HunnieBadger

I thought you said it was chronic pain from a congenital bone disorder and RA... Personally I dont know and I dont care what reasons you take it for. Use caution with the BON, they do not exsist for us but for those we serve. And remember your cancer is no different than our addiction, a progressive and deadly disease if not treated.

Its similar here in NC, we have paper forms and can check in from 5a-3p M-F. They have to have a credit or debit card number on file and if your bill isn't paid they suspend your account and that could lead to being kicked out of the program. Really it isn't too bad once you have it all covered down on. :***:

And you never knew there were so many...there are far more than you realize lady bug. We don't speak of it openly because it does not define who we are. It's guaranteed that we are not proud of our addictions. I didnt wake up one morning and just decided that I was going to throw my career away over a stupid narcotic and yes btw I Had a legit Rx just like you! But as you have proven in your ignorant comments many try to define us exactly as that less than moral. Do yourself a favor and educate yourself and then another nurse and ask them to continue paying it forward...maybe just maybe things will change and the ignorance of addiction can fall away.

I just have to chime in here...as much as I didnt want to. Just becuase one diverts meds does NOT mean that a patient goes without their medications. Many CAN and WILL divert, while medicating their patients with their intended meds...ever heard of a PRN order? As for your concerns with taking your Rx while on duty, maybe you should contact the NCBON and ask them, let them know that you've been taking them for 13 years and see what they say. My bet is that you will end up with the need for an addictionologist consult. Youre insulted by the honesty that has been offered here in this recovery forum, well thats what we do. Giving honest feed back to those who inquire, and treat us as if we are sub-human You must not have spent too much time in your psych/addiction position since you seem to lack knowledge of it being a mental illness and not one of moral defect. And how exactly do narcs even work for you after 13 years of chronic use, IMO you looked here because something in your inner being is letting you know you have a problem...NEVER SAY NEVER

I guess it's easier to have chronic pain and not have a hx of addiction. Apparently this PA feels because I have a hx of addiction I cant possibly suffer from real pain! She's an ignorant provider and I firmly believe that all health care workers should have to complete CEUs on pain and addictions. Perhaps this would give a better understanding of these diseases and more empathy towards those who suffer. I didn't ask for this diagnosis just as much as your son didn't ask for his cancer. Im sorry for your loss and I understand your frustration all too well.

Create a positive affirmations list for yourself, I did this in my first few months of recovery. I kept it on my iphone list and read it a few times daily. This helped me accept me, as a good person! I still have my list and read it from time to time, today being one of those times! I have also delved into things like baking and organizing things I neglected while in active addiction. Even though I am not the best at it, I did good by my own standards! Create your own hobbies, figure out what YOU enjoy. In time you will find something and grad school is something to be proud of! HB

Thanks for the kind words and advice! My husband will attend the next appt with me, he's much more forward than I am and was upset with her behavior towards me as well. I wont be seeing her again and will request a physician only for future visits. Hope this epidural injection works she told me it wouldn't hurt and all the nurse offered was a brochure. I hope the physician who performs this is well versed lol

So i had an appt. today with a spinal clinic at the request of my FNP due to all the pain and changes in my most recent MRI... I was seen by a PA who was less than educated about addiction and had no tact whatsoever. She was very uncaring about my issues, told me that "i don't feel comfortable giving someone like you in your situation narcotics" and advised a epidural and to come see her once that was complete. Mind you I did not go into this appt. with the thought of obtaining narcotics, nor did I ask for them either. I was in tears as I left and felt like I was less than human. I told the nurse I didn't want to see the PA again and she just didn't understand why. Its not that I didn't want the epidural or was upset because I wasn't given narcs, it was what the PA had said to me... "Someone like me, in my situation"... I think I am well aware of my situation, but what the heck did she mean "someone like me" like I'm something other than human and don't deserve the same treatment as others...

It wasnt her being a nurse that caused her to be so bitter, it's who she is in real life. She needs some help and also needs to learn to keep her comments to herself if she cant be of support in a support group. You don't need anyone to validate you, you are the only person who does that. Be proud for the length of time you have been sober whether its 1 month or 10 years! It an accomplishment no matter the length. Things will get better and you will find a support group, just keep your head up and continue in the right direction. And next time you see her, tell her you thought her kind were extinct

In NC you are advised that it can be 2-3 times per month. With that being said it's does state that it can be more OR less. There are no maximum number of testing days. It's said to be random and without pattern. In my experiences I have been tested 1-2 times per month and the longest in between was nearly 7 weeks (I was in panic mode by 5th week!). Typically I pay $152 a month and have had one MRO review which added extra $$$. Before I went back to work as a RN I made sure I had enough money to cover testing above all else. Meaning reducing on ALL expenditures, forbearances on my student loans, no more cable or Netflix. No fast food, no snacks...you get the idea here...lack of all luxuries. It took four months to get a job after reinstatement, and even now I am cautious on how I'm spending, because that rope is still around my neck. Not that I'm being dishonest or using, but I am at their mercy until told otherwise. Prayers for you, the program is very doable you've just got to be determined and without excuses! HB

Prayers for you!

Maybe not five...but I've counted two so far...IN SEPARATE POSTINGS...

Have you seen your PCP? Urgent Care? They can give you a legit Rx and then you'll be safe!

Report to your monitor what you took, it can test false positive for amphetamines!

February 2, 2013 Been under contract since March 2013 Edging closer to one year in my contract with 2 years left to go! Working in Dialysis, quite a change from my ER/Critical Care days. Hoping some day to be a FNP