I had a horrible experience yesterday. I was asked to float to the covid unit. I told them that I was fit tested and failed the test for N95, so they said I had to wear a Papr. Well, I got up to the floor and they couldn't find any hoods. Meanwhile an hour had gone by with 6 patients having no nurse. Rather than find another nurse that could take the patients, the supervisor wasted another hour trying to find a hood. When the supervisor finally found one, basically taking a hood from an OT therapist's locker, I tried to put the hood on. As soon as I got the hood on, I couldn't breathe, got nauseated and started sweating. I basically had a panic attack because I couldn't breathe. I told the charge nurse I had to get it off. She called the supervisor who basically said "tough". Then she called me down to her office and tried to bully me into wearing it. She even tried to get me to wear an n95, saying....I want to see this on you. I told her I failed the fit test and it didn't fit. She then called my manager saying I refused to wear the mask and refused to work on the unit. I told her I would work anywhere else they needed me, but physically could not handle wearing the hood. So, I was placed on another unit, but basically threatened that I needed to get a doctor's note and I had to sign a write up about what happened. I am sick about this whole thing.....especially since there was no regard for my safety and now I'm being punished. I have never had a panic attack before and I have no trouble working with contagious patients, but I can't put up with being bullied into risking my own health and well-being. Has anyone else had a similar experience? Any advice on where to go from here? Then ironically, I got a text this morning asking me to come in to work for bonus! That's after the supervisor said I needed a doctor's not before coming back to work!