Currently I'm a student nurse. I took a job as a nursing assistant at a local hospital to gain patient care experience. It's been great and I highly recommend this route for current students. Many of the nurse I work with were once Nursing Assistants as well. They are helpful, informative and even offer me opportunities to learn and try new skils - ...
But as a nurse's assistant you are dead-center in the middle of the nurse-patient relationship. You are the one that answers the call light and keeps the nurse informed of changes with the patient, if they've voided, eaten, or if they want medication. Tonight I was put in the middle of a very uncomfortable situation. My patient rang the call bell and appeared very agitated when I arrived at his bedside. He asked if I woukd ask his nurse for his Ativan. I replied with a "yes, I will let her know you are asking." I made my way down the hall to the nurse and relayed the message. Her reply surprised me but I thought - "she must have her reasons" and I continued with my work. She had responded with a dramatic eye roll and stated, "he wants Ativan? Well I'm not giving it to him."
Thirty minutes later this gentlemen was ringing the light again, and this time he was at the doorway of the room looking out into the hallway, and still appearing agitated. I asked him how I could help and he said that he still had not gotten his Ativan. I apologized and told him I would tell his nurse. And as I had before, I approached her with the same information, stating that again he was asking for his Ativan. The nurse again, refused. By now I was concerned that at two separate times a patient requested medication and two separate times the nurse refused to give it. Not because it wasn't due or it couldn't be given--it was because she didn't want to. As far as I know... It is possible it wasn't due but typically the nurse would report this information and I in turn could report back to the patient - "I'm sorry your nurse says it's too soon after your last dose." This is not what happened.
I continued attend to my other patients trying to remain neutral -- and then the man rang his call bell again another 30min later. When I answered and he told me he still had not gotten his med I felt terrible. I thought "he must think the nurse is blowing him off or he thinks that I'm a liar." I apologized again and told him I would tell her -- he then asked me "well what did she say the last time you asked her?!" I froze! Of course I couldn't tell him what she actually said. I just looked blankly at him and said, "I don't know what she said" obviously lying while trying not to lie. I felt really crappy to be put in this position and because I wasn't sure how to handle it I pulled the charge nurse aside and without mentioning names I asked he a hypothetical "what should I do ...if this happens?" She asked which patient, pulled up the emar, asked which nurse and said she'll talk to her -- but now I feel like a rat. I like this nurse a lot, I enjoy working with her but this was something that really upset me.. I thought @its not her call to with hold a bed -- just because she wants to?" ---right?