Was written up ! I am so upset is there any hope to ever be a RN?

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I Was written up today for forgetting things I am so upset I can not stop crying:crying2: , I had cryed all day about it ! Long story short I have so med problems and had some problems with my last surgery I forgot how to read some words, have lots of problems writhing and remembering things l also forget what day it is all the time and who my co-workers are and I tend to just go blank and when I come out of it I do remember what I was doing and will do the same thing over and over again .

I was told that the wright up was to make me think about what I am doing ,But how ccan I do that what I truly have no idea what I have done ?? I really want to go back to school to be an RN and I think case mag. would be good for me but how am I going to that ? I went and looked into classes I would almost have to start all over ..

I called an tharpy place today "still sodding on the phone" and got nowhere I am just so upset , my boss is planing to come sit with me tomorrow what am I going to do when she sees me blank out and stair at the walls ??? she will flip out and then I will be fired !!!!

Specializes in Acute post op ortho.

Blanking out is serious stuff.

You could be having TIA's also called mini strokes, it's time to call in the big guns & see a neurologist.

You have to take care of you first. Are you driving a car? If so, stop. The hazard to yourself & others is dire.

Get your health sorted out first, then move on to helping others if you feel the call. It may not be in the cards for you to be an RN, but that doesn't mean you can't contribute to others in a meaningful way.

I pray you find the cause of the problem & find peace & happiness in your life.

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Specializes in Trauma, Emergency.

First I want to say good luck to you! And I also want to say that maybe another field might suit you better...from what I've seen thus far, clear written and verbal communication skills are a 100% must in the field (bedside or elsewhere) and I could hardly understand your post. Also, if you are having trouble remembering what day it is, I feel sure that it might not be possible for you to effectively encode and recall the information learned in foundation courses like A&P, Pathophysiology, Microbiology, etc...Those classes were really hard for me to pull Bs in, and I was blessed with a relatively sharp memory and ability to focus...there are lots of ways you can serve people in a professional capacity; maybe you should look into all of your options? I wish you the best, but I worry for any potential future pts you might have if you're having trouble with meds or even the basic current date and time. And might I add that whenever a person lacks in one area, it is usually compensated for in another AMAZING way. Its just a matter of finding and playing up your own personal strengths.

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Specializes in Clinical Informatics Specialist.

TrekFan,

Your post was difficult to understand. However, I will say that it is not safe for patients for you to practice as an RN if you are unable to remember giving medications or other aspects of nursing care.

I wish you the best of luck, but you really do you need to consider the safety of the patients first.

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No, you can't be a RN right now. You need to concentrate on your health first. Pls see a good neuro. I also agree with the above to stop driving before you kill yourself or someone else. I'll be praying for you. Don't give up on your dream but do put it on hold for a bit until you are well.

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Specializes in Trauma/Tele/Surgery/SICU.

Trekfan, With the processing and memory issues you have described I have to say that there really is no way for you to be an RN because we have to rely so much on our memories and critical thinking skills. Case management requires bed side experience of at least 2 and more like 5 years.

I agree with the posters who said right now forget about school and career and concentrate on taking care of your health. If the situation is as bad as you describe you may be able to qualify for a disability. I would encourage you to seek a leave under the federal family medical leave act.

You stated you already spoke to your PCP and did not really get anywhere but I wonder if you told him/her the true extent of your problem? You need to make sure your doctor knows that this is affecting your life to the point that your job is in jeopardy because of it. If your doctor knows this and still is not taking action please get another doctor ASAP.

Do you have a close friend or relative who could advocate for you? It is overwhelming and frustrating to manage your own care and with the memory issues it will be even harder for you. Seek assistance from a trusted person who can help you communicate the true extent of your problem to your medical providers.

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No, you can't be a RN right now. You need to concentrate on your health first. Pls see a good neuro. I also agree with the above to stop driving before you kill yourself or someone else. I'll be praying for you. Don't give up on your dream but do put it on hold for a bit until you are well.

Ihave not driven in years and I miss it veary much :crying2:

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Specializes in Peds/outpatient FP,derm,allergy/private duty.

Please do keep seeking until you find someone to help you with the issues that must be dealt with before you can proceed. Put all your energies there first.

Best to you - I know your mind is swirling with a lot of thoughts right now. Focus on getting yourself some support and {{{trekfan}}} hugs - you are not alone. Lots of us have been through it either ourselves or our family members.

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Specializes in OB-Gyn/Primary Care/Ambulatory Leadership.
what about case magament ? where you would not do bedside nurseing ?

Case managers still have to manage patients. And remember things. If you cannot figure out how to remember things, I don't think that would be safe. Plus, I have doubts that you would able to get through nursing school and pass the NCLEX.

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i agree with the posters who said right now forget about school and career and concentrate on taking care of your health. if the situation is as bad as you describe you may be able to qualify for a disability. b]i would encourage you to seek a leave under the federal family medical leave act.[/b][/color i can not get that at my job .

you stated you already spoke to your pcp and did not really get anywhere but i wonder if you told him/her the true extent of your problem? you need to make sure your doctor knows that this is affecting your life to the point that your job is in jeopardy because of it. if your doctor knows this and still is not taking action please get another doctor asap. a few weeks ago i blanked out for a long time a co-worked found me eyes open and frozen in place when she then shook me so hard that my head back and i began to chock the hole place went nuts ,my boss was yelling and flipping out . (yes as odd as it sounds i could hear every thing but not move )it scard me to because i had never had it last that long maybe 20mins in all and i was enbearest by it so i went to to my pcp and talked to her about it at this point they they think they know whats wrong but theres nothing that can be done about it . i have also seen a nuro doc and well lets just say there are no good ones here . i called again today after the wright up and was told that my doc. will be gone for months and was no one really taking over and the others there did not know anything about me ..

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Please do keep seeking until you find someone to help you with the issues that must be dealt with before you can proceed. Put all your energies there first.

Best to you - I know your mind is swirling with a lot of thoughts right now. Focus on getting yourself some support and {{{trekfan}}} hugs - you are not alone. Lots of us have been through it either ourselves or our family members.

thank you ,

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Hi,

I am a little confused as to what you were written up for? You mention work and also becoming an RN and having to basically start over so I was wondering if your a nursing student now or some other type of medical professional? I am not sure how the two fit together... :confused: If your current job is something other than a nurse or nursing student then the chances are that there IS hope, but I think that is really in your hands.

It seems to me that your aware you have an issue that would endanger someone (including yourself) to the point of being fired on the spot. I think the best thing you could do is to be honest about what is going on with you before you make a mistake you cannot undo.

I think its better to ask for help and get the help you need so you don't ruin any future chance you have at becoming a RN. Just because your having some problems now doesn't mean that these problems cannot be treated which would allow you to become the nurse and case manager you hope to be. I think integrity means a lot when it comes to being a health care professional, and if your a risk to others please say so to someone in your life (home/work/different doctor) who CAN HELP YOU!

I think your post is unclear to a lot of us as to what is really going on and I understand how hard it is to get everything out in one short post online when there is a long story behind it. I think that right now you just have to focus on yourself and hopefully you can get your health problems under control and be able to pick the career of your choice.

I wish you the best!

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I noticed looking at some of your other posts you mention that you have low vision, a driver, a guide dog, black outs and a lot of health issues not mentioned in this post.

I am not in your shoes and in no way wish to judge you but it seems that in a lot of posts your looking for what type of medical job you could have...

If you do have all these health issues I would find a doctor that can help you. I would also consider disability. If you go into a Social Security Disability office they have some reading materials in large print that offer suggestions for people with low vision as to what types of work are available, what aides you can use to help you in your work as well as different places you can contact for help.

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