It's my fault, I didn't study as hard as I thought I did. You know how it is, you start to lose that steam you had at the beginning of the semester. In our program 75.5 is passing. I had a 73.11 or something close to it before the final exam. I needed a 79 to have an ending average of 74.77. Well, I made a 77 on the final, and my average ended up being 74.17...not even half of a measley point. I didn't beg for the extra points because that would have just barely passed me. I cried a ton when they told me, and so did my instructors. I came home and felt sorry for myself, cried, got angry with myself, got angry with the instructors, blamed everything and everyone but myself. I ended up having a moment of clarity later in the evening. The DON told me that she would welcome me back next year and that the spot was guaranteed. She let me know that I was one of the most kind and caring ppl she had met and that I would definately make a good nurse; the other instructor in the room agreed. Now, they could have been feeding me a line of doodoo to soften the blow, but I am choosing to believe them. In my heart I know without a doubt I was awesome with those patients at clinicals, and I enjoyed it so much. My problem...the bookwork. I understand their decision, and I think this is the best for me and for any of my future patients. I need to really be able to grasp every single concept they throw at us to be the best I can be. It hurts so much to not be able to graduate with the friends I have made, including my best friend but today is new day. I have already registered for a mid-winter class, and I will register for a full course load to finish the majority of my pre-reqs for the RN program. I will graciously except the spot they offered me in the LVN program for next year, and if it's God's will, I will be accepted to the RN program in the spring following graduation and graduate in December w/my ADN. This happened for a reason. I am not sure of the reason, but it is truly a life lesson.
I guess my point is this: to encourage anyone who did not make it through nursing school and feels discouraged. Don't wallow in self pity. Accept responsibility for your actions, or lack of responsibilty, dust yourself off, and try again. Come back more fierce and determined than ever. If you truly want to be a nurse, it is worth fighting for and giving it your all. Soo instead of all the :crying2: ....try :) :) :) . There's always hope, and another chance!!!!
Thank you for letting me share my feelings with all of you:)
Below is a pic from my last clinical day. We had a christmas party for all of the residents at the nursing home. I'm the goofy gal who thinks she's a reindeer:chuckle And the other 2 are my best friends(met them in school)
Your're attitude is awsome...and like someone elese said it will serve you well in many areas of life not just in your nursing career. Good luck with everything! Wish you nothing but the best. You sound like you'll make a great nurse.
You know--I come on this site everyday, and feel like I have gotten to "know" several people from their posts. When I read yours the first thing I thought was, "Oh No, not Veronica." I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason, though you might not ever know why. Good for you for finding the positive side of this. Your optimistic personality will get you far in life. Don't ever lose it!
(I agree with nurse_wannabe, you are adorable--that picture was sooo cute!)
I am glad you are so upbeat! Positive thinking and sticking to your goals will benefit you in the long run...plus you're going to have this stuff down cold when you go to take the NCLEX!
WOW!!! I'm so impressed with your super attitude. And your instructors are so right, Veronica. You ARE going to be a wonderful nurse. That attitude is exactly what the nursing profession needs. I'm sorry you won't graduate with your friends, but you WILL graduate, and be a wonderful nurse for your efforts! :)
Sometimes it takes a bitter blow to make you realize your dreams. I know anger and fear got me thru school. Good luck to you. Sounds like you are in a good program.... my program would not have been so supportive or understanding.
So sorry about all this for you, I would not handle this as well as you did. Good luck in the future and if all students and/or nurses had your attitiude our patients would get the best care in the world
I would say you can't know how much reading your post meant to me but I'm truly thinking I would be wrong because I recognize so much of my own thoughts and feelings in it.
You see, I failed this semester, too. This was my third. I had planned to graduate in May of 2005 and sit for those state boards in the summer to become an RN. I failed by one point. The passing grade for our school is an 80.
I found out Monday night when the grades were posted online in Blackboard. I just sat there staring in disbelief at my failing mark.....thinking about my beloved classmates who were going on without me (how I love them and so wanted to graduate with them), about the "If only's"..Woke up Tuesday morning after a fitful nightmarish sleep thinking, "It just can't be true" only to realize that it was. I was so depressed....I literally physically felt that my heart was crushed.
I then realized that I had two choices....I could let myself sink into despair or I could look at my options. I was still afraid as I'd not failed a course before and wasn't sure how the school would handle it.
I went and talked to my instructor yesterday and the instructor from last year. Both were very supportive. Soooo, next semester I'll be taking Pharm II and Microbiology. I'm taking the latter (1) because I'll need it for my eventual BSN and (2) because this failing has hurt my GPA and I need to rebuild it.
Three other classmates failed also. One other was with me yesterday and signed up for the same courses. She, like me, isn't really happy of our outcome but she also, like me, wants to be an RN. One other that failed is looking at going to another school and another who failed by 1/100th of a point is fighting for that 1/100th of a point. She was preparing to go in for Round 2 with the instructor when I left campus yesterday. I prayed for her twice yesterday...once to get that 1/100th of a point and once to have strength and comfort for whatever the outcome. I've yet to learn what the outcome was. Out of my class, there are now 10 left.
Anyhoo, I'm "dealing", I guess you could say. I felt I tried hard but feel it simply was not my time. Admittedly I've had a lot of personal struggles in my homelife this semester and last and I wonder if this is God's way of saying, "Take care of you and the.....commence." I'm reminded that I'm not the first nurse to fail and won't be the last and as I've heard (and as last year's nursing instructor said yesterday) some of the best nurses in the world have failed nursing school at least once. As you can probably see, I've been doing a lot of talking to myself.
I want you to know that reading your post so echoed my thoughts, feelings. It brought me comfort to know that another knows a lot of how I am feeling and though saddened, still has a resolve to complete what she set out to do. This too shall pass, right?
i would say you can't know how much reading your post meant to me but i'm truly thinking i would be wrong because i recognize so much of my own thoughts and feelings in it.
you see, i failed this semester, too. this was my third. i had planned to graduate in may of 2005 and sit for those state boards in the summer to become an rn. i failed by one point. the passing grade for our school is an 80.
i found out monday night when the grades were posted online in blackboard. i just sat there staring in disbelief at my failing mark.....thinking about my beloved classmates who were going on without me (how i love them and so wanted to graduate with them), about the "if only's"..woke up tuesday morning after a fitful nightmarish sleep thinking, "it just can't be true" only to realize that it was. i was so depressed....i literally physically felt that my heart was crushed.
i then realized that i had two choices....i could let myself sink into despair or i could look at my options. i was still afraid as i'd not failed a course before and wasn't sure how the school would handle it.
i went and talked to my instructor yesterday and the instructor from last year. both were very supportive. soooo, next semester i'll be taking pharm ii and microbiology. i'm taking the latter (1) because i'll need it for my eventual bsn and (2) because this failing has hurt my gpa and i need to rebuild it.
three other classmates failed also. one other was with me yesterday and signed up for the same courses. she, like me, isn't really happy of our outcome but she also, like me, wants to be an rn. one other that failed is looking at going to another school and another who failed by 1/100th of a point is fighting for that 1/100th of a point. she was preparing to go in for round 2 with the instructor when i left campus yesterday. i prayed for her twice yesterday...once to get that 1/100th of a point and once to have strength and comfort for whatever the outcome. i've yet to learn what the outcome was. out of my class, there are now 10 left.
anyhoo, i'm "dealing", i guess you could say. i felt i tried hard but feel it simply was not my time. admittedly i've had a lot of personal struggles in my homelife this semester and last and i wonder if this is god's way of saying, "take care of you and the.....commence." i'm reminded that i'm not the first nurse to fail and won't be the last and as i've heard (and as last year's nursing instructor said yesterday) some of the best nurses in the world have failed nursing school at least once. as you can probably see, i've been doing a lot of talking to myself.
i want you to know that reading your post so echoed my thoughts, feelings. it brought me comfort to know that another knows a lot of how i am feeling and though saddened, still has a resolve to complete what she set out to do. this too shall pass, right?
you hang in there too catma63. i know it is so disheartening and disenchanting. i felt the same way. i applaud your can do attitude and the fact that you will not let this bump in the path stop you!
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Your're attitude is awsome...and like someone elese said it will serve you well in many areas of life not just in your nursing career. Good luck with everything! Wish you nothing but the best. You sound like you'll make a great nurse.