I guess I need encouragement or experiences or something. I’m so depressed I cannot even think straight.
I’ll try to make this short. I was in a LVN program up until this past Thursday. I was doing very well. I was passing everything and I have so many A’s and 100’s at that and I was so proud of myself. I know the book. Test me on it now and I know I will pass. I didn’t memorize it, I learned it. And my skills, my grades are nothing but 100’s. But at my school you must pass everything you do with no less than a 70.
If all your grades are 100’s and your final average is an A or a B or even a C but you fail the final, you are out. You must pass everything you do. And I was passing. But my very last final, the very last thing, last test, last sheet of paper I would be touching for this portion of my courses, I got so nervous while taking our test ( a skills test!) and I went into panic mode and I froze. And I am now paying for it. I made a 66. I missed it just by 4 points.
This was only my first semester and only the first portion of a year program. I am 26 years old I will be 27 in September. I feel so old, if I wasn't busy with my husband when I was 21 I would have been finished with this by now I think.
I know there are other nurses out there that don't start till 41+ but I had/have goals I have set for myself and this has set me back. I feel so bad and so low and so dumb and worthless. They make us pay for all our uniforms and our classes for the semester at the beginning of the program before we even need our uniforms and classes for the 2nd half which I did not make it to, you pay of it and if you do not make it you are just out of luck and stuck with 4 ugly sets of scrubs that you will never use again that cost a total of $300. Not to mention the classes that I paid for that I don’t even have a chance to take and I can’t get my money back for now.
I go tomorrow to talk to the head of the department and see if she will let me back in the program. They have a rule that you may have a chance to redo the program but you are given only 1 redo but they make you take the entire level and all the classes over again just because you messed up on one test. If I get a chance at my 1 redo I know I will do good I will keep myself calm.
It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing, it was that I froze. I have been doing so good. I was so proud I wish I could show you all my 100’s. I’ve been devoting my life to this.
I’ve wanted to be a nurse since I was 6 years old and I put off everything for my husband when we were younger. We got married young and he was in the military. Now I feel so sad and depressed.
I’m not looking for pity here, I’m looking for options and to see if there is anyone out there who can say, hey I was where you are and now I made it, this is how…I have a 2 year old daughter. My mom even quit her job so she could stay home and watch my baby for me. That makes me feel like crap. I do everything for my daughter and feel so bad, I feel like I let her down. I feel so low.
I was a medical assistant before I started this program so I knew a little going in and I love working with patients and I’ve always wanted this. I feel like it is the end of the world, although people tell me it is not, I can’t help but think it. I need to work on my test anxiety, I was doing so good. It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing. I just can’t believe I did this to myself. I do have dreams of getting my MSN and for my daughter I still want to get there.
I have 6 more classes to take to be able to start a BSN program. I had a plan to just start with LVN and get better at skills and also a way to get my foot in the door over all. But now I’m just so depressed. If I get another chance I will not be able to start school again till August, it is to late to enroll in any other classes at the moment and I quit working so I do not have a job at the moment.
I feel like sewage, if it wasn't for my daughter I wouldn't have even got out of bed today. Prayers and any info or thoughts, experiences, anything, anyone can give me would be nice. Thanks.
Seek a therapist specializing in anxiety/ dyslexia. GET YOUR BSN!
when i was a med tech student ..i had a fear if drawing blood, so i went to a therapist who did "biofeedback' and i eventually became very good at phlebotomy. overcoming that fear made me realize i could become a nurse which i had really wanted to do. i fluncked out of an Accelerated BSN program (it was 70% my fault also). I was told to go to their regular BSN program. i talked to one of the professsors about my desire to go to an ADN school, she advised me not to, saying they would not give me the chance like a BSN program would. I pulled up my boot-straps, went to their regular BSN program and did much better grade wise. I graduated the BSN program. You, my dear, have an excellant record much better than i did, so i think you should go for your BSN.
Its times like this that show you how strong you really are. :redbeatheBe kind to yourself,:redbeathe tell yourself 'yes this happened, i know why it happened, and now i am going to succeed by taking steps to overcome the situation.
:)Life is learning, may I always have something to learn!
I agree with the person who said to let the ADA work for you! Get tested, figure out what can be done about your LD, ask the school for a accommodation agreement, look into getting your anxiety treated... and in August, jump back in with both feet.
I understand how hard it is on your self-esteem, but it might help to know that you are so not alone! I'm 46, and I'm waiting to start over in the fall, because I failed clinical. It was not a fair decision, but I have let go of that and am trying to enjoy the spring and work on my weaknesses so that I will not face the same problems next time.
There are so many of us that don't get through the first time and it's for so many complex reasons - not really a reflection of one's ability or future performance as a nurse. For instance, one student I know failed because she bombed an exam because she had just come from the funeral of her best friend. I know that she'll be just fine as a nurse - it's just that ^&* happens sometimes and exam performances suffer.
I guess I need encouragement or experiences or something. I'm so depressed I cannot even think straight.
I'll try to make this short. I was in a LVN program up until this past Thursday. I was doing very well. I was passing everything and I have so many A's and 100's at that and I was so proud of myself. I know the book. Test me on it now and I know I will pass. I didn't memorize it, I learned it. And my skills, my grades are nothing but 100's. But at my school you must pass everything you do with no less than a 70.
If all your grades are 100's and your final average is an A or a B or even a C but you fail the final, you are out. You must pass everything you do. And I was passing. But my very last final, the very last thing, last test, last sheet of paper I would be touching for this portion of my courses, I got so nervous while taking our test ( a skills test!) and I went into panic mode and I froze. And I am now paying for it. I made a 66. I missed it just by 4 points.
This was only my first semester and only the first portion of a year program. I am 26 years old I will be 27 in September. I feel so old, if I wasn't busy with my husband when I was 21 I would have been finished with this by now I think.
I know there are other nurses out there that don't start till 41+ but I had/have goals I have set for myself and this has set me back. I feel so bad and so low and so dumb and worthless. They make us pay for all our uniforms and our classes for the semester at the beginning of the program before we even need our uniforms and classes for the 2nd half which I did not make it to, you pay of it and if you do not make it you are just out of luck and stuck with 4 ugly sets of scrubs that you will never use again that cost a total of $300. Not to mention the classes that I paid for that I don't even have a chance to take and I can't get my money back for now.
I go tomorrow to talk to the head of the department and see if she will let me back in the program. They have a rule that you may have a chance to redo the program but you are given only 1 redo but they make you take the entire level and all the classes over again just because you messed up on one test. If I get a chance at my 1 redo I know I will do good I will keep myself calm.
It wasn't that I didn't know what I was doing, it was that I froze. I have been doing so good. I was so proud I wish I could show you all my 100's. I've been devoting my life to this.
I've wanted to be a nurse since I was 6 years old and I put off everything for my husband when we were younger. We got married young and he was in the military. Now I feel so sad and depressed.
I'm not looking for pity here, I'm looking for options and to see if there is anyone out there who can say, hey I was where you are and now I made it, this is how...I have a 2 year old daughter. My mom even quit her job so she could stay home and watch my baby for me. That makes me feel like crap. I do everything for my daughter and feel so bad, I feel like I let her down. I feel so low.
I was a medical assistant before I started this program so I knew a little going in and I love working with patients and I've always wanted this. I feel like it is the end of the world, although people tell me it is not, I can't help but think it. I need to work on my test anxiety, I was doing so good. It wasn't that I didn't know what I was doing. I just can't believe I did this to myself. I do have dreams of getting my MSN and for my daughter I still want to get there.
I have 6 more classes to take to be able to start a BSN program. I had a plan to just start with LVN and get better at skills and also a way to get my foot in the door over all. But now I'm just so depressed. If I get another chance I will not be able to start school again till August, it is to late to enroll in any other classes at the moment and I quit working so I do not have a job at the moment.
I feel like sewage, if it wasn't for my daughter I wouldn't have even got out of bed today. Prayers and any info or thoughts, experiences, anything, anyone can give me would be nice. Thanks.
I understand why you are feeling bad. Just to let you know, I have know several people to fail out, two lately. It is very hard to juggle school, work and family. I have a master's degree, but if I were to do the RN or LPN program, I might fail out too. Some of the most intelligent people do. It is run like the military, you may notice in some ways. I would try to focus on the BSN program. Why not?? The local tech schools/community colleges, I hear, are more competetive, more difficult. Maybe that could be your focus.
It happens all the time I hate seeing the sadness in other students faces as they walk out of the exam knowing they failed the course but then the next semester their on there way again with last semester behind them and ready to succeed while gaining a lot more from the second time around-- also my ADN program just joined with a university doing a concurrent BSN meaning you will be able to start working sooner and you would shortly after have your BSN!
Dear MakeMeABird, First let me say that I am so sorry that you are going through this but, I can say that yes this happened to me too... in a different manner. I started school in 2002 and I was 33 at the time. I too wanted to be a nurse since I was in first grade when I was asked by my first grade teacher what do you want to be? I told her I wanted to be a "baby nurse".
I did not do well in HS and was not good in math so that was what held me back from pursuing nursing in HS. Well I moved to VA and decided that it was time to go to school. I by the grace of God passed the entrance exam and landed directly into the required math courses for the program. I too had A's and high B's then came Med surg....failed the 1st Med Surg by .5. Then came back and earned a high B. Then the last class Med Surg II supposed to graduate in 2005 missed it by 1.0. To say the least I was stunned and so shocked (I was not a slacker I use to lock myself in my room so I could study).
Technically for the RN program I was to be kicked out of nursing. Well I was told to write a letter to the college's nursing board. I know that again God touched the hearts of those who had to make the decision to allow me to finish. I was told when they found out that it was me that needed this decision...no one had a second thought to allow me to finish. I believe with good grades and if they know you to be the excellent nurse they know you can be...you too should be given the opportunity to finish. I did so again with a high B.
Find out what you need to do to get back in. If your anxious during exams you can get a letter from your physican that will allow you to get special accomodations when taking exams. I was told this by some of my peers at the time who stated they had test anxiety. Don't give up and don't quit...sometimes the things we want the most sometimes gives us the most challenge but in the end it all works out for our good. Take care. :)
One test is not reperesentative of anything. But, it may indicate a problem, especially if it is a final. I understand test anxiety, but I also believe it is not an excuse for failure. Some people have good short-term memory and can pass a test, then when the material is brought back later they are lost. This can happen from cramming. Nursing tests use critical thinking skills, maybe you need to work on that. Or, your study skills may be lacking. It will not get easier and is not easier or different in an RN program in spite of what someone posted. Without seeing the test I cannot advise. My good friend got a c and had to go into the LPN track at our community college. She went on to another RN program that was 3 years in length and did very well. She just had too much on her plate for an accelerated 2 year program. Don't give up, but examine what really caused this without just blaming test anxiety. How can you avoid this again? What did you not know and why? Did you really review enough? Do you need a study buddy? Try to be objective about it. Best of luck.
Don't beat yourself up. The first time I tried nursing school I failed out by one test question! I felt like a piece of S^*t:crying2: Try again is all I can say. Most programs allow another chance. I ended up going to a different school and it worked out for the better. And as for age, I graduated at 40. I think I was early 30's the first time around! Might consider giving it a few years. And with this, continue working on the "generals" for the BSN if you don't have them.
Your not the first to fail, and you won't be the last.
Hun, I feel for you. Your school's testing policy is way too brutal, it's horrible, it makes me angry that a student who got A' and 100%'s failed 1, just 1!!! test and was kicked out!?! *****!? Ok, I won't go that road, I'll stop badmouthing the school ...
Stop beating yourself up! You are smart, and you are good, believe in yourself! This was ONE test! You were doing well before, so obviously you are smart! Love yourself! :redpinkhe
What ever road you decide to take... I gotta say, NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS!!! EVER! No matter what it takes, you will make it, you can do, you love this, and you want this, and you'll get there. I know you will! Mop a bit, cry it out, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and try again. You can do it! It's your dream to be a nurse, you wanted this since you were 6! This is a setback, a test of strength, not the end on the world! You will be a nurse, I promise, as long as you believe in your dream!
As for taking tests. I'm finishing up Pre-Nursing right now, and starting nursing in Sept. This is what I do to avoid test anxiety on very important tests/exams:
-Make sure to study, not cram whenever possible.
-Go to bed early the night before, way early.
-Have you stuff ready, clothes, keys, what ever, so you won't have to run around in the morning...
-While lying in bed read the stuff you're having trouble with the most then sleep. (don't think or talk to anyone, or do anything else after you've read the stuff)
-The morning on the test, don't wake up late, so you'll be relaxed to begin with.
-don't try to study more, on stuff you haven't already, you can only briefly go over the stuff you went over before sleeping. I try to avoid any studying in on the morning of a test.
-Have a good breakfast, and herbal tea, a relaxing one, like peppermint or chamomile or something. Don't worry it won't make you sleepy if you went to bed early enough.
-Make sure to eat a banana during breakfast!
-About 15 mins or half an hour before test time eat a bit of dark chocolate.
-What ever you do don't, I repeat DON'T talk to your classmates before the test, it increases anxiety! Just say hi, and keep to yourself
-Make sure you're chewing gum (peppermint) during the test, it's very stress relieving! I always have gum on me, it helps so much!
-If you freeze, or have difficulty remembering stuff during the test, either move on to another question, and later come back to that one, or close your eyes for 10 sec, take 3 deep breaths, and tell yourself you can do it, and you'll achieve your dreams what ever it takes! Believe in yourself.
I'm no genius, or some test taking expert, but this is what I do every time. And it works :)
Some people say they rub some peppermint oil/extract onto their temples during studying/test taking, it keeps you calm, yet not sleepy... I should try that...
Best of luck, and keep your head up, YOU WILL ACHIEVE YOUR DREAMS! Best of luck to you!
sometimes things don't happen when we want them to but when it's time, and it will happen. This may not be your time. Look for the lesson in this. I my self went to school for RN thinking how nice it would to have extra money and failed. I ended up getting my LPN. I went back 6yrs later more focused and a better understanding of helping other and the realization that no amount of money felt as good as a pt thanking you for the wonderful care they received.
p.s you really need to get your anxiety under control because this is a very stressful profession.
I am an older RN (license still active) altho I am formally retired. I have seen alot come and go in my years in Nursing. You sound like a "keeper"! I sincerely wish you the best. You will be an asset wherever you go. My thought is to enroll in an AD program (to start). I would never re-do what you have put so much time and effort into. They do not deserve people like you. Go forward. Pray and study hard and you will soon have your degree. You got what it takes !!
Don't give up! If you want to be a nurse, you will find a way. Like you I had always wanted to be a nurse, but life got in the way. One day my kids were grown an I had an opportunity to go to school. I was 50 at the time, it was hard work but now am a nurse and I couldn't be happier.
Find the strength to move on. Don't waste your energy feeling bad, it doesn't help. Find out what you need to do and do it. That is the only way you will become the nurse you want to be.
Been at this place myself......I was in my 30's and started nursing school....you can do it...sounds like you rely on prayer to get you through.....me too....go ahead and cry hard...then pray harder...ask God to give you the wisdom and comfort/peace you need when your taking your test...he will show you how to breath slower and relax..you can do it....don't give up...hope and pray all goes well for you.
Might consider giving it a few years. And with this, continue working on the "generals" for the BSN if you don't have them.
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Seek a therapist specializing in anxiety/ dyslexia. GET YOUR BSN!
when i was a med tech student ..i had a fear if drawing blood, so i went to a therapist who did "biofeedback' and i eventually became very good at phlebotomy. overcoming that fear made me realize i could become a nurse which i had really wanted to do. i fluncked out of an Accelerated BSN program (it was 70% my fault also). I was told to go to their regular BSN program. i talked to one of the professsors about my desire to go to an ADN school, she advised me not to, saying they would not give me the chance like a BSN program would. I pulled up my boot-straps, went to their regular BSN program and did much better grade wise. I graduated the BSN program. You, my dear, have an excellant record much better than i did, so i think you should go for your BSN.
Its times like this that show you how strong you really are. :redbeatheBe kind to yourself,:redbeathe tell yourself 'yes this happened, i know why it happened, and now i am going to succeed by taking steps to overcome the situation.
:)Life is learning, may I always have something to learn!