sheepingarden

I agree with FlyingButterfly, I had the exact same issue as you awhile (See my other thread). I left that job at 7 months and never looked back. Just my two cents, its NOT normal to feel overwhelmed, stressed out and going home to cry everyday, esp if you are experienced already. That's not a normal work environment. I had a positive discussion with my manager when I left that job and realized had i stayed I would be in much more trouble and the target was already on my back the entire time. I went back to my old job with no issues, settled right back in and it's been much better. I suggest if you are still under the radar at this job, start looking elsewhere. As long as you have a solid work history prior to this job, a simple "this is not a good fit" explanation would have been sufficient.

I emailed my manager to set up a meeting for Friday. Now I'm wondering if I should just email her during the week and see if she would be interested and then talk more on Friday?? I don't want to sound desperate tho. I still have 4 more days to work at this new place this week and I'm starting to get incredibly stressed out

I did asked for a different preceptor. My manager seemed receptive at first and then skimmed over my request at the 2nd half of the meeting. Maybe something I said made her change her mind?? I requested a meeting on Thursday with my per diem job. Hopefully I won't be unemployed during Christmas. Lol

Thanks everyone for your comment. but like SleeepyRN said, I cant imagine right now what 4 weeks is going to change anything. The meeting was rough I think my manager appeared supportive but it seems she doesn't have any faith that I can make it. She even said she can give me a neutral reference if it doesn't work out at any point. I am humiliated to go back to work on Monday. and of course during the meeting, the incident was bought up again and referred to multiple times. Even a thermometer malfunction back in september was documented and discussed. I emailed my manager at my old job to set up a meeting, not sure how forgiving she would be to someone who pretty much ran back. I am planning to just be honest and say it wasn't a good fit and i miss the atmosphere and working with the team here.

Thank you jadelpn, and Lev

Thanks dream'n! Yes, I was planning to leave after a year since the commute is so hard. I just don't think 1 month is going to change a lot. Like you said, the impression is already made. The unit do have a lot of leading treatment and research, so it is a prestigious unit. However, the unit culture was quite different for me to adjust to. My prior job was very supportive, typical small community hospital where it felt like a family. The new unit is very big and people talks behind people's back all the time. I could give my extra efforts to make it work, but at this point I am really questioning if its worth it. I know 1 year is the ideal time before u can start looking again, however would 6 months of job experience a red flag for my future career?

Hi there, I started at a large prestigious hospital ICU unit 4 months ago. Previously I have worked at a small community hospital ICU for about a year. I had no issue at my prior job and I made the change because I was young and wanted the "big hospital, high acuity" experience. For the first two months, there had been no concern about me, everyone on the unit was saying how fast I would adopt to this environment. Then an incident occurred where there were questions about my critical thinking ability. I won't go into details due to patient privacy but I have fully taken responsibility for it and there were no harm done to the patient. I met with the educators, debriefed over the incident and discussed what had went wrong. The orientation since then had been quite rocky since I felt like I was being watched over all the time and i was not too sure if my preceptor had ever really trusted my ability since then. Fast forward to this week, I was called into a meeting with my manager regarding my progress, apparently my preceptor had significant concerns about me and this was documented in a very detailed journal. I was not aware of a lot of concerns she had and i felt like even things that I have said (unrelated to patient care) was documented. I was surprised but maintained myself during the meeting. The manager said they would extend my orientation and if it doesn't work out then she will ask me to resign. My question is that I still work per diem at my old place, and there will be a temp full time position opening, I havent technically been let go yet at this new place. However I felt like thats the direction we are gonna go into. I am wondering if I should call it quit now or give it a try? My coworkers at the old place are aware the orientation aren't working at this new job and they are quite supportive of me returning. My family and friends said I should not quit this new job and this is a prestigious hospital and I wont be able to be re-hired. They told me its practically a career suicide. Any suggestions? I would appreciate any help! P.S this new job had been a 1.5 hr commute each way plus I get very minimal break at work so I am constantly tired, having trouble sleeping. My old job is a 5 mins commute and my work life balance then was much better.