Stressed!

  1. My mom passed away yesterday.

    My Mom had been diagnosed with CHF, only 25% of her heart was
    functioning. Mom had been admitted to a nursing home, the skilled unit. I went to see her last Saturday, and we had a great visit, she was looking better and actually ate some of her lunch.

    Monday, I started a new job as a nightshift charge nurse for a LTC/skilled facility. I quit the 12 hour night shift job, due to 12 hour shifts just wearing me out. I quess my 54 year old body just couldn't handle it. My new job is 8 hour night shifts, with every Fri and Sat off. I'm going through orientation right now, two days on days, two on evenings, then two on night shift. Great pay, quick start benefits, fantastic staff. I have a feeling I will love this job!

    Well, I went to my second orientation day, yesterday, eager to work with the west wing nurse. Having a great morning, when I got a page. My husband was on the phone, he told me my Mom was back in the hospital, with swallow breathing. The doctor didn't think she would make it through the day. Work was so understanding, they told me that my job would still be here when I was ready to come back. To take care of myself and my family.

    When my husband arrived at work to pick me up, he gave me the bad news that Mom had just passed away. We spent the day with family making the arrangements and comforting each other. Saturday our family and close friends are having a "Celebration of Mom's Life".

    I'm not at work today, alittle stressed, because we really need my paycheck. I am thinking about going back to work tomorrow and Friday, since the service is on Saturday. Not sure if I'll make through work without crying, though. I certainly don't want to cry in front of co-workers. That would be so unprofessional!

    To add to the big changes my son will be moving into student housing next week, now I'll join the ranks of empty nester. He is my youngest, my baby. I feel sad, angry, it's an odd feeling hard to explain right now and wondering what other changes are to come.

    Sorry this became so long!
    Last edit by HannasMom on Sep 20, '06
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  3. by   Tweety
    (((((((HannasMom)))))))


    My sincere condolences. Please take care of yourself. It's not unprofessional to be human.
  4. by   luvmy2angels
    So sorry to hear the news of your mother. Its good that you have such a wonderful and supportive family as well as a very understanding employer. Im sure your co workers will understand if you become teary eyed while working. i lost my grandfather in June and there is a resident were I work that reminds me so much of him, there have been plenty of times when i leave his room and get very sad and teary. Just shows that you are human and that you have feelings!! I will keep you and your whole family in thoughts and prayers.
  5. by   HannasMom
    Thanks Tweety.
  6. by   TheCommuter
    Here's a prayer to feed your soul right now. I am so sorry about your profound loss.

    The Lord is my light and my salvation,
    whom should I fear?
    The Lord is my life's refuge;
    of whom should I be afraid?

    One thing I ask of the Lord;
    this I seek:
    To dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life.
    That I may gaze on the loveliness of the Lord
    and contemplate his temple.

    Hear, O Lord, the sound of my call;
    have pity on me, and answer me.
    Of you my heart speaks;
    you my glance seeks;
    your presence, O Lord, I seek. Psalm 27
  7. by   leslie :-D
    (((hannasmom)))

    please accept my heartfelt condolences on the loss of your mother.
    is is always so profoundly affective when it comes to our moms.
    and yes, your son moving out- another one of life's bittersweet rites of passage.
    wishing you peace, with a loving road to recovery.

    leslie
  8. by   Princess74
    I am so very sorry to hear that you lost your mom. Don't worry about crying at work, it's natural and shows what a caring person you are.
  9. by   weetziebat
    HannasMom, I am so very sorry to hear of your mom's death. I'm glad you have supportive family, as losing your mom is never easy. I wouldn't worry about crying at work. That is only human and not something to be ashamed of at all. Having your son move out is another hard part of life. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that you'll have the strength needed to deal with this. And lots of hugs, of course. :icon_hug: :kiss :icon_hug:
  10. by   traumaRUs
    I am so sorry for your loss. I know it hurts even as an adult to lose a parent.
  11. by   dekatn
    So sorry for the loss of your mother.
  12. by   muffie
    condolences.hope you can get through this difficult time in your life.
  13. by   lovingtheunloved
    Quote from HannasMom
    My mom passed away yesterday.

    My Mom had been diagnosed with CHF, only 25% of her heart was
    functioning. Mom had been admitted to a nursing home, the skilled unit. I went to see her last Saturday, and we had a great visit, she was looking better and actually ate some of her lunch.

    Monday, I started a new job as a nightshift charge nurse for a LTC/skilled facility. I quit the 12 hour night shift job, due to 12 hour shifts just wearing me out. I quess my 54 year old body just couldn't handle it. My new job is 8 hour night shifts, with every Fri and Sat off. I'm going through orientation right now, two days on days, two on evenings, then two on night shift. Great pay, quick start benefits, fantastic staff. I have a feeling I will love this job!

    Well, I went to my second orientation day, yesterday, eager to work with the west wing nurse. Having a great morning, when I got a page. My husband was on the phone, he told me my Mom was back in the hospital, with swallow breathing. The doctor didn't think she would make it through the day. Work was so understanding, they told me that my job would still be here when I was ready to come back. To take care of myself and my family.

    When my husband arrived at work to pick me up, he gave me the bad news that Mom had just passed away. We spent the day with family making the arrangements and comforting each other. Saturday our family and close friends are having a "Celebration of Mom's Life".

    I'm not at work today, alittle stressed, because we really need my paycheck. I am thinking about going back to work tomorrow and Friday, since the service is on Saturday. Not sure if I'll make through work without crying, though. I certainly don't want to cry in front of co-workers. That would be so unprofessional!

    To add to the big changes my son will be moving into student housing next week, now I'll join the ranks of empty nester. He is my youngest, my baby. I feel sad, angry, it's an odd feeling hard to explain right now and wondering what other changes are to come.

    Sorry this became so long!
    You'll be in my prayers.
  14. by   HARRN2b
    I am praying that God will give you the strength to see you through this. You sound like you had a wonderful mother and I am sure you had an awesome relationship. Your mother will always be close by. Those memories will live in your heart forever.

    Many hugs,

    Holly

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