I'll tell you an unrelated story, then tie it in.
When I was in nursing school
, I took care of this health care worker that had a baby. Now this healthcare worker worked with disabled children.
Beautiful baby, but a down's baby. She took 1 look and said, "Take it away, put it up for adoption - I never want to see her again."
I had to go through the next clinical day dealing w/ the weeping and crying and mourning of the family of this lady that were told (by her) that the baby was stillborn and then go back and help take care of this beautiful child.
It took every ounce of fortitude to keep my mouth shut. For the life of me, I don't know how I kept from being flunked out of nursing school that day.
It was every bit as bad as taking care of the crack babies and then trying to be civil to those moms.
But what I kept thinking - why I kept thinking this was so wrong: who on earth would be better equipped to deal with this child than this parent? It's like she was specially prepared to be this mom for this child. And she walked away from her. In my opinion, she walked away from the greatest joys and greatest trials of her life. And I'm sure her life is poorer as a result.
Now let me tie it in:
Who on earth is better prepared for both the laughs - and the tears - of childbirth than you? If that is your destiny, how could you walk away from it?
As far as challenging your fortitude - it is my experience that most people haven't begun to challenge the limits of their strength. Let me humbly suggest that that applies to you as well.
Only you can decide what is your destiny. But if your destiny has found you, you can't walk away because you're afraid. There is a direct relationship between things that have the capability of shaking your core and things that are worth your investment.
If your destiny is staring you in the face, don't blink.