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I'm sorry it's been so rough lately, Bortaz. I'm only a student, but nurses like yourself are an inspiration to me daily for what you do. As a second career/non-traditional student, I've been around the block a few times -- but never in the capacity as someone as yourself and your unit. I pray that things start to turn around for you and your co-workers soon!
I've always held nurses like you in special regard and will hold you all in my thoughts and prayers.
Working as a rural L&D nurse, I was always so grateful to see the NICU nurses arrive via airplane and take over care of those tremendously fragile babies that needed more care than we could give.
A big heart-felt thank you for what you all do.
I have certainly been where you are right now. Gather everyone you can for a group hug (if your co-workers are receptive) and/or some prayers. "Debrief" nurses who have worked w/the babies. If it's appropriate, you could have a memorial service. Check w/the hosp chaplain-they are usually receptive. Employee Assistance Programs can help, too.
It can be very traumatic, esp for the younger nurses. Babies, even very, very sick ones, aren't supposed to die. That is planted deep in our hearts.
When we had a run like that, the attendings used to bring in lunch for us just as a little break, acknowledging what we do every day, and that it doesn't always turn out the way it should.
Love to you and all your co-workers. Praying that one of those babies surprise you--in a good way!
It takes a special person to care for those wee ones, throughout their journey in the NICU.
I hope you have support and debriefing, --- whatever you (ALL of you) need to help you get through this.
"We" are strong, yes, but we are human and can't help getting attached.
We grieve, we cry.
Gentle hugs, and thank you for all you do.
Bortaz, MSN, RN
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We've lost 2 precious angels recently, including one that I was attached too pretty strongly...and we have a gaggle remaining that are circling the drain. It's been a rough 4-5 days around my unit.
As always, the post-mortem care/bath reminded me of the special nature of what we do. Not just anyone can bathe that precious dead baby. Or unhook that ET Tube and turn off that ventilator. It's an honor to be allowed to do it...to pay that last little bit of respect for that sweet angel.