Terminated.. long post......stressed and relieved at the same time

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Specializes in Med/Surge, Private Duty Peds.

lorie p. here aka nurse hobbit.

i have posted in the general nursing forum and private duty forum aboyt being terminated from my job yesterday. it is a very long post and if one wants they can read it there.

the main reason i am posting here is because some of you know me and others don't but i wanted to let everyone know what was going on since i haven't posted here in awhile.

now, the reason i was terminated was because i falsified my time sheets and nursing notes for 3 days. iknew it was wrong and admitted it. was opne and honest went i went to the office to sign my termination papers.

to begin with, some of you know that i have been struggling with heart disease and depression on and on for a few years. well a couple of weeks ago i felt myself going downthe dark tunnel again. went in to see my pcp and he gave me new antidepressants to try along with changing my heart meds. after a couple of days of the new drugs was feeling like i was on cloud "9" and this could have contributed to why i made such a poor and unprofessional judgement call.

any way the whole time i was feelign out the notes/sheets, i knew it was wrong, yet did not really think through what the after affects would be. i was feeling the best i had in a few weeks.

so i get called to the office after faxing my papers in. now mind you , i am not making or asking for excuses. i know i was wrong and admitted it. i was completely honest with the two people that i had to meet with. one was a rn, my supervisor and the other non-medical.

now my rn super was very understanding, try to keep my job for me and said that hse knew that " that this was not me" that she would even go as far as to give me a great recommendation when i needed a reference when it came time to work again.

she also told me that with her experience with our bon, i was doing every thing right, admitted iwas wrong, seeing a pcp and will most likely have to go to counseling. that she has seen nurses do worse things than this.

so when ever and what ever the bon does, i will accept it, move on and rebuild. i take full and complete responsiblity for my actions.

how ever i feel so relieved because after 5+ years of taking care of "other peoples" lifes, making sure to cover my butt, not being responsible for another human life, i can breath a sigh of relieve.

hin sight being 20/20 the other person at my termination wanted to know why didn't i just pick up a phone and call employee assistance, well for one, when dealing with clinically depressed people the last thing they think of is calling for help. besides i was feeling much better , so i thought.

so now for the next few weeks, i am going to concentrate on me, my mental health and my family.

my poor husband is upset cause i worked so hard to get my license and is worried i may lose them. i will deal with that bridge when i have to cross it.

thanks so much for allowing me to come here and vent, share and express my feelings on this issue. some of you will understand and others won't but that is ok. i just wanted to come to a place where people understand what nursing is can become in today's world. not only the stress but both the postive and negative of being a nurse.

thanks so much!

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Best of luck to you. The BON should at least consider your medical dx and the fact you admitted to your wrong doing. It also looks like your trying to get your life back together before taking on another nursing job. In my opinion, this reflects well on your character.

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Specializes in LTC, Acute Care.

I'm sorry and admire your honesty. I hope everything works out in the long run for you.............*hugs*

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Specializes in pediatric, geriatric.

I admire that you admit what happened and I know many people who would not or push blame onto others. I believe everything happens for a reason, good or bad. Sometimes we can't understand why at the moment but later on things make sense. Maybe this is your time to regroup, pull yourself together before you can take care of others right now.

Good luck and best wishes.

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Specializes in Med surg and Psych.

Love Ya Cyber class mate.(Here's your cyber hug)...Just remember you can come here and vent anytime! Here is wishing you the best life has to offer and you know that you are where you are supposed to be. Just think of it as one of life's lessons. You, in turn will be able to help someone else some day as they may be dealing with what you are dealing with now. Take care of yourself. You are so worth it...As the old saying goes...and I quote," To the world you are someone, but to someone you are the world" Again...This obstacle you are facing today is just going to build on your character and make you a stronger woman tomorrow. Your Cyber friend, Traci

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Ok...I might get flamed for this...but i just gotta say it. there's times when i deal with some serious depression issues. Long story short...depression DOES not justify falsely documenting on a clients record.

Not to be hateful, but accept that you did lie, and move on.

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Specializes in Med/Surge, Private Duty Peds.
ok...i might get flamed for this...but i just gotta say it. there's times when i deal with some serious depression issues. long story short...depression does not justify falsely documenting on a clients record.

not to be hateful, but accept that you did lie, and move on.

i have accepted i was wrong and i am doing the right things to get myself better.

just remember, depression affects different people very differently, same as any other medical dx. glad to know you are doing so much better.

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Specializes in Med/Surg, Dialysis, LTAC, Hospice, SCI.

I can not stand in judgement on you as a person; however , I will say that I admire your courage for being honest and admitting what happened, this is like a form of self therapy within itself.

Have faith, and I hope everything works out for the best.

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Specializes in Hospice, ER.

Unless you suffer from depression, it's hard to understand. That being said, kudos for taking responsibility. Bottom line - you owned your mistake. Sometimes we do things subconsiously - sometimes we just do dumb stuff. Either way, you'll come out of this stronger and a better nurse for it.

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Specializes in Trauma,ER,CCU/OHU/Nsg Ed/Nsg Research.

Good luck to you, Lorie. I think it showed integrity that you admitted what you had done. Hugs to you.

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Specializes in LTC, case mgmt, agency.

{{{ HUGS }}} Hope things work out well for ya Lorie aka Nurse Hobbit. No judgement here. Those time sheets for home health are a ***** anyways. Good luck.

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{{{ HUGS }}} Hope things work out well for ya Lorie aka Nurse Hobbit. No judgement here. Those time sheets for home health are a ***** anyways. Good luck.

I have heard that from many others as well. Traci

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