Published Jul 29, 2016
michellesee
3 Posts
First of all, I am not sure if I am posting in the right section, please feel free to redirect this.
I am a new grad and have been working at my hospital for over 3 months on night shift (would have not been able to handle day shift, too much stuff/stress going on). My orientation consisted of 2 weeks of class (going over policies, etc) and around 7 weeks (3 shifts/week) of being on the floor with a preceptor. After that, I have been on my own.
I hate my job. I know this is common for a new grad, feeling of doom, anxiety, depression, and what not but I truly do not like my job. I can not handle the stress of a hospital job. I am currently working in a telemetry unit. I always feel anxious at work and even at home. i think about work on my days off even when I try not to. i feel like i am going to hurt a patient or forget an important sign. I can not handle the stress of working at the hospital. My blood pressure has been high due to work, sometimes in the SBP in the 150s and DBP in the 100s and I am only 27 years old.
I used to be money driven, but ever since working at the hospital, I have been realizing the importance of being happy. I would rather have a simple job with a meager income if it means I am happier and healthier.
I know for a fact that I do not want to work as a floor nurse. I am not even sure if I want to be a nurse anymore. The idea of being a public health nurse or school nurse seems nice due to the less stress and more convenient hours (m-f, days, and having holidays off) but I am not sure if I should stick it out for the first year of experience at a hospital. Some say that the first year of experience is necessary and some say that it is not. I am even considering getting teaching credentials to teach elementary/middle/high school (my original plan before I chose nursing).
My boyfriend of 8 years has noticed how unhappy and stressed I am and even suggested to quit for my happiness and health. He is willing to financially support me in whatever decision I make, even if it means I will be unemployed for +six months. I also still live at home with my parents.
My question is, should I quit?
As of right now, my goal is to get that one year of experience, but that just seems so far away and I am so unhappy and stressed right now. Also, if that one year of experience is not necessary than why should I continue? My managers are supportive and helpful (not sure if it is because they truly care or if they don't want me to quit) and gave me good feedback on my 3 month evaluation, saying that I am exactly where I need to be and doing fine. I just saw a public health nurse I position that required no experience (just a PHN certification, which I have yet to submit but am working on it), while many others say that having one year of experience is crucial. I am so confused.
I am also working as a waitress 1 day/2 weeks and have been working at this restaurant for almost 8 years. I would usually work 5-6 days/week before becoming a nurse(and I get preferential scheduling because I am a trainer). I am holding on to this job because it feels like cake walk/stress relief and just in case I do quit my hospital job.
I am in California and the nursing ratio on the telemetry floor is 4:1. So far, I had a bit of nurse bullying but I don't mind it and the atmosphere of the floor seems ok overall, it's just that I hate working there.
At this point, I don't care about all the years of studying I did to become a nurse. If I could replay my life, I wished I didn't go into nursing. I am just miserable.
What would you do in my situation? Quit? Try to work for one year?
Emergent, RN
4,278 Posts
You should grit your teeth and stick it out for a year, then explore your options. After you are legally married to your boyfriend, you can consider letting him support you, remember, marriage is mainly to protect women, we're more vulnerable, we bear children, so it's wise and strong of us to make certain we and our children are secure.
Alternatively, you can move to the Third World and scramble to get a bowl of rice.
~Shrek~
347 Posts
I work in public health! You make somewhat less money, but in exchange you get normal hours, good benefits, and usually better treatment.
However, I think that you should stay a year if you can. Having a year of hospital experience under your belt will open the door for many opportunities that public health cannot open. I wish I got a year of acute care experience just so that I could be more marketable and sharpen my hands-on skills.
If you cannot stand your job at all, ans want to get out quickly, then apply to public health, and don't leave until you get a PHN job. Finish your application ASAP for the PHN certificate. I applied to a PHN position in a county that I knew was desperate for nurses, but I got rejected by the next day because my PHN certificate was still pending.
I would not quit unless it is a matter of safety or your mental health is spiraling out of control.
I quit jobs twice with less than a year of experience due to safety concerns. While I don't regret it, it was very stressful for me, as I thought no one would hire me with my spotty work history. During job interviews, it's hard to explain why you quit. Thankfully, with prayer and perseverance I got my current position.
I was afraid of the response but yes I do agree that getting one year of acute care experience will give me better options in the future. ~Shrek~, which state and city do you work in as a public health nurse? What do your hours look like? How long did it take for you certification to come?
I wish I sent in my Public Health Nurse Certification sooner, that way I can actively look for a position, and I heard it takes a 5-6 months for them give it to you
osi2011
191 Posts
That's a little harsh don't you think. I don't believe that last part was necessary.....
CrunchRN, ADN, RN
4,549 Posts
Apply to any and all outpatient jobs. Once you land one give your notice and move on to a better life.
Simonesays, BSN, RN
115 Posts
Hi! I just posted a similar topic. I have been a nurse for 3 years and loved where I worked before. However, I moved 6 months ago and haven't enjoyed nursing in the same way in this new environment. I have been making stupid mistakes and am thinking that I should consider either an alternative career or some other type of nursing. (Actually, I might be forced to make this choice when I have my meeting with my manager next week.) I know that the potential is there for me to love bedside nursing but I just don't see how to achieve that here.
I remember feeling what you are feeling when I started out. But I did get to a place where I felt comfortable and confident (present situation excluded). It can be overwhelming being a new grad in an acute care environment. There is so much to know and do! So much responsibility! And it's scary not to have the safety net of a preceptor or instructor. These are normal feelings, though. And with time, they generally pass. If you enjoyed acute care nursing in school/during your preceptorship, it might just be that you are feeling overwhelmed by being by yourself on the floor. And these feelings are probably temporary.
Do you have supportive management and coworkers? Do you have an educator that you can talk to? What about counselling services at work? I would suggest using these resources. Also, if you're considering a different form of nursing, look at the requirements for these positions to make sure that you don't need more acute care experience. Before you make any decisions, make sure that you fully consider the consequences so that you don't limit your future options too much.
As you said, though, life is short. If you're truly unhappy, it's ok to quit your position and do something else. At least that's what I'm trying to wrap my head around. [Hugs]
Hangin'On,RN
25 Posts
I felt just like you when I first began in a hospital as a new grad. I was also on a telemetry floor but the ratio was more like 6-10:1 instead of 4:1, so do count yourself lucky there. However, floors like that can be stressful regardless of ratios and especially where you are a new nurse. I was constantly job searching for anything like secretary, store managers, etc., anything to get out of nursing, but I stayed on that floor for 2 1/2years. A lot of things have made me hate things about nursing, but those first years were some of the most miserable. I did quit once, but ended up going back to bedside on another unit that was much better.
It might be in your best interest, career wise, to try to hold out for a year, then you can put in a transfer request to another area of your hospital that you feel would be better for you. It's so tough when you are miserable. There is light at the end of the tunnel, but sometimes it's very tiny and hard to see. You're over three months in, so only less than nine to go before you have one year experience and can try for something else. Or maybe some clinics might open up that don't require as much experience.
Also, you could do some research and maybe connect with some of the people you graduated nursing school with to see where and what they are doing to give you some other ideas. Do not underestimate the power of networking. Think of an area or specialty that you would like, and if it's a non-beside position, then make that your goal. I do wish you a lot of luck!
DTWriter
322 Posts
OP, I was in a similar situation not too long ago; heck, our stories are so similar that people who know me in person would think that I wrote it
I, too, struggled with what to do - whether I should stay or bounce. My older sibling then suggested that I watch an anime called "ReLIFE."
OMG. That anime was on point with my situation and a huge mind opener. (No, I did not make a decision solely based on the show but it helped me make a decision that I am very happy with to this day.)
"ReLIFE" is a 13-episodes series (~23 minutes per episode). Just type "ReLIFE - episode 1" into your preferred search engine and you should come across a site that has the episode. Watch the series completely for the "ah-ha" moment. Highly recommend it.
In fact, pass on the show to anyone who is in a similar situation.
HouTx, BSN, MSN, EdD
9,051 Posts
OP, have you talked to your manager or anyone at work about your concerns & overall stress levels? Believe it or not, nurse managers are generally very interested in making sure that their staffs are comfortable and satisfied with their jobs. But s/he doesn't have a crystal ball. People may want to help, but they may not always realize that you need it.
Thanks for responding. I do have a supportive management and I do have a nursing educator that I can talk to. So far everybody is telling me I'm doing fine, which is reassuring but I still don't like what I am doing.
I am also reluctanct to ask my manager for counseling services at work because I'm afraid they might see it as a sign of weakness but I'm coming to the point where I don't care and just might ask them what the hospital provides for the employees when it comes to counseling. I'm feeling really low and depressed.
I still need to look further into the requirements for other nonacute nursing jobs. I just turned in my PHN certification to my school (the director has to sign it and send it) but I heard it takes 4-5months for the certification.
Everyday I am still deciding if I should quit or not. To wait a year or not. I can tell it's affecting my attitude and how I approach other people. So far, everybody is saying it's safer and less risky if I were to complete a whole year and I agree but still not sure what to do.
dishes, BSN, RN
3,950 Posts
Does your employer have an Employee Assistance Program (EAP) it's a free,confidential, short term counselling service that you can acess through a phone call. It is external and employers do not know who accesses it or what is discussed.