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I'm just getting close to re-testing and am trying to lessen my angst, so I'm staying out for now.
Talk to you in a few weeks.
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Thanks again. DH is coming with me this time - he's good at talking me down from the ledge.
You want to know a terrible thing? And I'm pretty embarrassed about this, and a little ashamed. I feel jealous when other people post that they passed and I know I have a butt load of congratulations to offer when I can face it.
Thanks for being there, all, and I hope for understanding that I'm a selfish witch right now.
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You want to know a terrible thing? And I'm pretty embarrassed about this, and a little ashamed. I feel jealous when other people post that they passed and I know I have a butt load of congratulations to offer when I can face it.Thanks for being there, all, and I hope for understanding that I'm a selfish witch right now.
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You know what, Sue? I think that's natural! And a confession from me: I felt guilty posting that I had passed when I knew that you hadn't, because I know you're a great nurse and so freakin' smart, and I feel like you deserve this as much as I do, if not MORE than I do!
You are not being selfish. Being in CPNE-mode is being in survival mode, self-preservation mode.
*hugs*
Thanks so much, everyone.
Lunah, I was SO glad you passed! This is such a stinky way to feel, because it isn't really jealousy, I guess it's more a feeling of failure (which I did) and inadequacy, and when others pass it reinforces that they could and I couldn't, y'know?
Goodness knows you deserved it, and I am really happy for everyone who passes - but it's mixed in with feeling like a big ol' idiot.
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Thanks so much, everyone.Lunah, I was SO glad you passed! This is such a stinky way to feel, because it isn't really jealousy, I guess it's more a feeling of failure (which I did) and inadequacy, and when others pass it reinforces that they could and I couldn't, y'know?
Goodness knows you deserved it, and I am really happy for everyone who passes - but it's mixed in with feeling like a big ol' idiot.
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Girl, you are so not an idiot. Banish that stinkin' thinkin'- it'll only drag you down.
changeofpaceRN
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Good luck! You will nail this!