Running off Grief - page 2
by Calabria | 7,824 Views | 27 Comments
Itís with sad irony that I power up the treadmill in the gym exactly 24 hours after I started chest compressions on you. You were my first patient loss. Being new to the NICU (though not new to nursing), I know you wonít be my... Read More
- 1Jan 13, '13 by multi10I was on a singles cruise a month ago. We were on a catamaran and chilling. The man that liked me asked, "What do you do"? Me: "I'm a nurse."
He said, "Tell me about the most powerful memory you have as a nurse." Alright, so, we're on the water getting ready to jump off the boat. Me: "I was a nursing supervisor and went to the ED after a 6-year-old.... (At this point, I had to wave my hand and stop talking)
Him: So what happened?
Me: crying. I can't talk about it
Him: okay. Let's go swimming.
Me: Okay (I didn't tell this to anyone). Boy brought in via ambulance after he had run across the street and was hit by a car. Everyone tried all they could but the boy died. It was excruciating
The hardest part is to not cry on the job.
How did I deal with it at the time? I drove home. Had massive sex with my husband. Cleaned the kitty litter. Walked my dogs in the park. And cherished the fact that I'm alive.
- 0Jan 13, '13 by djh123Although I'm a new (middle-aged) RN, I can certainly empathize. Exercise is a good way to deal with many things, or (at the very least) a way to help take your mind off of things, and as we all know, it's good for us in many different ways.
I had a bladder tumor at age 40, and although I'd been exercising off and on for years before that, and was in half-decent shape, my inclination was to ride my mountain bike like a banshee every Sat. or Sun. I felt like the more I exercised, the more I'd make my body stronger and beat the ******* cancer.
- 0Jan 13, '13 by violetgirlThank you.
I have ran out of tissue's... Racoon eye's for the evening.
I am not a nurse yet, but enjoy reading all the stories from this site, as it will help better prepare me as a nurse someday.Last edit by violetgirl on Jan 13, '13 : Reason: Can't see through the tears.
- 2Jan 14, '13 by CalabriaI'm humbled by the response that this received. Thank you all so much . I'm still grieving, but it's become much easier to cope since this happened.
Quote from AnonRNCIt was... I felt like it was an extension of the exercising, almost a continuation of getting the feelings out of me. What was new to me was sharing it with the world (literally!). I've used journals in the past, but I don't think that I've shared anything so introspective before with such a large group.Well-written narrative - I hope writing it was also therapeutic for you. Losing a patient is so, so hard.