Our unit needs your good vibes...

  1. We've lost 2 precious angels recently, including one that I was attached too pretty strongly...and we have a gaggle remaining that are circling the drain. It's been a rough 4-5 days around my unit.

    As always, the post-mortem care/bath reminded me of the special nature of what we do. Not just anyone can bathe that precious dead baby. Or unhook that ET Tube and turn off that ventilator. It's an honor to be allowed to do it...to pay that last little bit of respect for that sweet angel.
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    About Bortaz, RN, ADN

    Joined: Jun '08; Posts: 2,875; Likes: 5,260
    NICU; from US
    Specialty: 6 year(s) of experience in NICU; Coordinator of Clin Documentation


  3. by   traumaRUs
    Oh Bortaz. Am so sorry....you are one very special nurse.
  4. by   Teacup Pom
    Oh wow! You sound like a wonderful person who is willing to help all you can. Keep it up.
  5. by   JustBeachyNurse
    I'm so sorry.

    The parents are fortunate to have such a strong, skilled, caring nurse caring for their precious infants through their short lives.

    May you have the strength and knowledge to go forth in these difficult days.
  6. by   NicuGal
    I'm sorry buddy!! We just went thru a similar time....just sucks Big Hugs!
  7. by   TheCommuter
    I'm so sorry about the recent losses, Bortaz. I will definitely keep my fingers crossed for you, the neonates and their families with hopes for the very best possible outcome in each situation.
  8. by   sapphire18
    I'm sorry, Bortaz, and my thoughts are with you and your unit. It is a very special privilege we have, to take care of people at this time in (and after) their lives.
  9. by   jwheeler7791
    I'm sorry it's been so rough lately, Bortaz. I'm only a student, but nurses like yourself are an inspiration to me daily for what you do. As a second career/non-traditional student, I've been around the block a few times -- but never in the capacity as someone as yourself and your unit. I pray that things start to turn around for you and your co-workers soon!
  10. by   LadyFree28
    Sending them for you, your team, and your lovely angels....~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<<<<<
  11. by   Spidey's mom
    I've always held nurses like you in special regard and will hold you all in my thoughts and prayers.

    Working as a rural L&D nurse, I was always so grateful to see the NICU nurses arrive via airplane and take over care of those tremendously fragile babies that needed more care than we could give.

    A big heart-felt thank you for what you all do.
  12. by   prmenrs
    I have certainly been where you are right now. Gather everyone you can for a group hug (if your co-workers are receptive) and/or some prayers. "Debrief" nurses who have worked w/the babies. If it's appropriate, you could have a memorial service. Check w/the hosp chaplain-they are usually receptive. Employee Assistance Programs can help, too.

    It can be very traumatic, esp for the younger nurses. Babies, even very, very sick ones, aren't supposed to die. That is planted deep in our hearts.

    When we had a run like that, the attendings used to bring in lunch for us just as a little break, acknowledging what we do every day, and that it doesn't always turn out the way it should.

    Love to you and all your co-workers. Praying that one of those babies surprise you--in a good way!
  13. by   dianah
    It takes a special person to care for those wee ones, throughout their journey in the NICU.
    I hope you have support and debriefing, --- whatever you (ALL of you) need to help you get through this.
    "We" are strong, yes, but we are human and can't help getting attached.
    We grieve, we cry.
    Gentle hugs, and thank you for all you do.
  14. by   alyn918
    Bortaz: I am new to this blog and don't know you, but i have been a nurse for several years and I think that the descriptive words you use in reference to the neonatal intensive care patients are appaling. While in a break room, or at home, you may say something referring to a child's condition, "circling the drain" is something that would be unforgivable if I were the mom or dad of one of your patients. I totally get the need to de-stress, not take too seriously some patients to avoid burnout, etc. I think you need to remember that you are a college educated professional. A "gaggle" "circling the drain" would be cause for dismissal if I was your director, no matter where you said it or who you said it too. You need to re-think why you do what you do. Frankly, it sounds like a 'show off' comment due to the nature of your patients. Human beings with tiny organs, and tiny fingers are babies struggling to live, not a "gaggle" of anything. Shame on you.