Wasted 5 years of my life with LPNschool, now failed NCLEX for the 2nd time. I'M DONE

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I started out at a University majoring in pre-nursing starting the fall year('06) after high school. Thought everything was fine and dandy, thought I had it all figured out, doing great in my pre-req too! I was an average B student I'd say. I thought nursing was for me...I felt extremely compassionate about it, and I had experience working as a CNA, so I truely knew it was for me. Well anyways, after a year and a half at the University, I decided to go for the LPN program at a nearby community college because I knew it was hard to get into the university's nursing program(they only allowed 25 people in)... So i thought it would be great to go to the community college because I'd get experience as a LPN before going into the RN program, plus it would be faster to get an education. BUT Boyyy my journey since then could be anything BUT faster. . . more like total hell and at a stand-still.

I started out at the community college in the lpn program the spring of 2008. I had trouble already when I passed my basic nursing with only a C. Next semester rolled around and that was even more difficult. I dropped my nursing class (Med-Surg1) because i was struggling with it, I finished pharm and clinicals though. So then I took Med-Surg 1 over right away, and passed it. Then I took the Med-Surg2 class... was almost done with it coming May. That was also around the time graduation was approaching. So basically, I had all my graduation cap and gown, also sent out grad invites...just so i could find out I failed the class because of my final(wasn't so good). Sooooo not only was it depressing to tell every single one of my family & friends i failed and graduation is no longer, BUT i ALSO had to wait a whole freaking year before I could retake Med-Surg 2 over. I didn't give up, and waited that whole year and finally made it the second time around but decided to for-go the graduation. It was stupid because we had graduation even though we still had to finish the summer program(OB and peds). I just decided to not go because WHO KNOWs i figured i may just fail again. Turns out I didn't, and finished the program July 2010. BUT i have to say that was an extremely LONG HAUL for me. And yet I still didn't give up nursing.

Then the nclex-pn rolls around. I take it the first time in november. failed it. Then studied my BUTT off the second time (using lacharity, exam cram, made flashcards, PRAYED, and everything). Studied for 2 or so months. I honestly don't know what more I could fit into my brain. I felt confident in answers on the nclex, I just thought I had it! I just took it today. I did the trick, and BOOM. failed again.

Honestly, this is absolutely ridiculous. I have wasted literally 5 years of my life 18 -now- 23 years old, and still don't know what the hell to do with my life! I wasted 5 years on my life for a LPN Diploma(not even a degree) in which i'd probably be only getting 11 dollars an hour anyway. It's soooo dumb. It just kills me because if I would have changed this major a couple years ago, I would have a 4 year degree right now, like all my friends. And I wouldn't have gone through ALL THIS HELL. I worked my butt off these past 5 years trying to make it, failed, then passed, failed then passed, then failed again. . . Not to mention dealing with the crulest/rudest instructors on earth. Think there's alot of them out there especially from reading postings on allnurses.com. Look at all the people on this site wasting away their YEARS trying to make it through either 1. nursing school, or 2. the nclex. Either people on this site are Extremely Happy or Extremely Desperate because they failed, again. You know, it's no wonder there's a dang nursing shortage. Nursing has officially ****** me off. It's final. I lost all my confidence and self esteem due to this freaking career. I'd rather do something that's less stressful and makes me happy, then keep getting FAILURES after FAILURES in this nursing life. Soooooooo long nursing! A BIG weight has just be lifted off my shoulders. For all you out there, good luck to you. But i'm starting new in my life, and instead of being all sad about it like i was 2 hours ago when I found out I failed, i'm actually quite excited to start my new life in a different but RIGHT path this time. :gtch: I think i'm calling this site quits.

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If nursing is what u really want to do don't give up, just take a couple of weeks off and regroup...U CAN DO IT JUST STAY POSITIVE.

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i'm so sorry you feel that way but take the time you need to reflect. whatever you decide to do I wish you the very best.

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You're only a failure at this if you say you are. What would you tell the person who is proud of themselves because they passed NCLEX on the 10th try? Sometimes it takes the third or fourth attempt. The NCLEX is no picnic, even for the brightest, most prepared student. Don't sell yourself short.

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Do Not get discouraged and, continue to perservance with persistence this is Key! You are young, do not ever give up on your dreams. I failed the NCLEX twice :crying2: I am much older than you and I have a family. I have been wanting to become a nurse since I was your age, with many, many obstacles standing in my way... I will not give up on my dreams!!! Always remember when God ordains something to happend in your life, no one can stop it! I mean no one. What God has for you is already yours. Pray & know you are not alone in this season of your Life. Don't give up, you can do this!

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You've just read believe's post....and, as the mother of believeallispossible it breaks my heart to see the effect all of this has had on her. I have watched her study above and beyond for the nclex, and I have watched her pour every free moment into studying and doing without sleep to ensure she really grasps the material and not just memorize it. I even grilled her myself and discussed issues. I saw her go through hours of practice exams. She made stacks and stacks of flash cards, she used La Charity, and Exam Cram and we prayed. To see the doubt, stress, and insecurity this has brought to her makes me sad. I know she has the knowledge to be a wonderful nurse...now as you see, she wants to quit trying. :crying2: I just want her to know that we love her. :redbeathe

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OP, you HAVE to be positive!

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OP, I really hope you reconsider, you've gone this far, don't give it up. There are many people who failed the NCLEX many times, but they didn't give up and eventually passed. You never know

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"Nothing can stop the man with the right mental attitude from achieving his goal. Nothing on earth can help the man with the wrong mental attitude." -Thomas Jefferson ;)

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Hi! BP, don't give up on your dreams.God did not carry you this far to let you down my dear. on march 31,I took the Nclex-pn for the second time and found out that I failed. I was devastated knowing how much time N effort I put into studying. i'm 9yrs older than you and I've decided to dust myself off and try again because God did not carry me this far to let me down. If it wasn't meant for me to be a nurse I would not have graduated. A year after graduating the school closed down I could have been one of the students that didnt make it out of that school.so my dear don't despair follow your dreams,U can do it.

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Specializes in med/surg & home health.

Those years were not wasted at all—look at all that you have learned including about life itself. You are soooooo close to meeting your goal here. Take a bit of time off to decide what direction you really want to go, and do an attitude change. Of course it's tough to try so hard and not make it; evidence shows many are in the same situation. But you can keep striving 'til you make it, then proudly know you gave it your all. I'm praying you won't give it up, but pull some even deeper strength and finally pull this off. You deserve the right ending to this very hard work. At 23, you have years and years ahead of you. Whatever you do, I'm congratulating you on making it through those five years!

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Specializes in Pediatric Pulmonology and Allergy.

I wonder what's worse... someone who struggles and struggles through school and NCLEX... or someone who sailed through pre-reqs, nursing school and NCLEX and then suffers rejection after rejection in the job search.

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