Help stuggling with nursing school don't know if I want to go on to be a nurse.

  1. Hi, I am very disppointed with myself. I have been working on my pre-req's since Jan of 2006 and started LPN classes this fall and on top of that still working on a couple more pre-req's for RN. I passed all my online classes with A's and B's except for one that I falled and that one made me drop out of Foundations for Nursing 1 and 2. The very next day I took my Pharmacolgy test and failed it because I was so disappointed in my work on my other class. Well the next test of Pharmacolgy I took I missed not needing to sign a contract out of the class by two points. I also heard other's had to sign a contract with this test also but I am so disappointed in myself and depressed right now that all I really want to do is lay in bed and cry. In all my pre-req's that I have taken I have made very good grades. I have gone and signed up for next falls nursing classes but I really am at a lost. I really don't want this disappointment again. I have had a very hard life when I was younger, going through 15 foster homes until I was 14 and not knowing how to read or spell correctly until I was 15. I know to most of you this must seem like a cry session for you all, but all my life I have always wanted to be a nurse, but when it came time for me to take my ACT's when I was a senior 20 years ago I didn't because I was told by my adopted parents that I wouldn't do very well in college that why should I bother. Well 20 years later I am now in college and thinking that same thing. I am a 38 year old mother of teenager's and married to the same guy for 20 years next may of '07. Yes, I was struggling with some of my nursing classes but I pushed myself forward and passed them. Spring semester of '06 my gpa was 3.66 and my summer gpa was 3.85. My sister is my support she and I went into this together and now she is going on and I am sitting back and watching her go on and do something she has always wanted to do also and that is to be a nurse. We just thought it would be great to graduate to be nurses at the sametime. My question is, should I go on to be a nurse or should I give up because of my history of failure when I was a kid? If I drop out completely now I will have all of the student loans to pay off and my husband has told me that I jumped into going to college without even consulting him and I did consult him before I did this, and he has also said that it is my fault because I don't study that I have failed. I do study, I study more than anyone else in that class and my grades show it, and my sister all she has to do is look over the stuff the morning before the test and she passes with a B or an A. That makes me so unsure of myself, that I think what's the use? Help me please! :angryfire
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  3. by   DaughterofRuth
    Oh hon, after all you've done to work towards this goal, please don't stop now! Don't listen to the programming in your head that's telling you you're already a failure so why try again! Frankly, to me you've proven you're a survivor by coming out of your childhood and being able to tell the tale. You've proven you're not a failure by getting good grads in your pre-reqs. If nursing is really what you want to do, the culmination of a lifetime dream, then prove you're not a failure by picking yourself up from a few bad breaks and trying again. Yes it would be great to graduate the same time your sister does, but that's just gravy atop the mashed potatoes that you say is the true goal - nursing.

    Please don't quit - your GPA is a lot higher than mine is right now!
    Last edit by DaughterofRuth on Nov 3, '06
  4. by   PurrRN
    Kadee7, take a deep breath, relax and step back for a moment. See all the things that you've done to get yourself to the place you are now. Accept the positive things you've achieved and stop looking back at the things that were standing in your way. Stop believing other people and start believing in yourself. First of all, taking so many classes may not be the way you need to do things. I know there is a tendency to want to get things done "as fast as possible", because of the feeling that time is running out, or because we see younger people achieving what we wish we could have done. Realize that whatever obstacles you have to climb over, that in X number of years, you will be where you are in life and it can either be with a degree in nursing (if that's what you choose), or it can be without......but you will still be. Be firm in your quest if that is what you truely want even if it takes cutting back on the classes you take (so what if it takes you a little longer). Do what works FOR you instead of against you. I also am 38, I have three babies, 5,5 and 3. It took me 4 years to get my prereq's out of the way. There were some semesters I only took 2 classes, because I knew I couldn't succeed with anymore on my plate. I even failed Chemestry while I was absolutely trying my hardest. I am now in my first sememter of nursing school and know in my heart that if I had to take anymore classes on top of the workload, I would FAIL. Not because I'm not smart, don't want if bad enough, blah, blah, blah. But because I know myself well enough to know that I can't do that, I'm not Wonder Woman, and I can't do EVERYTHING, even if someone else can. I know failure hurts and makes us feel defeated, but dust yourself off and make a new plan. One that works for you. One that you can achieve. Don't let life get you down or prevent you from doing what you want, it will just make you unhappier in the end. {{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}
  5. by   kadee7
    Thanks, reading your reply posts makes me cry. I do have the support of my sister and God and most of my church family, but their are other's like my husband that needs a kick in the butt whom doesn't want me to succeed or thinks I can't, I know I can but it is just disappointing right now to me because of having to withdrawl out of the classes and having to wait another year. I really am not a person who listens to other's about what I am or not but this is really hitting me right in the heart and making it feel like it is broken.
  6. by   destiny5
    The previous post said it best "dust yourself off" and try again, & again and again. There are so many people who have failed several classes (on more than one occasion) and are nurses now. What determines whether you are successful is your ability to press through the difficult times--getting up each time and pressing through. It sounds like youv'e been doing this all your life. Why should nursing school be any different? You KNOW what you have to do--ok, sulk & have your pity party for a few days, you've earned that much but get back up. YOU have so many people depending on you--but mainly your patients are waiting. I believe you can do it & I'm praying for you.:icon_hug: :icon_hug: :icon_hug: PS look @ it this way, your sister can help you now that she's going through it before you. It's always nice to know someone that's "been there, done that" especially someone who loves you.-Be happy for her, your time will come.
  7. by   PurrRN
    My husband is in the Army, April of 2005 I got my acceptance letter for the nursing school I'd applied to in NC. May of 2005 we got orders for MO. I was crushed. I wouldn't be able to accept the seat because we had to be in MO in Oct '05. My husband made comments about how I should "just a job", instead of going back to school and trying to get into the local nursing program. I told him to "kiss off", because I was getting my nursing degree come **** or high water!! Part of the reason I think he isn't very encouraging is because I will be financially as independent as he is, and that scares him. What I'm trying to say is that setbacks ARE hard to accept, but perserverance is the key. Like I said above, I am now in my first semester of the nursing program in MO........it's a year later than I wanted it to be, and I'm a year older,.....but the point is that I didn't let the setback derail me. I hope you won't let your setback derail you. There are so many of us that understand, so don't feel like you are the ONLY one who has had to regroup.
  8. by   lisabeth
    You must have been taking full loads in school. Right now I can tell things are really piling up on you. Let me ask this. Do you think you are just really discouraged or do you think you really dont want to be a nurse? I can honestly say, this is going to be the toughest challenges I have ever, or will ever take on. Am I scared? You bet, but I am also excited and I know this is what I want.
    Your husband needs to be more support of your hard work. If you dont have that, it will be so much harder. That is why I ask, do you really want this? If so, find your encouragement somewhere else if he wont give it. It will just make it that much harder for you if he isnt supportive, but you can always count on us here.
    It could be that you just need a little break, or it could be that you might decide to pursue something else. Good luck with your situation. I am sorry you are dealing with this.

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    Hi, I am very disppointed with myself. I have been working on my pre-req's since Jan of 2006 and started LPN classes this fall and on top of that still working on a couple more pre-req's for RN. I passed all my online classes with A's and B's except for one that I falled and that one made me drop out of Foundations for Nursing 1 and 2. The very next day I took my Pharmacolgy test and failed it because I was so disappointed in my work on my other class. Well the next test of Pharmacolgy I took I missed not needing to sign a contract out of the class by two points. I also heard other's had to sign a contract with this test also but I am so disappointed in myself and depressed right now that all I really want to do is lay in bed and cry. In all my pre-req's that I have taken I have made very good grades. I have gone and signed up for next falls nursing classes but I really am at a lost. I really don't want this disappointment again. I have had a very hard life when I was younger, going through 15 foster homes until I was 14 and not knowing how to read or spell correctly until I was 15. I know to most of you this must seem like a cry session for you all, but all my life I have always wanted to be a nurse, but when it came time for me to take my ACT's when I was a senior 20 years ago I didn't because I was told by my adopted parents that I wouldn't do very well in college that why should I bother. Well 20 years later I am now in college and thinking that same thing. I am a 38 year old mother of teenager's and married to the same guy for 20 years next may of '07. Yes, I was struggling with some of my nursing classes but I pushed myself forward and passed them. Spring semester of '06 my gpa was 3.66 and my summer gpa was 3.85. My sister is my support she and I went into this together and now she is going on and I am sitting back and watching her go on and do something she has always wanted to do also and that is to be a nurse. We just thought it would be great to graduate to be nurses at the sametime. My question is, should I go on to be a nurse or should I give up because of my history of failure when I was a kid? If I drop out completely now I will have all of the student loans to pay off and my husband has told me that I jumped into going to college without even consulting him and I did consult him before I did this, and he has also said that it is my fault because I don't study that I have failed. I do study, I study more than anyone else in that class and my grades show it, and my sister all she has to do is look over the stuff the morning before the test and she passes with a B or an A. That makes me so unsure of myself, that I think what's the use? Help me please! :angryfire
  9. by   Irene joy
    Husbands are notorious for implying that you never consulted them about something, they tune you out or don't take you seriously, until you actually start school, then they say wait a minute, I don't remember talking about this. When the school situation starts to encroach on their everyday life, such as you being more stressed, not paying as much attention to them ect. then they have something to say. Please don't take this to personally or let it discourage you, they just don't handle change well. As far as your caseload, it sounds really heavy. I know in our community LPN program the students are encouraged to NOT take any other classes during that year as it's an incredibly difficult program, please don't be hard on yourself, just stay on course and you'lle definitely get there evan if it is a year later.
  10. by   kadee7
    Thanks everyone for your encouraging words, I really need them right now. I will take your words to heart. It is just hard because I need to be strong for my family and keep my composure around other's. When my older sister passed away in 2000 I was the one who put together the visitation, helped her husband find a place for her to be cremated, by her choice, and I was also the one who went to her house and put together things that I know she wanted her husband and children to have, but he didn't take any of it. I took what I could and put it into storage for her children, but I know it isn't enough. Now with me having to withdrawl from two of the major classes for nursing, it has struck me in the heart. I know this looks and sounds like a cry session from me, I just need some support that other's have or are going through. I believe I have lost my composure with the disappointments of the classes. I have lost my strength of myself. Hearing the support from you all has helped me step back and look a little at my life, I really do want to be a nurse!! As a matter of fact I have enrolled into some classes this coming spring to help me succeed, but it is in my mind right now, why am I doing this because I know I will fail. I know I won't fail but the old devil has gotten to me and I am letting him win right now. I need to stop him and it is going to happen now. Thank you all for your support again. I just needed some shoulder's to dry on. Thanks again everyone.
  11. by   catzy5
    [quote=kadee7]Hi, I am very disppointed with myself. I have been working on my pre-req's since Jan of 2006 and started LPN classes this fall and on top of that still working on a couple more pre-req's for RN. I passed all my online classes with A's and B's except for one that I falled and that one made me drop out of Foundations for Nursing 1 and 2. The very next day I took my Pharmacolgy test and failed it because I was so disappointed in my work on my other class. Well the next test of Pharmacolgy I took I missed not needing to sign a contract out of the class by two points. I also heard other's had to sign a contract with this test also but I am so disappointed in myself and depressed right now that all I really want to do is lay in bed and cry. In all my pre-req's that I have taken I have made very good grades. I have gone and signed up for next falls nursing classes but I really am at a lost. I really don't want this disappointment again. I have had a very hard life when I was younger, going through 15 foster homes until I was 14 and not knowing how to read or spell correctly until I was 15. I know to most of you this must seem like a cry session for you all, but all my life I have always wanted to be a nurse, but when it came time for me to take my ACT's when I was a senior 20 years ago I didn't because I was told by my adopted parents that I wouldn't do very well in college that why should I bother. Well 20 years later I am now in college and thinking that same thing. I am a 38 year old mother of teenager's and married to the same guy for 20 years next may of '07. Yes, I was struggling with some of my nursing classes but I pushed myself forward and passed them. Spring semester of '06 my gpa was 3.66 and my summer gpa was 3.85. My sister is my support she and I went into this together and now she is going on and I am sitting back and watching her go on and do something she has always wanted to do also and that is to be a nurse. We just thought it would be great to graduate to be nurses at the sametime. My question is, should I go on to be a nurse or should I give up because of my history of failure when I was a kid? If I drop out completely now I will have all of the student loans to pay off and my husband has told me that I jumped into going to college without even consulting him and I did consult him before I did this, and he has also said that it is my fault because I don't study that I have failed. I do study, I study more than anyone else in that class and my grades show it, and my sister all she has to do is look over the stuff the morning before the test and she passes with a B or an A. That makes me so unsure of myself, that I think what's the use? Help me please! :angryfire



    {{{hugs}}}}

    from someone who has been there done that don't give up now! I got frustrated a year ago for different reasons and gave up took a semester off and it put me back a year. You have come so far, no one said its going to be easy. Some of us just have to work harder then others for what we want. You can do this, your not failing your just learning the hard way ) take a deep breath don't look at your failures but look at what you have accomplished set small goals for your self and take time to recharge!
  12. by   djameslpn365
    I know what you are going through. I had a drug addicted mother, and a father who just didn't give a damn. Then the Lord saw fit to bless me with an aunt who actually gave a damn about me. What did I do? Well as the typical teenager I rebelled. I finally got my head right as an adult. Now I am married to a wonderful man with 3 kids. I haven't gotten as far as you have, but my advice to you is please don't give up. Remember GOD does not put more on you than yu can bear. To your husband tell him to kiss off. If he can't stand behind you on this then just keep his mouth shut you don't need that negitivity. Just keep praying and everything will woork out for you in the end. Lots of love and prayers are with you!!!
  13. by   Hanna0225
    :icon_hug::icon_hug::icon_hug:

    [font=book antiqua]i've always believed that if things were meant to be, they will happen.

    please don't give up! you've come so far, you need to find the strength inside yourself to overcome all of this.
    sometimes you have to look at your past successes in order to validate how you want your life to end up like in the future.

    after the storm comes the calm.


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