I guess I need encouragement or experiences or something. I’m so depressed I cannot even think straight.
I’ll try to make this short. I was in a LVN program up until this past Thursday. I was doing very well. I was passing everything and I have so many A’s and 100’s at that and I was so proud of myself. I know the book. Test me on it now and I know I will pass. I didn’t memorize it, I learned it. And my skills, my grades are nothing but 100’s. But at my school you must pass everything you do with no less than a 70.
If all your grades are 100’s and your final average is an A or a B or even a C but you fail the final, you are out. You must pass everything you do. And I was passing. But my very last final, the very last thing, last test, last sheet of paper I would be touching for this portion of my courses, I got so nervous while taking our test ( a skills test!) and I went into panic mode and I froze. And I am now paying for it. I made a 66. I missed it just by 4 points.
This was only my first semester and only the first portion of a year program. I am 26 years old I will be 27 in September. I feel so old, if I wasn't busy with my husband when I was 21 I would have been finished with this by now I think.
I know there are other nurses out there that don't start till 41+ but I had/have goals I have set for myself and this has set me back. I feel so bad and so low and so dumb and worthless. They make us pay for all our uniforms and our classes for the semester at the beginning of the program before we even need our uniforms and classes for the 2nd half which I did not make it to, you pay of it and if you do not make it you are just out of luck and stuck with 4 ugly sets of scrubs that you will never use again that cost a total of $300. Not to mention the classes that I paid for that I don’t even have a chance to take and I can’t get my money back for now.
I go tomorrow to talk to the head of the department and see if she will let me back in the program. They have a rule that you may have a chance to redo the program but you are given only 1 redo but they make you take the entire level and all the classes over again just because you messed up on one test. If I get a chance at my 1 redo I know I will do good I will keep myself calm.
It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing, it was that I froze. I have been doing so good. I was so proud I wish I could show you all my 100’s. I’ve been devoting my life to this.
I’ve wanted to be a nurse since I was 6 years old and I put off everything for my husband when we were younger. We got married young and he was in the military. Now I feel so sad and depressed.
I’m not looking for pity here, I’m looking for options and to see if there is anyone out there who can say, hey I was where you are and now I made it, this is how…I have a 2 year old daughter. My mom even quit her job so she could stay home and watch my baby for me. That makes me feel like crap. I do everything for my daughter and feel so bad, I feel like I let her down. I feel so low.
I was a medical assistant before I started this program so I knew a little going in and I love working with patients and I’ve always wanted this. I feel like it is the end of the world, although people tell me it is not, I can’t help but think it. I need to work on my test anxiety, I was doing so good. It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing. I just can’t believe I did this to myself. I do have dreams of getting my MSN and for my daughter I still want to get there.
I have 6 more classes to take to be able to start a BSN program. I had a plan to just start with LVN and get better at skills and also a way to get my foot in the door over all. But now I’m just so depressed. If I get another chance I will not be able to start school again till August, it is to late to enroll in any other classes at the moment and I quit working so I do not have a job at the moment.
I feel like sewage, if it wasn't for my daughter I wouldn't have even got out of bed today. Prayers and any info or thoughts, experiences, anything, anyone can give me would be nice. Thanks.
Specializes in Emergency Room, Specialty Infusions.
Granted....we will give you 24 hours to feel sorry for yourself and beat yourself up. That's what your doing, you know?
But, don't let it continue. Every day is a new day. Your choice is to either make it a good day or a great day.
We all freeze. Just the other day for a job interview (3 people at once firing questions) they asked me, "What are your strengths?" I froze. Could not come up with one dang thing. And I have been asked that at lots of job interviews. Probably won't get the job even though I have decades of experience. Oh well, there are other jobs.
You are doing this for your mom, your child and mostly yourself. Nursing school is tough. I have graduated from an LVN program and then a BSN program. Sometimes what they do is not fair.
I think they will give you another chance after seeing your grades.
A lot of nursing programs have it where a student fails a math/calculations exam, they are out! I failed my math exam. Got called into my nurse advisor's office. Fully expected to be told I would have to drop. Instead, I was told to sign a "contract" saying I have a math deficit. Lol, nice way to put it. It said I had to try harder. But next exam (Saints be praised) they passed out calculators! Passed every exam. Here I am years later and I STILL can't do calculations on paper. My Emergency Room has a calculator on every IV cart and every med cart.
Don't give up.....keep trying. We are all rooting for you here. Don't be your own worse enemy and listen to that inner voice that puts you down. You can do this!
I want to say that I want to be a nurse since high school, but because my family I had my career leave behind. I didn't became a nurse until 27. I was depress as well because many people are young now in day when they have their nursing job. But then you can not compare with anyone, but yourself. You didn't not lost anything and you gain something from taking that long to start nursing school. One thing you gain is you have a family. Many people who work with me they don't have a family. Therefore, I wish you luck.
if you failed the last exam then it means you didn't know the material the way you thought you did. even if you are nervous, if you know the material and it's multiple choice you should have gotten it. you appear to have other distractions in your life like husband and whatever. you can retry the nursing program or look into something easier like surgical tech. you can radiation therapy or ultrasound.
You've got to be kidding me. OK Miagia san, whatever you say. Look, she doesn't need a parent, she needs a shoulder to cry on or somebody to sound off on. Spare everone the "if you failed the last exam then it means you didn't know the material the way you thought you did." Wow, that's really insightful and mind-boggling. I'm sure that's exactly what she wants to hear. I hope you exercise a little bit more compassion with your patients
Specializes in Peds/outpatient FP,derm,allergy/private duty.
What stuns me is that you claim you you were in "advanced classes" but your grammar and spelling is worse than my 9 year old daughter. Please tell me you're not in the position to make medical decisions concerning other people.
She's probably using text message abbreviations. Her post may not have formatted correctly. So what? I've seen far worse and from people I would trust with my child's life. In her, I see a nurse with 15 years of experience being slammed by a person who isn't even close to being a nurse. In you, I see someone concentrating on picky written language mistakes and ignoring the content of the post. Your skewed idea of what is important makes me worry that you might someday be in a position to make medical decisions concerning other people.
I hope the mods delete that post. It's ridiculous, insulting, and will probably run the thread off track. : (
I suffer from EXCESSIVE anxiety/worry. A wise person told me that worry is no good, unless you can do something with it, pretty much you need to get over it. You only live one life, sister! Pray that God gives you a quiet mind. Don't let this get you down, I almost failed 2nd sememster and was told by my clinical instructor I pretty much wasn't smart enough to be a nurse. I showed that b&*(& who was boss. I mean this with love; but stop playing the victim card. In the grand scheme of things this is nothing! You have eyes, arms and legs (I assume), a loving family, etc. Start today off with HARD CORE determination. That my friend, got me through nursing school.
PS I failed several tests, we all did, some had to repeat, but we got through it. You can get through it. Also, limit your time on websites like this, so you can focus on school. Lots of love!
PSS Google, "quote garden", it has many inspirational quotes. ***hugs***
JINPDX, why be so crappy? I take it you are not a therapeutic nurse. PS Keep MY spelling errors to yourself, b/c I frankly don't care. Plus read your post "you you"
Specializes in Community Health, Med-Surg, Home Health.
I am sorry to hear that you have to repeat a certain portion of your program. It is difficult to repeat something again, however, I also see that most of the posts were very encouraging and supportive...also loads of great advice. Keep us posted on your happenings and we pray that you become the nurse you dream to be. You are NOT stupid...anxiety overcame you and that can happen to anyone.
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Because this is a public forum, we do not expect for everyone to agree HOWEVER, we can disagree without injecting personal insults to each other. For now, I will allow the discussion to continue with the friendly moderator reminder to respect each other by communicating without the attacking insults on character.
if you failed the last exam then it means you didn't know the material the way you thought you did. even if you are nervous, if you know the material and it's multiple choice you should have gotten it. you appear to have other distractions in your life like husband and whatever. you can retry the nursing program or look into something easier like surgical tech. you can radiation therapy or ultrasound.
Uh, the academic requirements for radiation and ultrasound are higher than required for PN programmes. I know OR techs and it's not an easy course. It's an add on for graduate LPNs.
Look to God, He is your one and only source of help in All times. Speak to Him. Ask him what is His plan and purpose for your life. He will guide you and order your steps in ways you never imagined. Give Him your all. God bless. :)
Been at this place myself......I was in my 30's and started nursing school....you can do it...sounds like you rely on prayer to get you through.....me too....go ahead and cry hard...then pray harder...ask God to give you the wisdom and comfort/peace you need when your taking your test...he will show you how to breath slower and relax..you can do it....don't give up...hope and pray all goes well for you.
Jai
Hey Im just curious as what you think... Im a christian also, and prayer has been very important in my life, but asking god to give you wisdom, while your living in sin- you think that would work? Im not married, living a married life for 5 years now, hmmm, I want some wisdom to, but when I do pray for some, I feel like Im slapping him in the face!
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Granted....we will give you 24 hours to feel sorry for yourself and beat yourself up. That's what your doing, you know?
But, don't let it continue. Every day is a new day. Your choice is to either make it a good day or a great day.
We all freeze. Just the other day for a job interview (3 people at once firing questions) they asked me, "What are your strengths?" I froze. Could not come up with one dang thing. And I have been asked that at lots of job interviews. Probably won't get the job even though I have decades of experience. Oh well, there are other jobs.
You are doing this for your mom, your child and mostly yourself. Nursing school is tough. I have graduated from an LVN program and then a BSN program. Sometimes what they do is not fair.
I think they will give you another chance after seeing your grades.
A lot of nursing programs have it where a student fails a math/calculations exam, they are out! I failed my math exam. Got called into my nurse advisor's office. Fully expected to be told I would have to drop. Instead, I was told to sign a "contract" saying I have a math deficit. Lol, nice way to put it. It said I had to try harder. But next exam (Saints be praised) they passed out calculators! Passed every exam. Here I am years later and I STILL can't do calculations on paper. My Emergency Room has a calculator on every IV cart and every med cart.
Don't give up.....keep trying. We are all rooting for you here. Don't be your own worse enemy and listen to that inner voice that puts you down. You can do this!