Warning: This is a rant
So I had a lot (LOTS) of growing pains as a new nurse. I made mistakes and I haven't been the best employee 100% of the time. But with self-reflection and self help, it's an odd feeling when conversations with managers are no longer entailing that dreadful sentence of "maybe this isn't a good fit for you" to... I guess regular nursing things??
This is what I'm getting at: I don't feel recognized at work. Due to my past, I'm very insecure about my work. I love asking about my performance and what can I do better. But every time I ask for a review from my supervisor, she just tells me I'm doing very well. Which annoys me.
Why, you ask?
Well, everyone at my job feels the need to announce what they did, and how someone else screwed up and how THANKS TO THEM they fixed it. They have to brag about getting a new order for nystatin powder and how THANK GOODNESS THEY SAW THE RASHES WHEN NO ONE ELSE DID. And I HATE THIS!
I've never been the type of person to announce my work. My documentation should be adequate... right? I mean, if I see an issue, I take of it. If someone made a mistake (obviously not a grave error) I fix it. I never make a huge deal out of things... but maybe I should?
The "Heros" who fix and notice things and make everyone aware are praised by managers. They get employee of the month. It's kind of disheartening. Obviously other factors may come into play as to why they are getting these achievements but during our employee meetings, they're always praised for "Doing so much". And I just think... hey. I do that too. I just don't make a big deal out it.
I don't know. This was longer than I hoped...