i don't know how i got here. i went to rn school, and i failed after second sem. i took cna, and i FAILED the boards for the skills portion of cna. i didn't put the patient in correct alignment and turn them correctly for SUPINE. some part of me became negligent and felt the patient was fine to be a few inches misplaced to the right.. why was i so careless? no idea. it's part of who i am. not to be pessimistic or against change, but i have this carefree part of my personality that refuses to change. no matter what i do.
i'm tired of failing and feeling miserable.
i'm also putting myself through lvn...my mom is going to put down her five thousand dollars for me and take on a loan.. i feel scared. i know i can accomplish lvn, but i can't even accomplish CNA!!!!!!!!!
in my head i KNOW i can do this, but reality keeps denying me what i think i can do.
i feel that i should just get in there and stop whining. but now i feel rushed and exhausted.. which is part of the reason why i thnk i failed cna because i didn't have much time to prepare the skills... i was takin a/p and pharm preqs OVER again... while i was taking cna.
what's wrong with me?
what questions should i be asking myself?
i'm 21 years old.. turning 22.
whole life ahead of me and don't know where i want to go but for now, i'm miserable. help.