I can't even believe I am posting this...I was here earlier this afternoon...then while studying for my ocology rotation...I got the dreaded call....she passed suddenly she was age 83.
At least she's with my dad now, who passed in 2003 and was part of a catalyst to my calling...but
As much as I think I can trudge on with the 5 weeks left for this term...I don't know...maybe I'm kidding myself!
I have 3 sociology papers due on Monday and back to back exams the next 2 Fridays...not to mention the toughest semester clinical (b/c of the instructor) for oncology for the next 2 weeks....I have no idea how I'm going to actually pull this off....My mom always said that I was the strongest person she knew for all I've had to endure in my life....abusive ex husband...raising a son on my own for 12 years...then about 1 1/2 after my dad died...I met the most wonderful man...and just "knew" and married him....I'm really happy now...things are moving...but now this....I always thought that she'd see me graduate this June....she was active...she bowled 2 leagues for crying out loud....in fact the local paper just did a story about her b/c she was there for so long...she was so proud...it was so cute.
Dammit...I just wasn't ready....I know she's "home" now....but still....
Anybody been through this during school and made it through...I can't quit...I'd lose the whole time until next spring and I can't afford that time off...I know she'd want me to continue...
I am so sorry for the lost of your mother. I lost my mom in 2007 and at the time I was a clinical supervisor with 16 people under my authority. That was one of the most hardest times of my life, I buried myself in my work and at night I cried in the shower for my mother so many times but I pushed to make her proud of me in ever way possible. I feel your pain and will keep you in prayer.
missea39, BSN
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I am so sorry for the lost of your mother. I lost my mom in 2007 and at the time I was a clinical supervisor with 16 people under my authority. That was one of the most hardest times of my life, I buried myself in my work and at night I cried in the shower for my mother so many times but I pushed to make her proud of me in ever way possible. I feel your pain and will keep you in prayer.