So I worked f/t nights on tele floor before i had my lo. I knew it would be hard to return and was not sure if i would. WEll my maternity leave is almost over and i have asked for per diem work. I told my hubby yesterday that they had said ok. Well he freaked out! WE had discussed me going back one night a week. And he had mixed emotions about being left with the baby alone! WEll now they time is 2 weeks away and he lost his mind about it yesterday. I am sick just thinking about leaving my lo and then to add to it to have him tell me he cant do and if i think he can i am out of my mind. I just kept saying its just one night, and if its to much i will quit. Well i am just sick thinking about it. Every time lo woke up last night i wanted to cry thinking it would be hubby with him. I also have a 3yr and was thinking he would have to spend the first night or two i work at the grandparents to make it a little easier on my husband. I am soooo torn on what to do. I would like at some point to go back to work but am not sure if its just to soon. My lo will be 10 weeks old when i go back. I did not want to give up my job because i was scared i would lose my skills and have to start from scratch all over again. The other part just feels so unnatural to leave my sons as i am there mom and it hurts to do. I figured if i worked the night before my inlaws could help watch the babies while i grabs some sleep and then i would get up and just go to bed really early. Anyone out there with experience with this? or just a hug lol=(