I guess I need encouragement or experiences or something. I’m so depressed I cannot even think straight.
I’ll try to make this short. I was in a LVN program up until this past Thursday. I was doing very well. I was passing everything and I have so many A’s and 100’s at that and I was so proud of myself. I know the book. Test me on it now and I know I will pass. I didn’t memorize it, I learned it. And my skills, my grades are nothing but 100’s. But at my school you must pass everything you do with no less than a 70.
If all your grades are 100’s and your final average is an A or a B or even a C but you fail the final, you are out. You must pass everything you do. And I was passing. But my very last final, the very last thing, last test, last sheet of paper I would be touching for this portion of my courses, I got so nervous while taking our test ( a skills test!) and I went into panic mode and I froze. And I am now paying for it. I made a 66. I missed it just by 4 points.
This was only my first semester and only the first portion of a year program. I am 26 years old I will be 27 in September. I feel so old, if I wasn't busy with my husband when I was 21 I would have been finished with this by now I think.
I know there are other nurses out there that don't start till 41+ but I had/have goals I have set for myself and this has set me back. I feel so bad and so low and so dumb and worthless. They make us pay for all our uniforms and our classes for the semester at the beginning of the program before we even need our uniforms and classes for the 2nd half which I did not make it to, you pay of it and if you do not make it you are just out of luck and stuck with 4 ugly sets of scrubs that you will never use again that cost a total of $300. Not to mention the classes that I paid for that I don’t even have a chance to take and I can’t get my money back for now.
I go tomorrow to talk to the head of the department and see if she will let me back in the program. They have a rule that you may have a chance to redo the program but you are given only 1 redo but they make you take the entire level and all the classes over again just because you messed up on one test. If I get a chance at my 1 redo I know I will do good I will keep myself calm.
It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing, it was that I froze. I have been doing so good. I was so proud I wish I could show you all my 100’s. I’ve been devoting my life to this.
I’ve wanted to be a nurse since I was 6 years old and I put off everything for my husband when we were younger. We got married young and he was in the military. Now I feel so sad and depressed.
I’m not looking for pity here, I’m looking for options and to see if there is anyone out there who can say, hey I was where you are and now I made it, this is how…I have a 2 year old daughter. My mom even quit her job so she could stay home and watch my baby for me. That makes me feel like crap. I do everything for my daughter and feel so bad, I feel like I let her down. I feel so low.
I was a medical assistant before I started this program so I knew a little going in and I love working with patients and I’ve always wanted this. I feel like it is the end of the world, although people tell me it is not, I can’t help but think it. I need to work on my test anxiety, I was doing so good. It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing. I just can’t believe I did this to myself. I do have dreams of getting my MSN and for my daughter I still want to get there.
I have 6 more classes to take to be able to start a BSN program. I had a plan to just start with LVN and get better at skills and also a way to get my foot in the door over all. But now I’m just so depressed. If I get another chance I will not be able to start school again till August, it is to late to enroll in any other classes at the moment and I quit working so I do not have a job at the moment.
I feel like sewage, if it wasn't for my daughter I wouldn't have even got out of bed today. Prayers and any info or thoughts, experiences, anything, anyone can give me would be nice. Thanks.
i know exactly how you are feeling and this too shall pass. I am a single mom and 34 (NOT OLD) and i failed nursing school twice. I too thought my world was ending, but as of december i am a RN!! fight the good fight! i know you will get back in!
I suggest staying in there!! I remember going into thw field of nursing after earning my BBA--I didn't know anything about nursing. I studied and studied and studied, and ordered nursing books, talked with skilled and experienced RN's and even went as far a watching nursing videos. I knew that this was what I wanted!!
When something is what you want (or you think you want), its not going to come easy! You have to fight, fight and fight!! You have to buckle down and study--and I mean hard. I understand that you have a daughter and a husband, but in your down time when they are away, you have to dedicate yourself. In doing this, you'll succeed and be more appreciative. TRUST! PRAY! DO YOUR PART!
I wish you the best of luck! I believe you will do well! :-)
Please don't feel sad or stupid. You should be proud that you have stood up for yourself and demanded to be treated fairly. That says a lot about the kind of person you are deep inside. I get a bad vibe about this school.. This all or nothing approach is usually motivated by money.... Try looking into other schools in the meantime... I hope you get back in! Good Luck...
I also get a bad vibe about this school. I think you should focus your effort elsewhere. If you have to start from scratch, your chances will be better somewhere else. Give another school your money before you pay these guys twice for something they should have given you a second chance on to begin with. She could have taken your record into account and allowed you a retest and saved everyone a lot of time and grief. Instead they are after your money again.
I also get a bad vibe about this school. I think you should focus your effort elsewhere. If you have to start from scratch, your chances will be better somewhere else. Give another school your money before you pay these guys twice for something they should have given you a second chance on to begin with. She could have taken your record into account and allowed you a retest and saved everyone a lot of time and grief. Instead they are after your money again.
I'm with Caliotter3 and the rest who think there is something else behind the requirement for you to retake the entire level. This is sheer bull and a waste of your time, THEIR time, and your money. You're an intelligent, motivated person, dear Bird, and there is no reason for you to give up on your dreams. You are better than this school and I think you'd be doing yourself a huge favor by looking into other programs---you know you want to go on for more education so if you can afford it. do check out ADN or BSN programs.
I could see the school making you repeat the whole level if you had failed the entire semester. But one test? And by so little? Who's to say the instructor was being objective? I mean, the only reason besides poor grades all semester that I could see for making someone retake the whole level would be if he/she made a huge mistake and then was all non-chalant about it, you know, "Oh, so I dirtied my sterile field---no big deal". Yeah, that attitude would get an instructor's attention and might be grounds for at least watching someone very carefully, KWIM?
This whole situation makes me sad because, Bird, you seem so committed and that you have the potential to be a great nurse. Please don't let this get you (too) down.
Yes, if you had been below par or hit or miss the entire semester, I could see their reasoning and would agree with their decision, but someone who has high grades throughout deserves consideration over one test situation. My advice about another school would be different if you had been a marginal student to begin with. Give this serious thought and hopefully you will find a more suitable school to continue with. Good luck.
Hi everyone. Well I am sitting in the waiting room at the counsoler office at my school at the moment to see and talk about everything. I just finished talking to the head of the nursing department. She had me fill our a paper and told me it's not guaranteed but it is highly probable that I can get back in starting in August because all my grades are good and I told her I really do want to be there. I told her how I felt while taking the test she seemed to act like she at least cared. She had me fill out a form for reentry in to the program. Now all I do is wait and pray. And I suppose apply to other schools wouldn't hurt. (I live in Houston TX we have more than one nursing program here.). Anyway, yes they make you take the entire level over again just because of 1 bad grade. And you do have to pay everything up front. They are a pretty well known Jr. College so it's not like they are some small Internet school that cause people to think "oh that's why.". I saw my test the stuff I messed up on was sooo stupid! I am so stupid for missing it! It was so easy I just froze. That's all it was. I knew how to do that stuff. I just can't believe myself. I was in a full time nursing program. There is no part time. The only part time is LVN to RN mobility but I'm not on that level yet. But I hope and pray to be there sooner than later. This is what I really want to do and I don't want to give up. I'm not ready to give up.
So yes at this point this is where I'm at. I signed a paper for a highly probable reentry into the LVN program. And after reading all you guys helpful post I'll be looking into other programs just for a back up. I'm so sad and I feel so stupid but I'm not ready to give up.
I don't like to hear you call youself "stupid". You can't get through even one nursing class if you are "stupid". No more negative self-talk -- you are obviously intelligent and determined.
If you do have dyslexia, they have to offer you testing accomodations through the ADA. They don't even have a choice in the matter -- it's the law. You would need to get a formal diagnosis and present it to them.
I am rooting for you, and I want everything to work out for you! Please keep us posted!!
if you failed the last exam then it means you didn't know the material the way you thought you did. even if you are nervous, if you know the material and it's multiple choice you should have gotten it. you appear to have other distractions in your life like husband and whatever. you can retry the nursing program or look into something easier like surgical tech. you can radiation therapy or ultrasound.
way to kick her while she's down johnnydogood
sometimes you just don't perform at your best. everyday is not the same. to say that she doesn't know the material the way she thought she did is very presumptive considering there are lots of people who don't test well. if you KNOW what anxiety is... then you ought to know that a TRUE case of it can be debilitating. just thought i'd throw that out there.
And do follow up on your dyslexia diagnosis. My friend in nursing school got tested, diagnosed, then availed herself of the special accommodations for her learning disability at our school. She was given more time to complete tests for one thing. If this were done for you, perhaps you could have "unfrozen", recovered, and completed the test with positive results. You have a lawful right to take advantage of the process, so use it.
Thank you everyone. I'm going to hope and pray and wait to get back into the school I was in but also apply to another school. I'm trying to keep my options open. I rather go back to my school though because I know what they are going to teach and I have all the books and I already have all the uniforms and I know what to expect. I called another Jr. College in the area but they require a 75 or higher and if you fail anything you are out just like the program I was in except the program I was in you could make a 70 or higher. So I just pray things fall back into place because at the moment my world has turned upside down. I'm not trying to feel sorry for myself, I'm more hating myself and I wake up every morning thinking you should be in school. I'm just still so hurt but I am not ready to give up and especially not after some of you guys stories. I have reapplied to the school I was in and I am applying to our community college LVN program to I'll keep looking for others. I am just praying for everything to work out for the best.
Just look at it as sometime stuff happens...Life sometimes just doesn't go the way we want it to...that's life....Reorganize and jump back in there. It can be done. Just may take a little longer than you planned. I started nursing school at 42, it took me a semester longer to finish my BSN program, due to my test anxiety with Hesi...but I did finish...so you can do it.
and i failed nursing school twice. I too thought my world was ending, but as of december i am a RN!! fight the good fight! i know you will get back in!
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Thank you all so much. You don't know how much help you've been to me. :heartbeat:heartbeat:heartbeat