3. Assistant living facility: Fired after 3 months
My resume looks bad. I wanted to not include my last job but when recruiters ask what I did during those 3 months, i reallly don't know what to say. I really don't want to discuss why I got fired (you can view my post to see how bad of a nursing I am).
At at my Core, I love my job and feel that with all the lessons I've learned, I will be a great fit someone else if given the opportunity. I am working for an agency as a per diem nurse and my job was cancelled this morning. I am afraid of not being able to pay my bills.
Sorry I haven't read all the other posts past this one, but this one made me stop and take notice.
I am an RN and I also struggle with the after effects of severe bullying throughout my childhood. I was told I would not be able to be a nurse, wouldn't be able to finish school, suffer from depression, PTSD, and generalized anxiety.
You do need to get on the correct treatment plan for what you are feeling. Its ok to feel stuck in the mud, but what is more important is that you recognize it and work on moving past it.
Now, moving through that statement, a series of jobs where medication errors were to blame for the firing may give other jobs the reason to hesitate before hiring you. I like that you are at a position now where you aren't working full time and can maybe concentrate more on doing your best (although I know it doesn't pay the bills). This will give you confidence and improve your skills, eventually landing you a better job.
I just wanted to tell you that you're not alone. Keep trying to find a psychiatrist and therapy that works for you.
Specializes in M/S, LTC, Corrections, PDN & drug rehab.
All I keep reading in the OPs comments are "woe is me". It's time to pull your big girl panties up! I have not seen the OP take responsibility once. You are an adult, start acting like it.
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." - Eleanor Roosevelt
I haven't read all the comments yet either, but stop volunteering to help the nursing assistants. Yes, helping the nursing assistants is a very good thing, but ONLY after you get your job mastered. You have made several med errors, which leads me to think you need to go slower, look things up, ask questions, etc. if you are rushing so you can help the nursing assistants, then you are doing no one any favors. A resident sitting in a wet brief for an extra half hour is less bad than a resident getting the wrong medicine, not getting their medicine or a treatment done wrong. When you get your "sea legs," you can start helping more. For now, focus on you and what you need to do.
I would be worried if your previous facilities not reporting your license for risk of harming a patient if it has occurred more than once or twice. I think if your anxiety is that bad, I would focus on those skills. If you continue to make errors without improvement, then you risk losing your license because that would be unsafe practices depending on your state.
From reading all the posts this is what I felt as well. Like you were seeking attention. If more than one person is saying the same thing, you should probably take a note on that. Are you here to seek advise or just to validate yourself and feelings. Although getting advise and feeling uplifted by others are good, you also need to have confidence in yourself or else its all for nothing. It really sounds to me like you aren't happy being you and if that's the case nothing we tell you will help (not even in another career) My first thought was why is everyone tell this person to change fields? That's not an option, but now I understand. Anything job in the medical field is very serious. We are talking about life or death here. Lack of organization, being overly nervous and feeling like you don't know what you are doing will cause errors for the mere fact that we are what we think. Our thoughts come into being always. So based on your replies I too will say do something else where you wont be at risk of killing anyone due to a mistake.
Specializes in Med/Surg/Infection Control/Geriatrics.
Well, not knowing details, it's hard to help. But you did mention something about difficulties getting organized with meds. Those kinds of things can be corrected. Your confidence will build as you build your organizational skills too, to start......Not sure what else has been the issue since you did not share that.
You are looking for a thank you? Nursing is a thankless job so what are you going to do? Stop living your life for thank yous. If the come they come, if they don't they dont. Life is too short for all of that mess. Just do good and good will come to you. Your bad attitude isn't good, your inability to accept responsibility isn't good. I am not saying you are a bad person because even good people have some faults (not that faults are bad always) Life isn't going to coddle you. Stop looking to be coddled. You are a grown up now, so put on those big girl undies and keep it moving. Wallowing does you no good. Be a WARRIOR NOT A WORRIER. Learn to take positive criticism and stop acting like a child please. You have it in you. I know you do. Don't just look at things so negatively. I challenge you to start saying positive things to yourself everyday (even if you don't believe it) Just make an effort to say positive things. For example if you are thinking " I am worthless" then say out loud " I am very worthy" every single day. If you start eventually what will happen is you start changing your narrative, you start changing your own mind, you will start believing in yourself and you will start noticing your life changing. Give it about a year and see what happens.
It's worth checking into. When I was at a low point and wanted to voluntarily relinquish my license, they wouldn't let me. They knew it would be career suicide. I didn't mean to imply there won't be any ramifications to not renewing your license, there will be. You won't lose it, but that particular license will go null/void after two consecutive renewal periods. Then, you will have to petition the board for relicensure. Depending on where you live, that could mean another board exam. I was able to get relicensure via endorsement and was a 2 1/2 year pain in the butt. An RN refresher course ( $2,500 ), a hotel ( if the school is far away ). The expense of the application ( $ 150 ), the expense of another background check ( $85 ) and the list goes on.
Be honest with yourself, but be kind to yourself. You busted your ass to get here... There are support groups in your area, I forget the name of it. Ask if someone would be willing to mentor you, do an internship to build your confidence. There are all sorts of resources. Take a refresher course for the hell of it and ask to focus on medication passes. You are worth it, don't give up.
Well, not knowing details, it's hard to help. But you did mention something about difficulties getting organized with meds. Those kinds of things can be corrected. Your confidence will build as you build your organizational skills too, to start......Not sure what else has been the issue since you did not share that.
At the end of my other job, when I started to get more organized, I did feel happier and confident at my job. I just thought nurses just remembered everything but I learned quickly that they do not.
twinmommy+2, ADN, BSN, MSN
1,289 Posts
Sorry I haven't read all the other posts past this one, but this one made me stop and take notice.
I am an RN and I also struggle with the after effects of severe bullying throughout my childhood. I was told I would not be able to be a nurse, wouldn't be able to finish school, suffer from depression, PTSD, and generalized anxiety.
You do need to get on the correct treatment plan for what you are feeling. Its ok to feel stuck in the mud, but what is more important is that you recognize it and work on moving past it.
Now, moving through that statement, a series of jobs where medication errors were to blame for the firing may give other jobs the reason to hesitate before hiring you. I like that you are at a position now where you aren't working full time and can maybe concentrate more on doing your best (although I know it doesn't pay the bills). This will give you confidence and improve your skills, eventually landing you a better job.
I just wanted to tell you that you're not alone. Keep trying to find a psychiatrist and therapy that works for you.