I don't blame anybody for getting angry with me at all. I know why my colleagues get angry with me.
i feel so heartbroken and depressed for making some of my colleagues dislike me.
today a patient pressed the code blue. Everybody ran like crazy to the patient, all except for me. I stood there stunned not knowing what I should do once I reached there.
so I just stood there without running to the patient.
1) some part of me knew that the patient had pressed the wrong button because it always happens.
2) I was shocked and didn't know what to do.
so my colleague hit me on my back and scolded me: what are you doing!? U stand here like u are so lost!! , u didn't even go to the patient!!!!
I told her I'm sorry because I really didn't know what to do.
Since gossip spreads so fast, my other colleague who walked past me, she said: Makes me sooo angry.
Later on, the first colleague ignored me entirely even when I said bye to her.
i obviously know that shes angry and who wants to talk to someone who just pissed u off?
Just feel so heartbroken wondering when I will stop making anyone angry.
Even today the nurse who passed report passed so quickly because she hadn't had her lunch break at all, she passed so quick I didn't even hear some details. So later on my colleagues would remind me.
I hate to be this person that stresses people out.
Has anyone every encountered this? Sorry, I'm not seeking pity, just need some assurance and encouragement in this time
After some googling I'm assuming you are a nurse in NZ? From what I understand an enrolled nurse is akin to an LPN. Is that correct?
Either way, the culture of your unit is one that is incredibly unsupportive. I would not stay there personally. In situations like that it's important to not only reflect on your actions and educate yourself to ensure it doesn't happen again, but you also need support from your coworkers.
I wish you luck, keep reflecting and learning and you should be fine.
Enrolled nurse is a term that many countries with a British based nursing education system use, some of the countries include: UK, Australia, New Zealand, Hong Kong.
Enrolled nurse is a term that many countries with a British based nursing education system use, some of the countries include: UK, Australia, New Zealand, Hong Kong.
Can you equate it with a position in the US? That's what's causing some confusion, trying to figure out OP's potential responsibilities in a code system.
Can you equate it with a position in the US? That's what's causing some confusion, trying to figure out OP's potential responsibilities in a code system.
Yes, thank you for the clarification about the nursing titles. So it is established then that the OP is a nurse. Okay. Then what we have here is a nurse who failed to respond in an emergency situation. She stood in the hallway as others ran to aid the patient. She did not assist, she stood there. I don't think anyone would ever condone a coworker hitting someone. Obviously, that is never going to be acceptable. But that really isn't the problem here, is it? The problem is we have a nurse who fails to assist in an emergency. LPN or assistant nurse, you should have MOVED.
Unicorn, you need to figure out what your place is in this unit, whether you wish to continue in nursing, what it is that is the problem. Because in the end, no one wants to be the patient of a nurse who doesn't do her job. If nursing is not where you want to be then find where it is that you will be happy.
I'm stuck on the fact your coworker felt okay to hit you on your back & scold you right after hitting you. There are other issues here of course that you have to deal with personally, but someone placing their hands on me is a big no & I believe HR departments would be inclined to agree with that view point.
I'm stuck on the fact your coworker felt okay to hit you on your back & scold you right after hitting you. There are other issues here of course that you have to deal with personally, but someone placing their hands on me is a big no & I believe HR departments would be inclined to agree with that view point.
My guess is that if she doesn't correct the problem that caused her coworker to make that very inappropriate response, she won't be talking with HR about her co-worker, she will instead be meeting with them over her termination for failure to carry out her duties as a nurse. That is a bigger problem here. That is the big picture. Of course her co-workers shouldn't have touched her, that's a given isn't it? The problem here is that in an emergency situation she stood there and watched everyone else work. Not going to stay employed very long like that nor should she be.
I'M stuck on the idea that I might need to count on this nurse for help and now I know she is pretty useless when it comes down to that. Patient safety trumps all the rest, THAT'S the problem here.
Can we back this truck up a bit and acknowledge that not everyone responds to the adrenaline jolt (and subsequent chaos) of a code in the same way? When I was 10 months in, I reacted the same way: deer in the headlights. It took study and repeated drills (mock codes) so that priorities and actions became automatic before I was any use at all. Perhaps this is what the OP needs.
Of course, I go back to the days when everyone got an ET tube and non-stop bicarbonate. Our code cart - which had to be memorized - had about 48 meds and I don't think there was any such thing as an algorithm in 1972. So codes just about had to be majorly chaotic.
But, even now, with the high drama cowboy culture of acute care, being effective during a life and death emergency doesn't come automatically for everyone. It can be learned, even by people like me. (ACLS cert and code team x 6 years.)
ETA: all the above is not to say that PPs were wrong to talk about the need for co-workers to have their backs - just wanted to point out that I wouldn't write off the OP just yet.
I think that based on all the posts from the OP, other threads, that it's reasonable to say that she herself doesn't feel like this is a good fit for her either. Confirming that would go a long way to figuring out if it's a problem that will resolve in time, like yours did, or if it won't and it's worth recognizing that possibility.
Okay so our American friends don't know what an EEN is. But I do. Firstly EENs are not assistant nurses. I'm wondering why you would say that? That is an AIN. A completely different role and a misrepresentation.
Secondly, I've never found a EEN that useful in a code other than for obs. An RN can do this anyway. So
1. Follow the nurses
2. Leave if there is 4 nurses in the room. Say "I'll go and look after the remaining pts" because doctors and ICU nurses + CCU nurses will come anyway
3. If you need to stay call the code team and be the scriber
Finally
you should find a job in outpatients, MH or rehab. Go to your NUM ask for a transfer. If your inept they will want you out anyway and if your permanent they can't get rid of you. This is a good thing because not everyone can do HDU, med, Surg.
Dont give up, I was a crap grad and moved hospitals and into a far more challenging role and became a very competent grad. I didn't like my fellow nurses in my first job and the culture was crap. Now I'm in a great hospital, I usually have very decent Co-workers and the culture is good.
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After some googling I'm assuming you are a nurse in NZ? From what I understand an enrolled nurse is akin to an LPN. Is that correct?
Either way, the culture of your unit is one that is incredibly unsupportive. I would not stay there personally. In situations like that it's important to not only reflect on your actions and educate yourself to ensure it doesn't happen again, but you also need support from your coworkers.
I wish you luck, keep reflecting and learning and you should be fine.