Hi, I am very disppointed with myself. I have been working on my pre-req's since Jan of 2006 and started LPN classes this fall and on top of that still working on a couple more pre-req's for RN. I passed all my online classes with A's and B's except for one that I falled and that one made me drop out of Foundations for Nursing 1 and 2. The very next day I took my Pharmacolgy test and failed it because I was so disappointed in my work on my other class. Well the next test of Pharmacolgy I took I missed not needing to sign a contract out of the class by two points. I also heard other's had to sign a contract with this test also but I am so disappointed in myself and depressed right now that all I really want to do is lay in bed and cry. In all my pre-req's that I have taken I have made very good grades. I have gone and signed up for next falls nursing classes but I really am at a lost. I really don't want this disappointment again. I have had a very hard life when I was younger, going through 15 foster homes until I was 14 and not knowing how to read or spell correctly until I was 15. I know to most of you this must seem like a cry session for you all, but all my life I have always wanted to be a nurse, but when it came time for me to take my ACT's when I was a senior 20 years ago I didn't because I was told by my adopted parents that I wouldn't do very well in college that why should I bother. Well 20 years later I am now in college and thinking that same thing. I am a 38 year old mother of teenager's and married to the same guy for 20 years next may of '07. Yes, I was struggling with some of my nursing classes but I pushed myself forward and passed them. Spring semester of '06 my gpa was 3.66 and my summer gpa was 3.85. My sister is my support she and I went into this together and now she is going on and I am sitting back and watching her go on and do something she has always wanted to do also and that is to be a nurse. We just thought it would be great to graduate to be nurses at the sametime. My question is, should I go on to be a nurse or should I give up because of my history of failure when I was a kid? If I drop out completely now I will have all of the student loans to pay off and my husband has told me that I jumped into going to college without even consulting him and I did consult him before I did this, and he has also said that it is my fault because I don't study that I have failed. I do study, I study more than anyone else in that class and my grades show it, and my sister all she has to do is look over the stuff the morning before the test and she passes with a B or an A. That makes me so unsure of myself, that I think what's the use? Help me please! :angryfire
Nov 3, '06
Oh hon, after all you've done to work towards this goal, please don't stop now! Don't listen to the programming in your head that's telling you you're already a failure so why try again! Frankly, to me you've proven you're a survivor by coming out of your childhood and being able to tell the tale. You've proven you're not a failure by getting good grads in your pre-reqs. If nursing is really what you want to do, the culmination of a lifetime dream, then prove you're not a failure by picking yourself up from a few bad breaks and trying again. Yes it would be great to graduate the same time your sister does, but that's just gravy atop the mashed potatoes that you say is the true goal - nursing.
Please don't quit - your GPA is a lot higher than mine is right now!
Last edit by DaughterofRuth on Nov 3, '06