Am sadly just putting this out there - Overwhelming Covid-19 Death Statistics

amoLucia · Apr 21, 2020

Little did I expect this post to be a source of emotional venting - kinda like 'chicken soup for our communal souls'. We all have out own unique responses to this C19 stressor.

I find myself 'counting' statistic numbers with each snippet of TV news reporting or newspaper articles. I yell at the TV when I see something disturbing, esp when some dumb person 'violates' mandated precautions or spouts off verbal nonsense.

I'm retired, housebound and single. So the 'singlenesss' of home quarantine isn't as debilitating for me. But for others, it must be driving them stir-crazy!

But I want to help somehow. This is what I'm feeling. I've decided to send some 'Thank You' and 'Just Thinking of You' type cards for some folk in my circles. A little smile.

And I see my JOB my responsibility as staying as safe as I can be so not to get sick and then have to rely on others more than I already do now.

I put this last bit out here quite sadly and I'm almost ASHAMED to say it. I'm kind of glad my Dad is no longer around to have to be living thru all this. He could not have tolerated any of this in NO way, shape or form.

Now that's sad.

Editorial Team / Admin · Apr 21, 2020

8 minutes ago, amoLucia said:
Little did I expect this post to be a source of emotional venting - kinda like 'chicken soup for our communal souls'. We all have out own unique responses to this C19 stressor.
I put this last bit out here quite sadly and I'm almost ASHAMED to say it. I'm kind of glad my Dad is no longer around to have to be living thru all this. He could not have tolerated any of this in NO way, shape or form.
Now that's sad.

I'm nodding in agreement with you, @amoLucia

Kitiger, RN · Apr 21, 2020

12 minutes ago, amoLucia said:
I yell at the TV when I see something disturbing, esp when some dumb person 'violates' mandated precautions or spouts off verbal nonsense.

I do, too. I scold that person (on the TV)! They just refuse to consider that social distancing saves lives!

My husband just shakes his head.

Yeah, I know they can't hear me, but I just gotta say it!

kbrn2002, ADN, RN · Apr 21, 2020

17 minutes ago, amoLucia said:
I put this last bit out here quite sadly and I'm almost ASHAMED to say it. I'm kind of glad my Dad is no longer around to have to be living thru all this. He could not have tolerated any of this in NO way, shape or form.
Now that's sad.

I'm sorry but that made me laugh a little so thank you for that. I pictured my Dad staging some sort of protest at the local golf course, maybe saying the heck with your rules and going out on the course anyway. Or hanging out in the parking lot of his favorite 19th hole shaking his head in disbelief and despair. He would've been at the very least driving my Mom absolutely bonkers at home all the time! Sadly I lost my Mom two years after my Dad, she was a retired nurse and I can't imagine what she would've thought about all this.

amoLucia · Apr 21, 2020

Every post here is sooooooo resonating and personally applicable to most (all) of us.

Kitiger, RN · Apr 21, 2020

My Mom lived through the polio epidemic. She told me about the fear of crowds, especially in the fall, of being afraid to go to the beach, of school being delayed until after the first frost. Then - as an adult - she contracted polio, and was almost paralyzed for a time.

I will never forget walking to the local school as a family to get the polio vaccine in the sugar cube! It was a triumph for my Mom to know that her children would be protected.

I wonder if that is how we will feel when we finally get a vaccine for COVID 19.

I wonder how many more will have to die first.

Yeah, I go up and down.

amoLucia · Apr 21, 2020

kbrn - my Dad would be at his VFW post (and God forbid if it were closed as non-essential!).

Even more sadly, he'd have prob been an EARLY C19 victim. ?

I don't know if anyone else has noticed my 'quirk' but I cite "C19". To me, it's softer sounding than COVID. Maybe an unconscious avoidance tactic. Bit it doesn't seem to go away.

guest1146168 · Apr 21, 2020

3 hours ago, Hoosier_RN said:
I just find myself so short tempered with my hubby. He's essential in another field, but until yesterday with the possible threat of job loss if he didn't comply, started wearing a mask. He just acts like this is all a big "nothing burger". When he comments on conspiracy theories, it makes my head spin. And I feel guilty because beyond going to work daily, there's not much I can do to help

Most people don't believe something can happen to them until it does. Americans seem particularly good at this in fact. I don't pretend to be any smarter than they are; I just happen to work in a quantitative specialty that makes it a lot more real. I too have struggled with getting my husband, who has a public facing job, to be as careful as he needs to be as he very much fits the bill of "it can't happen to me until it has". It is exhausting at times. Above all , protect yourself.

Godspeed.

Waiting for Retirement · Apr 21, 2020

As of this morning (7am) there have been 14,347 deaths in my home state according to the most recent news release.

I am having a hard time wrapping my brain around that number. That is the population of an entire TOWN. GONE.

Before this is over, the number of dead in New York State alone will be enough to fill a smaller-sized sports stadium. Nope, can't wrap my head around that.

Kitiger, RN · Apr 21, 2020

20 minutes ago, Waiting for Retirement said:
As of this morning (7am) there have been 14,347 deaths in my home state according to the most recent news release.
I am having a hard time wrapping my brain around that number. That is the population of an entire TOWN. GONE.
Before this is over, the number of dead in New York State alone will be enough to fill a smaller-sized sports stadium. Nope, can't wrap my head around that.

Exactly. The numbers are more than I can grasp.

With the flu, we have a vaccine. With C19, I feel so helpless.

Columnist · Apr 21, 2020

This whole thing is so unreal. Like many others have said....a nightmare that just keeps on going....

The death stats are just so unbelievable...

The fear of not knowing if I am unknowingly exposing myself when I make a quick trip to the store. I am wearing a mask(to protect others) but so many others are totally oblivious, or just plain stupid for not wearing their mask to protect me.

The great fear for my daughter and her husband living just outside of D.C., and my son, his wife and my 2 small grandchildren who live in the hottest spot of all - smack dab in NYC just 3 short blocks from the Javid Center. They have not stepped out of their condo in 5 weeks!

And then there is my sister in Orlando who was just diagnosed with metastatic cancer just before the Covid outbreak. I fear for her exposure as she goes back and forth to her chemo treatments.

I find myself glued to the 24-hour news channels and find myself arguing with the stupidity of some of the newscasters and people in power. I really only trust the information provided by Drs. Fauci and Birx.

This week I am shocked by the governors that think they can just reopen their states and risk the lives of thousands.

I could go on and on...and I know the rest of you could too.

When will this nightmare end......

Kitiger, RN · Apr 21, 2020

1 minute ago, tnbutterfly - Mary said:
This whole thing is so unreal. Like many others have said....a nightmare that just keeps on going....
The death stats are just so unbelievable...
The fear of not knowing if I am unknowingly exposing myself when I make a quick trip to the store. I am wearing a mask(to protect others) but so many others are totally oblivious, or just plain stupid for not wearing their mask to protect me.
The great fear for my daughter and her husband just outside of D.C. and my son, his wife and my 2 small grandchildren who live in the hottest spot of all - smack dab in NYC just 3 short blocks from the Javid Center. They have not stepped out of their condo in 5 weeks!

You have a wise son.