I am a nursing student in my second semester. I found out I got into the program the day before I went into labor with my second baby. After I had her I had a uterine inversion, got rushed to the OR, had 4 blood transfusions, and an out of body experience. Then I started school 5 weeks later.
Now the deal is that I started this nursing journey with the intent to be in l&d and maybe even go on to be a midwife. I love nursing. And I absolutely love labor and delivery. I had by ob rotation and loved it. My nurse let me help coach and I knew interventions.
I just worry that I put all my strength in getting there and find out that I mentally just can't handle it. I have ptsd and go to therapy for it, but I haven't needed to see him since shortly after thanksgiving. So I am doing better and I have been able to control it with out meds.
I don't know what I'm really looking for with this post....maybe that someone else had been the patient in something scary and able to still be involved as a nurse. People always tell me that that experience will make me a great nurse one day, but what if it makes it so I can't be a nurse at all??