i have posted in the general nursing forum and private duty forum aboyt being terminated from my job yesterday. it is a very long post and if one wants they can read it there.
the main reason i am posting here is because some of you know me and others don't but i wanted to let everyone know what was going on since i haven't posted here in awhile.
now, the reason i was terminated was because i falsified my time sheets and nursing notes for 3 days. iknew it was wrong and admitted it. was opne and honest went i went to the office to sign my termination papers.
to begin with, some of you know that i have been struggling with heart disease and depression on and on for a few years. well a couple of weeks ago i felt myself going downthe dark tunnel again. went in to see my pcp and he gave me new antidepressants to try along with changing my heart meds. after a couple of days of the new drugs was feeling like i was on cloud "9" and this could have contributed to why i made such a poor and unprofessional judgement call.
any way the whole time i was feelign out the notes/sheets, i knew it was wrong, yet did not really think through what the after affects would be. i was feeling the best i had in a few weeks.
so i get called to the office after faxing my papers in. now mind you , i am not making or asking for excuses. i know i was wrong and admitted it. i was completely honest with the two people that i had to meet with. one was a rn, my supervisor and the other non-medical.
now my rn super was very understanding, try to keep my job for me and said that hse knew that " that this was not me" that she would even go as far as to give me a great recommendation when i needed a reference when it came time to work again.
she also told me that with her experience with our bon, i was doing every thing right, admitted iwas wrong, seeing a pcp and will most likely have to go to counseling. that she has seen nurses do worse things than this.
so when ever and what ever the bon does, i will accept it, move on and rebuild. i take full and complete responsiblity for my actions.
how ever i feel so relieved because after 5+ years of taking care of "other peoples" lifes, making sure to cover my butt, not being responsible for another human life, i can breath a sigh of relieve.
hin sight being 20/20 the other person at my termination wanted to know why didn't i just pick up a phone and call employee assistance, well for one, when dealing with clinically depressed people the last thing they think of is calling for help. besides i was feeling much better , so i thought.
so now for the next few weeks, i am going to concentrate on me, my mental health and my family.
my poor husband is upset cause i worked so hard to get my license and is worried i may lose them. i will deal with that bridge when i have to cross it.
thanks so much for allowing me to come here and vent, share and express my feelings on this issue. some of you will understand and others won't but that is ok. i just wanted to come to a place where people understand what nursing is can become in today's world. not only the stress but both the postive and negative of being a nurse.
I'm happy you admitted your wrong doing. Are you saying that you made up hours and visits that you really didn't do? I'm trying to understand why you would be reported to the BON if it were that you were terminated for fudging on your time slips?
IlovenursingRN
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I'm happy you admitted your wrong doing. Are you saying that you made up hours and visits that you really didn't do? I'm trying to understand why you would be reported to the BON if it were that you were terminated for fudging on your time slips?