Well, I finally did it...sent in my request to the Board of Nursing to put my license into Retired status.
I haven't worked in five years, so I don't have any practice hours to be able to renew my license. I knew that, of course, but I cried a little as I was filling out the form that means my career is truly over. I put so much blood, sweat and tears into it over the years that I wound up being unable to separate what I did from who I was. I've had time now to untangle the mess, but I still think like a nurse and probably always will.
The reason I didn't put my license into Inactive status is that Retired makes it possible for me to keep my RN title as long as I put Retired behind it. I can't practice or volunteer as a nurse in any way, but then, if I could still work I wouldn't have had to give up my license in the first place.
So you might say it ended not with a bang but a whimper. But I'm not going to lose interest in nursing, not with a 21-year career behind me and a son who's a newly-minted RN in front of me. And of course I'll always hang around here. ?