Tomorrow i go back to work after a well deserved vaca, and I dread it.
During my break I got to interview with my dream hospital, for a dream position
after two years since graduating trying to get an interview at this place I finally landed one.
I prepared for this thing like my life depended on. Bought a new suit, got my hair done
nails done, paper work organized, drilled myself on questions over and over and over.
I was passed over because I didn't have a BSN.
Devestated. Angry. Frustrated. are only a few words to describe how i feel.
Going to work tomorrow knowing that I'm back at square one.
I am so angry with myself for being to lazy to apply to a BSN completion program
I made several attempts to, but never had any motivation to get it together.
Now my motivation comes to late because I lost out on a job that I have dreamed about FOR YEARS.
Wanna hear what's even more infuriating....all i need is 6 classes to get my BSN.
I can't stop kicking myself over my stupidity.
Now it's back to work, feeling the same anxiety and dread. The crying, the depession. Knowing i can't up and quit because I have responsibilities.
how could i have been so stupid?