write-up for insubordination because I turned my back to cry...

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I need your help!!!! I am being written up for insubordination on my 6th day of employment because when my employer was criticizing me for my work and telling me how much stress and how many errors I had made for him I started crying and turned my back to him on instinct. You know from experience that I have a tendency to cry, and I meant no harm by turning my back, but he took it as an affront. I have not been trained to work there, they showed me the clinical side that you already trained me to do in school, showed me the computer system and told me I would need to learn it, then cut me loose and expected me to know how to use the system like a pro by myself on the 3rd day. I thought I was cruising along using the forms I had figured out on my own and nobody said anything about it until today, other than that I needed to speed up. The girl that was supposed to train me was leaving me to my own devices and showing me to use forms that are no longer valid in our system only when I begged her to show me how to use the system. I don't know what to do. I am swamped, way in over my head and now I am suspended in lieu of termination tomorrow and facing insubordination write-up when I return on monday. what can I do? I'm so scared. This could end my nursing career before it even begins. Please help

Specializes in Nephrology, Cardiology, ER, ICU.

Agree with others: toxic environment and certainly not new-grad friendly.

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Specializes in LTC.

I also agree with the others. Quit. If they treat new hires like this how bad will it be once you are off probation?

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Survey says....

QUIT.

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Specializes in neuro/ortho med surge 4.

I feel for you. It is very scary being a new nurse. Sounds like someone was power tripping to me. I have cried at my job and I know a lot of other nurses who have done the same. It is a stress release and it shows you are human.

I would also not put this job on your resume. There are some good places to work for out there and this does not sound like one of them.

I will send a big hug your way.

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Specializes in Hospice / Ambulatory Clinic.
I'm not going to make friends with this.

You need to work on taking criticism better. You are going to be criticized no matter what job you have. Yeah you had a **** orientation and that makes it hard on you too, but is it really necessary?

Sometimes water just flows out of our eyes. Some people cry when they feel the situation won't let allow them to get angry. For a guy to tell us not to do something very innately female is like me telling you not to be upset if I kick you in the crotch.

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thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. This was my first real opportunity post school and I have already applied everywhere I can think of. I live in NC; is there anywhere like staffing agencies or something that help nurses find jobs?

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Specializes in Community Health/School Nursing.
thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. This was my first real opportunity post school and I have already applied everywhere I can think of. I live in NC; is there anywhere like staffing agencies or something that help nurses find jobs?

I go through Maxim Staffing. They have tons of locations. Check them out in your area. They are very new grad friendly from what I hear.

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Specializes in UR/PA, Hematology/Oncology, Med Surg, Psych.

I don't have any fresh ideas but just have to say this economy is really ticking me off :mad: Nursing has always been difficult with some employers abusing and taking advantage of their nurses, but with the horrible economy it seems to have gotten even worse. Especially for new nurses. After all the crap I've seen in life and then read about on here though, even when the economy turns around and jobs are more abundant, I hope nurses remember how we were treated when they were scarce.

I don't know your financial situation, but I still think you need to seriously consider quitting. I have a feeling that if you don't, you'll only get more beaten up and then fired. Although if your fired, maybe you can get unemployment???

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Specializes in Med-Surg, Emergency, CEN.

Can they even fire you for that? I'd grab a union rep to talk to if there is one. Or a nice RN with lots of seniority to talk to the NM with you about it.

First year sucks then it gets better. Quit or not, wherever you work the first year you will cry and freak out over small things. (not that a ridiculous writeup like this is small. I'd fight it.)

This will help too wherevr you go. https://allnurses.com/first-year-after/hang-there-new-350233.html

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Consider this to be a "practice" job. Sort of like taking the practice NCLECX before sitting down to do the real thing. Now that you have learned a thing or two about working as a nurse, you can go out into the world with some wisdom and experience and be better prepared for the real thing.

It sounds like a miserable place to work, if you can't deal with the insanity, that makes you the sane one.

I wouldn't worry about putting this on your CV. Just move on. We've all had bad, discouraging experiences that make us doubt ourselves. The trick is to not get stuck there.

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Specializes in Emergency/Cath Lab.
Sometimes water just flows out of our eyes. Some people cry when they feel the situation won't let allow them to get angry. For a guy to tell us not to do something very innately female is like me telling you not to be upset if I kick you in the crotch.

Oh right I'm a guy and dont cry. I forget that I dont have emotions and cant get upset over things. I dont let my emotions get the best of me sometimes. Maybe I was a screw up enough when I was younger and had to deal with criticism and know that sometimes it just isnt a good thing to cry. Please. :uhoh3:

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Specializes in Critical Care, ED, Cath lab, CTPAC,Trauma.
Oh right I'm a guy and dont cry. I forget that I dont have emotions and cant get upset over things. I dont let my emotions get the best of me sometimes. Maybe I was a screw up enough when I was younger and had to deal with criticism and know that sometimes it just isnt a good thing to cry. Please. :uhoh3:

That's right "Big Boys Don't Cry" (just kidding):rolleyes:........of course guys cry.;)....just not always where everyone can see them. I agree TGuy but as another poster worded it......nursing is a brutal field with aurocratic MD's, passive aggressive females or means girls. The poster does need to get a thicker skin or she's going to be eaten alive, there are troo many out there with that predatory instinct that will sacrifice the OP given any opportunity.

OP don't play vicitm!!! Cut your losses! Find another job forget this ever happened. If you want to list it (although I don't think you have to) Make sure to tell them that it was only for six days and it was clear it was not an enviorment you wish to work in......it was clear it wasn't a good fit. Quit now, before they really set you up for failure.

Good Luck!

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