I am going to share my story, sorry for the long post. . . . .
Failing the NCLEX left me feeling very lost. Before taking the NCLEX I turned to other nurses for their input on the exam, all of them said they passed with the 75 questions. When I went to take the test I was waiting for the 75 questions, once question 76 hit my stomach dropped and my heart raced. I was filled with frustration and anger, where did I go wrong? I walked out of the exam feeling like a failure, I know everyone says this, but I knew in my heart it was not my day. I am not going to tell you how many questions I had or what type of questions were asked. I listened to all the talk about the NCLEX and I believe it hindered me from passing the examination.
When I recieved the results two days later my gut feeling was right. They put the results so nicely, failed is all it read. I stared at the screen for a while, I couldn't believe this happened. The failing results left me feeling as though someone died in my family. I would never wish anyone ever have to feel how I felt that day.
I wish I brave enough to tell more people I failed so those that do would not feel alone as I do. I have a great support system, my parents, fiance, and friends are all behind me and support me. For some reason I still feel low and in a haze.
I went to the bookstore today to look for study books. I just flipped through them and became frustrated, I do not know where to go from here. I did Kaplan before taking it the first time, I was getting low scores on the question trainer and q bank. I think I need to sutdy more on how to answer the questions.
I know once I pass my self esteem will go up, but right now it has been shot down. My confidence has been shattered. I know I need to pick myself up and start being positive, I am just having a hard time doing it. I have 21 days till I retake it. I will keep you posted.
