It is DONE.

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by Ash2213 Ash2213 Member

Well, in a very anticlimactic finish, I have completed my 3 years in TPAPN. It is funny how I have dedicated 3 years of my life to checking in and being paranoid, for it just to come to an end like that. It doesn't feel real. Tomorrow I don't have to check in. I bet I still wake up at 4am on the nose and think about it though. I believe I will carry the paranoia with me for a little bit while I adjust to being a normal citizen.

Honestly, 3 years ago was the lowest point in my life. Drunk, fired, ashamed, marriage on the rocks, passively suicidal, nothing to be proud of. It is amazing that we have chances to turn our lives around and come back from what was complete hell. As much as I despised TPAPN, it played a major role in saving my life. Is the program fair? Nope. But, when compared to the alternative for me, it was the best there was.

Because my paranoia is so raw, I won't share a lot about how my whole stint in TPAPN went here, but if you are new, scared, confused, or have questions please feel free to PM me and I can give you all the support you need.

I am not sure if being an advocate is up my ally or not. I have a lot of bad tastes in my mouth from TPAPN. There needs to be real change and I hope it happens.

I want to say thank you to everyone here on these boards who offered advice and encouragement along the way. This site helped so much and I am so grateful it was here for me.

If you're new, keep your head up, keep pushing forward. There is an end.

TX.RN.Shannon

TX.RN.Shannon

103 Posts

Congratulations to you! I haven't had to deal with TPAPN or monitoring personally, but I am very sympathetic to those that have had to.

Red<nurse

Red<nurse

Has 1 years experience. 66 Posts

Congratulations! I'm just starting (and probably starting over)

Oh God Bless America!!!

Another kind soul set free

Congratulations and a job damn well done!!!!

Spanked

rn1965

rn1965, ADN

Specializes in Med/Surg, Women's Health, LTC. Has 26 years experience. 504 Posts

Congratulations!

traumaRUs

traumaRUs, MSN, APRN, CNS

Specializes in Nephrology, Cardiology, ER, ICU. Has 30 years experience. 164 Articles; 21,143 Posts

Congratulations! Please continue to post here as you have a lot of experience to help others.

ruby_jane, BSN, RN

Specializes in ICU/community health/school nursing. Has 13 years experience. 3,142 Posts

Well, in a very anticlimactic finish, I have completed my 3 years in TPAPN. It is funny how I have dedicated 3 years of my life to checking in and being paranoid, for it just to come to an end like that. It doesn't feel real. Tomorrow I don't have to check in. I bet I still wake up at 4am on the nose and think about it though. I believe I will carry the paranoia with me for a little bit while I adjust to being a normal citizen.

Eloquently said. I applaud you!!! It seems that many people have a form of PTSD after leaving the programs. It doesn't mean you're paranoid. But it is real. Be easy with yourself for a while.

Kel65, MSN, RN

315 Posts

Congrats!! Six months left here!!

dagobah, ASN, BSN, MSN, RN

Specializes in Critical Care. Has 18 years experience. 110 Posts

Congrats!

I remember trying to log in the next day....denied! Says my account has been closed....I remember smiling that time. Glad I had the awareness to take a screenshot the day before. Was getting sentimental and wanted a pic of the last day logging in.

Congrats again!!

Kel65, MSN, RN

315 Posts

Hey, that's a good idea pick of the last login. I'm going to have to do that July 19th 2019.