Something is really bothering me and I don't know if I'm meant to be a nurse anymore. Last night my husband choked on a chicken bone. Instead of getting into help him mode like I do with my patients. I panicked hard core and didn't know what to do. I just grabbed my phone to call 911. He was coughing up blood and turning red in the face. I just have this image of him looking at me and needing help and I'm just standing there frozen. He was able to cough it up and I did nothing but panic. I feel so incredibly guilty about it and I'm seriously questioning my ability to become a nurse. I've worked in healthcare for almost two years and I've seen patients crash, pass away, etc. But when it comes to my husband I turn into this crybaby and choke up. Is this normal for other people in healthcare? Does this mean I shouldn't be a nurse?