fired...

[iluvnoodles]

Well---as you can tell from the title, I lost my job. Today was suppose to be my last day of my ext. orientation. It was busy busy busy. A lot of things going on, but i got pulled away from the mother plug because I did not keep up my bargain of charting in a timely manner. Throughout the orientation, I felt I did not keep up my part of the bargain. Why? Even I do not know it. honest....I do my best each shift, get meds on time, keep patient safe, etc. I was on the verge of handing in my badge when I almost gave the wrong med. To me, on the last day of orientation, is unacceptable. *sigh* I don't have a job, but I still have an active license. It could be worse, say, my license got revoked. *knock on wood*. well...yesterday when I was trying to overcome my typical headache that occurs prior to each shift, I just felt so worn down....defeated. with that feeling, I just told myself, the unit has been very graceful to me in giving me additional weeks of orientation. they've done there part, and unfortunately i could not do my part. Whatever the outcome of today was, it was meant to be and I have to accept it. I could use some advice and some comfort. I started my shift with the feeling that it was not meant to last, but despite that gut feeling, I wanted to do my best for me and for my patients. It could have been my lack of confidence, but that lack of confidence just keeps crawling back. but strangely enough, i feel somewhat at peace. i felt like i was fighting a losing battle but i didnt want to give up, because no matter what, I know somehow, someway, I would not fail. i know it sounds small, but things could have been a lot worse. if i didnt catch the antibx bag prior to starting the pump, i would not have forgivin myself b/c if something could have happened to that patient...

[L&Dnurse2Be]

First of all (((hugs))). Second of all...my philosophy is there is a reason for everything. That facility was just not a good fit for you. You will find the right place to work, it just might take time. Do not beat yourself up. Have confidence in yourself. You have your nursing license and I know you worked very hard to get it. From your post it sounds like you leaving the facility was a mutual thing. Keep your head up and start sending out resumes. Try and find a job that maybe is not so demanding...I know nursing and not demanding is an oximoron. :) Maybe a Dr.'s office? Good luck to you...I know things will work out!

[pennyaline]

I'm so sorry. You're a new grad, and getting started right out of nursing school is hard. It does sound as though your former employer did go out of their way for you as much as they could. I've read your posts here and though you are still very unsure of yourself, you want to do well and you ask the right questions.

Don't let this get to you. You didn't screw up, you're just a new grad and you don't have a rhythm down. Stop second guessing yourself and keep going. It won't be easy to find another job right now, but get out there and try.

[SuesquatchRN, BSN, RN]

Hugs to you.

[MauraRN]

Hugs and sympathy to you. Take a deep breath and think about where might be a good fit for you. You already know what does not work for you. Good luck!!! Don't give up.

[oramar]

Oh I feel bad, I can't tell you what the future holds for you. But I can say that I have met many people who thought a day like this was their darkest and later on they went on to say it was the best thing that ever happened to them. Best of luck to you.

[cherrybreeze, ADN, RN]

:hug:

[skittlebear]

>>>> I'm sorry this happened to you. I am sure you will find another job and will succeed. Don't beat yourself up! Maybe this particular unit just wasn't right for you.

[Hushdawg]

You have the best attitude that I have seen in a person who just got fired. You are looking at things realistically and proactively. This is key to becoming successful! I am so proud of you for NOT blaming everyone else for your shortcomings.

You owned your mistakes, you admitted your faults.

Next: Learn from it.

Make yourself better, stronger, more accurate.

You have the potential that many people today lack because you are not so full of yourself that you cannot admit your faults.

I think that you can be more successful than someone who has never been fired because now that you have tasted it you don't want it anymore and you're going to do whatever it takes to ensure that your next job is met with higher performance standards. Right?

Kudos to you.. I am seriously proud of you for your reaction and assessment of yourself. Major props and major hugs. You're a winner in my book.

[1blue&1browneye]

I went through a similar situation and am out looking for a "better fit". PM me anytime, we can chat/vent anytime. Hang in there, it has to get better for us!

[ItsTheDude]

it happens, learn and move on.

many newbie nurses don't stick around for 1 year at their 1st job, it's just too much for them.

[NewTexasRN]

Hugs and kisses for you. You didn't throw in the towel even though you knew you were struggling. Keep your head up. You are a fighter. Don't give up now.