*When they stare at me for over 3 seconds for no apparent reason! Especially, when I'm trying to eat a subway sandwich or something and they just feel the need to watch me eat. Or when I'm trying to fix my hair in a portable mirror and they just feel the need to glance at me more then twice. Once should be enough because it's rude!
*When they walk so slowww in front of me to the point where I just want to push them. Because I am a very impatient person to the point where the littlest things tick me off if it's not fast enough.
*I hate when people tries to start a conversation with me! So I just smile and nod my head and hope that they get the jist that I don't want to talk. And it's not even people in general, it's actually because I'm a bad conversationalist!
Why I dislike kids:
* I don't necessarily hate them but I do force myself to be nice as possible to them. However, I really don't like interacting with children unless it's to hold a baby.
*I don't want kids until my late 30s. Go figure. And I especially don't want to get married because every relationship I get into it only lasts for about 3 months because I love being a loner. If I'm going to work seeing people then I would like to come home and see no people.
But I love animals (I have 4 dogs)! However, I just don't see myself working with animals in the future because I would love to keep my hands in tact.
And no guys I am not trolling. This is really an everything for me and it's the reasons why it is so hard for me to commit to nursing. And I actually have an appointment set up with a therapist July 18 before I go off to nursing school and it's to find out why I really act this way.
So I just wanted to make this thread because after scrolling Allnurses for the last two days I find that threads like these are not common but their are people out there who is just like me and wants to go into nursing. I want to be a nurse because I find that I really like helping people and kids at their weakest points but other than that I hate people.
Yes, I am actually laughing. Good post. :) I catch myself getting irritated in similar ways sometimes. You sound like an introvert (with the whole wanting to see no people at home, and not liking strangers starting conversations with you). I am an introvert as well.
When I feel like shoving someone out of my way I have to take a deep breath and remember the golden rule lol That saves me from a lot of "Ally McBeal" moments.
Lots of us are introverts. That's totally different than how the OP is describing herself. I forget who already called it, but misanthrope is the proper term.
Okay, guys I hate people but I don't show people that I hate them. Which has actually been working out great with me. I am surrounded by people by working at Panera but I would never tell them to stop looking at me.
This is something I had to address in myself several years ago... if you actually hate people
internally it will show even if you think you are successfully hiding it. It changed a lot of things for me when I actually changed my mind set and the way I look at people. Everyone around me seemed nicer... interestingly that probably had to do more with my changing my own attitude than with them. lol
I take your post light heartedly bc I have experienced a lot of the frustrations you have, but just because there are days when these irritations feel like they are so overwhelming that you have to vent on a nursing blog or burst does not mean you are naturally just a monster all the time.
I do love kids though... I adore peds nurses. Absolutely adore them. That has got to be the hardest job in the world. You gotta be one tough human. I wish I could help kids like that, but I can't even watch CPR videos in class on kid dolls without getting choked up... I'd be useless in a peds unit.
Lots of us are introverts. That's totally different than how the OP is describing herself. I forget who already called it, but misanthrope is the proper term.
Ya, I wasn't saying everything she posted was introvert... just the example I mentioned
Not trying to be rude. But I find her post to be incredibly narcissistic and arrogant. She seems to think large numbers of people are consumed with her. Not so.
And she SAYS she "hates people." I agree with Maya Angelou:
"When someone shows you who they are believe them; the first time."
I want to get what you're saying, but it is never and will never be appropriate to tell someone to never have kids over a difference in personality. Some of the other stuff was nasty, too, but that's the one thing I actually remember. That is, honestly, what I would call a "hateful" thing to say.
I don't see narcissism in her posts. I see a person with a low threshold for things that irritate her. Imagine yourself on a cranky day, only every day is a cranky day. I also see a person who recognizes that she is overly sensitive and she wants help dealing with that.
I don't feel good about the way I think or my actions and that is why I'm going to see a psychiatrist because maybe I have a personality disorder and I don't even know it. And the worst thing is I have a little sister and she's showing the same symptoms and dispositions I always try to hide from people. So I feel it's better to stop the problem in it's tracks now before it becomes too great. I know my kindness can be the fakest thing ever and I don't feel bad about pretending to like people.
And I don't know if it's a thing on here or not to troll on Allnurses but I didn't make this thread to provide entertainment to you all.
THIS! Good for you OP. Self improvement is a wonderful, life-long adventure.
Hate always ends up hurting the person doing the hating. But you never know what may happen when you're forced to care for someone. It could be the biggest mistake ever, or it could be something that helps you even more than it helps your patients.
After a lifetime of being screwed over by family, "friends," and colleagues, I certainly understand. Whether it was being swindled out of my parents' inheritance by my scumbag brother, or being stabbed in the back repeated times by co-workers, I understand.
Over the years, I have developed great respect and admiration for those who have exempted themselves from virtually any and all human contact. Call them "aloof;" call them "reclusive." Whatever. I respect them and envy them. They don't help anyone. They don't hurt anyone. They just don't want to be subjected to the human condition, which is inherently evil and will ALWAYS corrupt itself and others. They live their lives in solitude surrounded by what they love. Good books. Cutting edge technology. Music. Art. Whatever.
They just don't want to be bothered. Good for them. Unfortunately, that type of existence - which I heartily aspire to - requires extraordinary financial resources. Far and away from what a nurse, or for that matter, 99% of the population earns.
Specializes in Psych, Corrections, Med-Surg, Ambulatory.
OP, I get that you are struggling with some things and trying to navigate a way around. Also, you see similar traits in your sister and want to figure out how to help her have a better quality of life. I think recognizing things and seeking help are excellent starts.
I do agree with a previous poster that a psychologist might have better help to offer than a psychiatrist. But that's just my opinion. It's just important that you start somewhere and be prepared to try different things if an original plan isn't working.
I'm not sure how nursing school will work out for you. It's not my place (or anyone else's) to tell you you shouldn't go. I do wonder if nursing is a way to force yourself to deal with your issues by jumping in at the deep end. Only you will know if it's panning out for you or just making your life unlivable. Just allow yourself the freedom to change directions if you need to.
I'm wishing you and your sister all the very best.
*When they stare at me for over 3 seconds for no apparent reason! Especially, when I'm trying to eat a subway sandwich or something and they just feel the need to watch me eat. Or when I'm trying to fix my hair in a portable mirror and they just feel the need to glance at me more then twice. Once should be enough because it's rude!
*When they walk so slowww in front of me to the point where I just want to push them. Because I am a very impatient person to the point where the littlest things tick me off if it's not fast enough.
*I hate when people tries to start a conversation with me! So I just smile and nod my head and hope that they get the jist that I don't want to talk. And it's not even people in general, it's actually because I'm a bad conversationalist!
Why I dislike kids:
* I don't necessarily hate them but I do force myself to be nice as possible to them. However, I really don't like interacting with children unless it's to hold a baby.
*I don't want kids until my late 30s. Go figure. And I especially don't want to get married because every relationship I get into it only lasts for about 3 months because I love being a loner. If I'm going to work seeing people then I would like to come home and see no people.
But I love animals (I have 4 dogs)! However, I just don't see myself working with animals in the future because I would love to keep my hands in tact.
And no guys I am not trolling. This is really an everything for me and it's the reasons why it is so hard for me to commit to nursing. And I actually have an appointment set up with a therapist July 18 before I go off to nursing school and it's to find out why I really act this way.
So I just wanted to make this thread because after scrolling Allnurses for the last two days I find that threads like these are not common but their are people out there who is just like me and wants to go into nursing. I want to be a nurse because I find that I really like helping people and kids at their weakest points but other than that I hate people.
I absolutely hate when random people try to start conversations with me. Elevator rides are super awkward lol. I'm an introvert but I still interact with my colleagues pretty well.
Horseshoe, BSN, RN
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Lots of us are introverts. That's totally different than how the OP is describing herself. I forget who already called it, but misanthrope is the proper term.