My teacher at school is giving me negative motivations. She is the kind of a person who always have the attitude of "not good enough" I'm taking my NCLEX board this wednesday. And I need encouragement to get myself ready.
My teacher challenged me about not being ready. She even bet that I will get 64% on the practice. I've been studying for the past 3 months, 7 days a week. Reviewed Saunders (the yellow book and the orange book) Reviewed Kaplan techniques, strategies and prioritizes. I'm getting the idea how to answer a question. I got 88% on my practice test. She said that it's not good enough, because it's an easy test. WTH she given me an easy question? Is she trying to underestimate me?
So far, I hate people that give bad compliments just like that. What I need right now is emotional support. I don't mine failing with emotional support. Failing an exam without having any support is a disastrous scenario.
But then, on the other hand. She allowed me to take the test. She said that she don't want me seeing crying after the NCLEX. She just don't want me to see a failure. She is afraid that it will affect the passing grade of the school.
Im so piss right now. Why would I be responsible for closing the school because of a failure.
I give credit for challenging me. I'm an Aries, she is definitely challenging me. She said that if I pass, she will eat her words. If I fail, then I will cry like a baby.
I'm so pissed. Aaaah. I will definitely take that as a challange. I just hated when people challanges me. It really psyche me up.
I don't know if she just doing that in purpose. It really gets in to you when you hear negative compliments. I went to see my teacher for emotional supports, and this what I get?
I know myself that I'm ready or not. She even told me that if I fail, I will have to review all over again. What does she think of me? a Dumbass? When I answer a practice question, I used all the techniques that Kaplan is telling me. I was thinking critically when I was answering the practice questions. I wasn't memorizing. I always ask myself why other options are not correct. I don't get it why all the things a work on is not enough.
My teacher wanted me to cancel my exam because she thinks I'm not ready. Actually, I don't intend to do cancel it. Because, like what I said before.....I know myself if I'm ready or not.
Failure is not an option. If there is a will...there is a way
P.S
I'm so mad right now. I will difinitely let her eat all what she have said to me. If I fail, I will not let myself cry like a baby. All I can say is that "I did all of my best, and will difinitely pass the next test"
