I've been reading through several posts on here about nurses caught diverting, i.v. drugs and pills, got arrested and still have a job or find a job. i'm not trying to judge anyone at all, for who am I to judge?? I self reported because of (all misdemeanors) dui's and one pot possession (half a joint) and a disorderly (called police to have bf removed from house and they arrested both of us.) I was a weekend warrior drinker. I don't consider myself an alcoholic, I have a drinking problem. I would go weeks without drinking, no cravings. I was the type that self medicated bouts of depression and boredom with alcohol. i smoked pot occasionally. never have i been addicted to pills, or other illegal substances..... or i.v. drugs.
What amazes me is, the posts i was reading, these nurses who are caught stealing from their employers and patients, whether it's pills or iv drugs, are working!!!! i am in the IPN program for Florida. this is my 9th month on a 5 yr contract. most of the nurses in my weekly support group were diverters and they are all working.... i have applied to so many hospitals its crazy. i am not saying i'm better than anyone but..... i never went to work intoxicated, or had a dirty pee test, i never stole from my employer or patients. i self reported. WHY CAN'T I WORK TOO???? i know these hospitals have hired these diverting nurses. why can't i be hired too??? i feel like i'm treated unfairly..... how is my situation worse? if i were a manager, i would rather hire someone who did not steal from their employer or patients......or who was addicted to pills and iv drugs. please don't get angry at me, i'm not trying to say i'm better, it's just seems unfair somehow......
i am so frustrated..... i feel potential employers judge me and i am no better than a murderer or child molester....... sorry for the rant... just needed to vent
Amen, girl!! thanks so much. I will sending good thoughts back at you! I just got a job interview for Monday at a LTC. the DON was so gracious and nice on the phone and I told her everything. I think this might be the one! yay!!!
Virgo- i keep reading of your struggles- & i can just imagine your frustration, your anger....& it's so unfortunate that there is no easy answer for your situation. sometimes our profession & it's "environment" can be very judgemental & unforgiving!! hang in there- never let it get you down!! this will all turn out as it should (whatever that may be!!).
thanks umberlee, blessedrn and TXRN2! It is sooo frustrating as you all well know. thank God for this forum so that we may connect with others that can feel our pain. so thankful to be able to vent and get encouragement from you guys. it's helps more than you know or you do know! lol!!! I will keep fighting the good fight and battle on! I am very grateful and blessed with the good things in my life. I have to stay focused on that. sometimes, the old devil just whispers in my ear and I listen. he is good at convincing me that I am worthless sometimes. thanks again y'all for reminding me that I am not worthless, but just human! love you all!
thank you so much twoyearnurse!!! I am so excited too. when I spoke to the DON on the phone to schedule the interview, I told her about my IPN status. she was so understanding and seemed to not have a problem with my dui's and pot possession arrests.... but, we'll see how it goes! i'll let you all know how it turns out! prayers much appreciated and gratefully accepted!!
I really hope this works out for you! You need to come to terms and just let it all go, stop comparing your sins to others as well. Life is so much better when you let go of the past and accept who you are. Even before my addiction took hold of me I always compared myself to everyone else...better clothes, better cars, bigger houses, etc...Post addiction I have learned to love and accept myself and to just be happy for those who have better. I have never been happier than I am now, it took me losing everything to gain everything. I hope you find peace in your future :) and an income!
Hey sweet pea (aka Virgojd), just picture this: driving down a snowy highway in the middle of a snow storm, no cars, 65mph, temp at 5 degrees, three women in the truck, on the way to see my parents a conversation poped up about you. I told my sister and her wife that I had a friend from the nursing boards going for an interview tomorrow. My sisters wife said "well, she's going to get the job anyways, but just in case let's all think good things for her". Remember that you are always loved and thought of in the most positive ways, even from the cold north of Alaska!
Junebug59, RN
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Amen, girl!! thanks so much. I will sending good thoughts back at you! I just got a job interview for Monday at a LTC. the DON was so gracious and nice on the phone and I told her everything. I think this might be the one! yay!!!