Hi there,
I started at a large prestigious hospital ICU unit 4 months ago. Previously I have worked at a small community hospital ICU for about a year. I had no issue at my prior job and I made the change because I was young and wanted the "big hospital, high acuity" experience. For the first two months, there had been no concern about me, everyone on the unit was saying how fast I would adopt to this environment. Then an incident occurred where there were questions about my critical thinking ability. I won't go into details due to patient privacy but I have fully taken responsibility for it and there were no harm done to the patient. I met with the educators, debriefed over the incident and discussed what had went wrong.
The orientation since then had been quite rocky since I felt like I was being watched over all the time and i was not too sure if my preceptor had ever really trusted my ability since then. Fast forward to this week, I was called into a meeting with my manager regarding my progress, apparently my preceptor had significant concerns about me and this was documented in a very detailed journal. I was not aware of a lot of concerns she had and i felt like even things that I have said (unrelated to patient care) was documented. I was surprised but maintained myself during the meeting. The manager said they would extend my orientation and if it doesn't work out then she will ask me to resign. My question is that I still work per diem at my old place, and there will be a temp full time position opening, I havent technically been let go yet at this new place. However I felt like thats the direction we are gonna go into. I am wondering if I should call it quit now or give it a try? My coworkers at the old place are aware the orientation aren't working at this new job and they are quite supportive of me returning. My family and friends said I should not quit this new job and this is a prestigious hospital and I wont be able to be re-hired. They told me its practically a career suicide. Any suggestions? I would appreciate any help!
P.S this new job had been a 1.5 hr commute each way plus I get very minimal break at work so I am constantly tired, having trouble sleeping. My old job is a 5 mins commute and my work life balance then was much better.