing I'm going to be let go due to attendance issues, but maybe not, we'll see. I'm scheduled for overnights on wed and thurs of this week...I want to call in the morning and tell them I won't be able to do them. Even though I'm feeling MUCH more grounded right now, I'm worried that staying up all night both nights will just throw fuel in the fire and I'm either going to crash or my mania will increase.
I guess I'm just wondering what someone else do in my shoes..call in sick and risk the consequenses of missing so much time, or just plow through the shifts knowing I'm not mentally well right now. I'm thinking of my job performance, and of the residents when I stay home. And truthfully, I would rather be let go due to attendance issues, and have people talk about me at work for missing time, rather than be fired because I did something bizarre at work, or made a major mistake. Also, I`m a single mother ( so I have to think about my son, and what his home environment has been like for the past month), and I Actually SLEPT this weekend, and I don`t want to risk throwing every off by doing those overnights. I know that what has most likely set off this past round was the overnights I`ve been working ( but maybe not, because I`ve always done overnights in my rotations)..but even if they weren`t the cause, they certainly won`t help things right now.
Hi,
I'm looking for some advice, if anyone could share, I would be grateful. I'm 31 years old, and was dx'd with BP years ago after a stay in hospital. My moods have been stable ( within reason, as in, not life altering) for the past few years. Largely due to the part that I stopped drinking a few years ago. ( which I know was making my illness so much worse.)
I am usually able to stay on top of things, and if I feel myself getting out of sorts, I go see my doctor. However. I just realized the other day ( after basically doing some really stupid things the previous night) that I have been full out manic for the past month or so. My house is literally disgusting due me not doing any housework, I have spent all my money ( including savings) without paying a single bill, I've been talking, talking, talking, to the point that people have let me go on the phone and then I would turn around call them back to keep talking, I have been hooking up with men that I would normally have nothing do with, racing thoughts, unable to focus, went three days without eating, have only been sleeping here and there.. just full out blown mania. And of course, half the time that I was talking people's ears off, I was talking about how awesome I was and truly believing it.
I did have a moment of clarity about three weeks ago, and called in sick to work for the week. I hadn't taken any sick time up to that point ( however, we are a new facility that's only been open since November).
I went back to work last Mon and Tues, overnights. This was after I had realized that I was manic, and didn't think I should call in sick again. It was a disaster. Pt's were asking me for pain meds and I was forgetting to go to them. I was talking, talking, talking with the residents about my personal life, laughing, not focusing, I wouldn't be surprised if I made a med error, my mind was all over the place. I don't even want to think what my charting was like.
I called in sick for my three overnights this weekend. I was too worried that I would make a mistake, as I was still having trouble focusing, and still feeling the need to keep moving ( I have walked literally miles this weekend).
I'm guessing I'm going to be let go due to attendance issues, but maybe not, we'll see. I'm scheduled for overnights on wed and thurs of this week...I want to call in the morning and tell them I won't be able to do them. Even though I'm feeling MUCH more grounded right now, I'm worried that staying up all night both nights will just throw fuel in the fire and I'm either going to crash or my mania will increase.
I guess I'm just wondering what someone else do in my shoes..call in sick and risk the consequenses of missing so much time, or just plow through the shifts knowing I'm not mentally well right now. I'm thinking of my job performance, and of the residents when I stay home. And truthfully, I would rather be let go due to attendance issues, and have people talk about me at work for missing time, rather than be fired because I did something bizarre at work, or made a major mistake. Also, I`m a single mother ( so I have to think about my son, and what his home environment has been like for the past month), and I Actually SLEPT this weekend, and I don`t want to risk throwing every off by doing those overnights. I know that what has most likely set off this past round was the overnights I`ve been working ( but maybe not, because I`ve always done overnights in my rotations)..but even if they weren`t the cause, they certainly won`t help things right now.