I guess I need encouragement or experiences or something. I’m so depressed I cannot even think straight.
I’ll try to make this short. I was in a LVN program up until this past Thursday. I was doing very well. I was passing everything and I have so many A’s and 100’s at that and I was so proud of myself. I know the book. Test me on it now and I know I will pass. I didn’t memorize it, I learned it. And my skills, my grades are nothing but 100’s. But at my school you must pass everything you do with no less than a 70.
If all your grades are 100’s and your final average is an A or a B or even a C but you fail the final, you are out. You must pass everything you do. And I was passing. But my very last final, the very last thing, last test, last sheet of paper I would be touching for this portion of my courses, I got so nervous while taking our test ( a skills test!) and I went into panic mode and I froze. And I am now paying for it. I made a 66. I missed it just by 4 points.
This was only my first semester and only the first portion of a year program. I am 26 years old I will be 27 in September. I feel so old, if I wasn't busy with my husband when I was 21 I would have been finished with this by now I think.
I know there are other nurses out there that don't start till 41+ but I had/have goals I have set for myself and this has set me back. I feel so bad and so low and so dumb and worthless. They make us pay for all our uniforms and our classes for the semester at the beginning of the program before we even need our uniforms and classes for the 2nd half which I did not make it to, you pay of it and if you do not make it you are just out of luck and stuck with 4 ugly sets of scrubs that you will never use again that cost a total of $300. Not to mention the classes that I paid for that I don’t even have a chance to take and I can’t get my money back for now.
I go tomorrow to talk to the head of the department and see if she will let me back in the program. They have a rule that you may have a chance to redo the program but you are given only 1 redo but they make you take the entire level and all the classes over again just because you messed up on one test. If I get a chance at my 1 redo I know I will do good I will keep myself calm.
It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing, it was that I froze. I have been doing so good. I was so proud I wish I could show you all my 100’s. I’ve been devoting my life to this.
I’ve wanted to be a nurse since I was 6 years old and I put off everything for my husband when we were younger. We got married young and he was in the military. Now I feel so sad and depressed.
I’m not looking for pity here, I’m looking for options and to see if there is anyone out there who can say, hey I was where you are and now I made it, this is how…I have a 2 year old daughter. My mom even quit her job so she could stay home and watch my baby for me. That makes me feel like crap. I do everything for my daughter and feel so bad, I feel like I let her down. I feel so low.
I was a medical assistant before I started this program so I knew a little going in and I love working with patients and I’ve always wanted this. I feel like it is the end of the world, although people tell me it is not, I can’t help but think it. I need to work on my test anxiety, I was doing so good. It wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing. I just can’t believe I did this to myself. I do have dreams of getting my MSN and for my daughter I still want to get there.
I have 6 more classes to take to be able to start a BSN program. I had a plan to just start with LVN and get better at skills and also a way to get my foot in the door over all. But now I’m just so depressed. If I get another chance I will not be able to start school again till August, it is to late to enroll in any other classes at the moment and I quit working so I do not have a job at the moment.
I feel like sewage, if it wasn't for my daughter I wouldn't have even got out of bed today. Prayers and any info or thoughts, experiences, anything, anyone can give me would be nice. Thanks.
Look into getting help for test anxiety. The college I graduated from had something called the center for new directions with counselors who would help with several different issues including test anxiety. Make a plan for how you will do differently, this will be important when you try to get back in. Good luck getting back in if not the LPN program try other programs such as an ADN or BSN program.
Best of Luck, get back up and make your family proud!
Best wishes in this difficult time! I am so sorry this happened to you. I agree with the other posters who mentioned that this could be a panic attack; I am sure you knew the material but you had what's known as a "retrieval error".
Sometimes people have very minor learning disabilities that can result in a situation like yours, the unusual stress brings out the LD but it's never shown up before. You could have experienced a mild form of dyslexia, which contrary to popular belief, can manifest in the sudden inability to function in a testing situation (it's not just reading things backwards).
I'm not saying you have an LD; but it might be something to consider ... you know, many famous people have LD's and are incredibly successful -- people like Charles Schwab. It seems like you are super intelligent, dedicated, passionate about nursing, and a great mom and wife. I KNOW you have the guts to get through this.
If this school won't let you back in, I say to hell with 'em. They sound like they have ****** up their *****. Who needs it? Find somewhere more professional.
best wishes in this difficult time! i am so sorry this happened to you. i agree with the other posters who mentioned that this could be a panic attack; i am sure you knew the material but you had what's known as a "retrieval error".
sometimes people have very minor learning disabilities that can result in a situation like yours, the unusual stress brings out the ld but it's never shown up before. you could have experienced a mild form of dyslexia, which contrary to popular belief, can manifest in the sudden inability to function in a testing situation (it's not just reading things backwards).
i'm not saying you have an ld; but it might be something to consider ... you know, many famous people have ld's and are incredibly successful -- people like charles schwab. it seems like you are super intelligent, dedicated, passionate about nursing, and a great mom and wife. i know you have the guts to get through this.
if this school won't let you back in, i say to hell with 'em. they sound like they have ****** up their *****. who needs it? find somewhere more professional.
actually i do have a mild form of dyslexia. i was told that there is really nothing i can do about it now because of my age and that if i would have told someone when i was younger i could have did things to work on it. i've always seen things backwards randomly and i can read things backwards really easy like if it was written right.
unfortunately, i cannot take the test again. and i will have to take the entire level over again and start from the beginning.
i am a very nervous test taker but this was the worst ever! i'm so disappointed, but the suggestion made by studentkk, about practicing out loud and making up my own little test, i think that is a very good idea.
i am taking everyone’s (all but 1 ) suggestions in to consideration, thank you all. also thank you for all the well wishes. i am still so sad and a little anxious to go meet with the head of the department tomorrow. but i am ready and hope to have an answer and know what will become of me next. i am praying they let me back in because i know i can do this. thank you everyone.
unfortunately, i cannot take the test again. and i will have to take the entire level over again and start from the beginning.
i am a very nervous test taker but this was the worst ever! i'm so disappointed, but the suggestion made by studentkk, about practicing out loud and making up my own little test, i think that is a very good idea.
i am taking everyone’s (all but 1 ) suggestions in to consideration, thank you all. also thank you for all the well wishes. i am still so sad and a little anxious to go meet with the head of the department tomorrow. but i am ready and hope to have an answer and know what will become of me next. i am praying they let me back in because i know i can do this. thank you everyone.
damn, this is just unfortunate. that's so weird how you don't have any re-writes like my school. we have 3 "life-lines" and if we use them all up than we have to repeat the semester. but in your case, it was only the first semester.. and i know there was a lot of time, effort and energy spent during those couple of weeks but understand that this ain't the end of the world for you or your career (obviously).
i'm 19 years old (with no background knowledge of anything related with nursing) and i was also nervous when it came to quizzes and tests. and in your case, skills testing really got the best of me. i literally begged my instructor to pass me one time and it was no use. they have a cold heart when it comes to finals because you must understand that you are dealing with lives. they want to make sure that you're well prepared before sending you off to clinical. so next time breathe, visualize and ask yourself if you really want this. i did this before all my finals and it calmed me down a fair bit.
this was a quote i lived by in nursing school..i'm not sure if it'll help you but i'll share it with you anyways.
"to accomplish great things you must not only act but also dream, not only plan but also believe"
i wish you the best of luck..don't be so hard on yourself. find another school, do more research and hopefully next time around you'll make it!
actually i do have a mild form of dyslexia. i was told that there is really nothing i can do about it now because of my age and that if i would have told someone when i was younger i could have did things to work on it. i've always seen things backwards randomly and i can read things backwards really easy like if it was written right.
unfortunately, i cannot take the test again. and i will have to take the entire level over again and start from the beginning.
i am a very nervous test taker but this was the worst ever! i'm so disappointed, but the suggestion made by studentkk, about practicing out loud and making up my own little test, i think that is a very good idea.
i am taking everyone's (all but 1 ) suggestions in to consideration, thank you all. also thank you for all the well wishes. i am still so sad and a little anxious to go meet with the head of the department tomorrow. but i am ready and hope to have an answer and know what will become of me next. i am praying they let me back in because i know i can do this. thank you everyone.
i think it is caliotter3 who made the suggestion to practicing out loud and making up your own little test, not me. just giving credit where credit is due (:
I agree with another person whom posted. Is there another school close to you with the option of ADN. I went to a school where you could opt out of the ADN program after a year and then take your LPN. Whatever school you are attending is crazy. You obviously have the compassion and if they base one bad test and send someone to the front of the line they are looking to get money and not helping people accomplish their dream. Whichever you choose, good luck to you. Believe in yourself.
Now, with the anxiety. I finished my last semester of the RN program this December. I was always a pretty cool and calm person. The last semester had me frazzled to the point I could not concentrate. Think of it if dreams were easy to achieve we would have nothing to hope and strive for. We would all be "Britney Spears," okay that is a very bad example. Anyhoo...I went to my doc and she got me some Xanax (PRN). I would only take it when I needed it. Sometimes I would go days without and other I would take two a day. Sometimes I think there should be something prescribed for the instructor, so they could be less intimidating.
Good luck on your adventure, I know you can do it. Just think when you are all finished that you can sit back with the greatest of pride of achieving something so great, no matter what obstacles that you have had to overcome.
I agree with another person whom posted. Is there another school close to you with the option of ADN. I went to a school where you could opt out of the ADN program after a year and then take your LPN. Whatever school you are attending is crazy. You obviously have the compassion and if they base one bad test and send someone to the front of the line they are looking to get money and not helping people accomplish their dream. Whichever you choose, good luck to you. Believe in yourself.
Now, with the anxiety. I finished my last semester of the RN program this December. I was always a pretty cool and calm person. The last semester had me frazzled to the point I could not concentrate. Think of it if dreams were easy to achieve we would have nothing to hope and strive for. We would all be "Britney Spears," okay that is a very bad example. Anyhoo...I went to my doc and she got me some Xanax (PRN). I would only take it when I needed it. Sometimes I would go days without and other I would take two a day. Sometimes I think there should be something prescribed for the instructor, so they could be less intimidating.
Good luck on your adventure, I know you can do it. Just think when you are all finished that you can sit back with the greatest of pride of achieving something so great, no matter what obstacles that you have had to overcome.
Yeah, I think my school was looking only at money too, they would not let me take just that last semester over, they wanted me to take the entire 9 months over again, it's BS. How cruel, 3 weeks b4 graduation:crying2:
I'm crossing my fingers for you that they let you back in, OP. Let us know how it turns out.
im sorry to hear that but you are still young and determined go for it! show them this is was you want!! Are you in FT program or PT program? Honestly I go PT and its hard so FT I am sure is so much harder!!!..If your school had a PT program maybe you could switch over?...Just an idea because thats how it is in my school ..keep ur head up and do not give up you have made it this far no sense in giving up now !
Hi everyone. Well I am sitting in the waiting room at the counsoler office at my school at the moment to see and talk about everything. I just finished talking to the head of the nursing department. She had me fill our a paper and told me it's not guaranteed but it is highly probable that I can get back in starting in August because all my grades are good and I told her I really do want to be there. I told her how I felt while taking the test she seemed to act like she at least cared. She had me fill out a form for reentry in to the program. Now all I do is wait and pray. And I suppose apply to other schools wouldn't hurt. (I live in Houston TX we have more than one nursing program here.). Anyway, yes they make you take the entire level over again just because of 1 bad grade. And you do have to pay everything up front. They are a pretty well known Jr. College so it's not like they are some small Internet school that cause people to think "oh that's why.". I saw my test the stuff I messed up on was sooo stupid! I am so stupid for missing it! It was so easy I just froze. That's all it was. I knew how to do that stuff. I just can't believe myself. I was in a full time nursing program. There is no part time. The only part time is LVN to RN mobility but I'm not on that level yet. But I hope and pray to be there sooner than later. This is what I really want to do and I don't want to give up. I'm not ready to give up.
So yes at this point this is where I'm at. I signed a paper for a highly probable reentry into the LVN program. And after reading all you guys helpful post I'll be looking into other programs just for a back up. I'm so sad and I feel so stupid but I'm not ready to give up.
Please don't feel sad or stupid. You should be proud that you have stood up for yourself and demanded to be treated fairly. That says a lot about the kind of person you are deep inside. I get a bad vibe about this school.. This all or nothing approach is usually motivated by money.... Try looking into other schools in the meantime... I hope you get back in! Good Luck...
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Look into getting help for test anxiety. The college I graduated from had something called the center for new directions with counselors who would help with several different issues including test anxiety. Make a plan for how you will do differently, this will be important when you try to get back in. Good luck getting back in if not the LPN program try other programs such as an ADN or BSN program.
Best of Luck, get back up and make your family proud!