I apologize but it seems like the only people who can understand the stress I am under is on this site. I cant even really talk to my best friend because she is not in the same boat as me.
I am a pre-nursing student and trying to get a psychology degree too. So my work load is enough for 5 people. My husband is in the military and deployed over half of the year, I have a 4 year old son that I am basically raising on my own. We are moving into a bigger place next week and its not making me feel any better.
I get home and see pasy due notices for the car insurance and they are talking about cancelling. I just dished out $200 for daycare for my son for the month. We owe rent at the place we are at now and rent for the new place we are going. There is no money left!!
Now here is the worst part. My husband is an idiot in my eyes anymore. Such a computer geek, book geek and sci fi geek. He has to buy every star wars book, rent xbox games and buy every sci fi dvd that comes out. I give him a little leeway to buy a book every pay day. Those wind up being $50 and I yell at him and he says he wont do it again, WHATEVER. He has found a new fascination on ITunes downloading videos and stuff, $50 each time.
Here I am, unable to pay the car insurance, daycare and rent without going bankrupt. I am getting to the point that I yell at him everyday, am I over reacting? I want to tell him to grow up, he will be 29 this year, and quit spending money like a kid!! I am at the point that I am starting to think that I hate him. I go to school all day, yes he is in the military and works hard, but leaving dishes in the sink when I ASK him to do them is just killing me. He wont do anything to help out. I actually enjoy it when he deploys because I can save money and not deal with his ****!!
We did our taxes and got $3600 back. That money is ALL GONE!!! Oh I wonder where it went. I am at my witts end. I am sure he thinks I am psycho for yelling at him because of the lack of money and the spending. I cant even afford to get myself a new bra that just ripped.
What should I do? I am at the point that I just want to leave him, AGAIN and tell him to kiss my butt.
Sorry for the vent but I am so pissed off. Phew.. Thats enough for now. :angryfire