I can't even believe I am posting this...I was here earlier this afternoon...then while studying for my ocology rotation...I got the dreaded call....she passed suddenly she was age 83.
At least she's with my dad now, who passed in 2003 and was part of a catalyst to my calling...but
As much as I think I can trudge on with the 5 weeks left for this term...I don't know...maybe I'm kidding myself!
I have 3 sociology papers due on Monday and back to back exams the next 2 Fridays...not to mention the toughest semester clinical (b/c of the instructor) for oncology for the next 2 weeks....I have no idea how I'm going to actually pull this off....My mom always said that I was the strongest person she knew for all I've had to endure in my life....abusive ex husband...raising a son on my own for 12 years...then about 1 1/2 after my dad died...I met the most wonderful man...and just "knew" and married him....I'm really happy now...things are moving...but now this....I always thought that she'd see me graduate this June....she was active...she bowled 2 leagues for crying out loud....in fact the local paper just did a story about her b/c she was there for so long...she was so proud...it was so cute.
Dammit...I just wasn't ready....I know she's "home" now....but still....
Anybody been through this during school and made it through...I can't quit...I'd lose the whole time until next spring and I can't afford that time off...I know she'd want me to continue...
I am so very sorry for your loss. Try your best to make it through these last weeks if you can, but if you cannot, contact your school. I'm hoping they'll find a way to get around this and help you out.
Just think how thrilled and proud your parents will be when they see you graduate from nursing school. After all, they have the premium viewing seats. Do it for them and then set some time aside after the semester to grieve.
You might want to check into a program called Grief Share usually available at churches.
Your mom will see you graduate and so will your dad. You will make it through, if only by the support of your instructors, classmates and family. You have worked hard to get to where you are. You don't have to ace nursing school, you just have to pass. Prayers and lots of luck go out to you.:heartbeat
I'm very sorry to read about your loss. I know that many people can buckle down and get lost in their studies, but I'm not one of them. I find I can't concentrate or remember anything. You just do what you need to do. You have to care for yourself right now and if you can make it through, do it. But, if you can't than talk to your instructors about a leave and take the time you need to grieve. It's such personal road, and I'm so sorry for your pain. I wish you peace.
very sorry to hear about this. however, you must not quit! even though physically she's not here, spiritually she is! she'll be so proud of you when you graduate :)
I lost my Mom in the middle of a pre-req - and just a few weeks before I entered the nursing program.
You need to speak with your Professors as soon as possible. They will definately give you some slack on your deadlines... but, they can only do that - if you open up to them.
You mother will become your strength... she will get you through this difficult time... you will do it for the both of you - and you will succeed.
I wish you all the best in the next few months... they will be difficult, but you can do it.
Please dont give up on yourself! It may seem like there is no tomorrow but rest assure that your mommy is watching and she will give you that push you need to continue and to finsih what you started.
Do your best and hold on to your strength. I will pray for you.
I just wanted to let you know my thoughts and prayers are with you. I lost my mom suddenly in 2005- she was 49 and I lost my dad suddenly this past Feb. He was only 51. I was in school in Feb., so I know how difficult it can be. I may not be able to physically see them, but I know they're with me! :icon_hug:
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mybrowneyedgirl, BSN, RN
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I am so very sorry for your loss. Try your best to make it through these last weeks if you can, but if you cannot, contact your school. I'm hoping they'll find a way to get around this and help you out.