we don’t have a monitoring program in my state (ever) and are monitored directly through our BON. Often the disciplinary programs afford the nurse going through them a clear license at the end with no visible record of having been involved to the public.
Because we do not have one of those Golden programs everything is visible for all of time on my nursing license (including the board order).
Please don’t get discouraged. This was a hard fact for me to come to grips with, but after four years of monitoring it is just that, a fact. And it doesn’t matter. I have a nursing job and many...many...many nurses who came before me and are going through it now are employed as nurses. Involvement has not effected my career. The people I know who have permanent marks are employed in the following areas: psychiatric, med/surg, even as an investigator into facility licensing.
The biggest challenge for me was accepting it as quickly as possible (fortunately this happened quickly).
Stick with recovery and you will recover. Your peace of mind, happiness, and yes, career.